how many galaxies are we losing per second

JAYNA / XXI / INFJ i see the moon, the moon sees ME. the moon sees somebody i don’t see. god bless the MOON, and god bless me. and god bless the somebody that I don’t see. if I get to HEAVEN before you do, i’ll make a HOLE and pull you through. and i’ll write your name on E V E R Y STAR . and that way the world won’t seem so far.

[bbgwrites]

you can hold the gun and point it at me. i'll trust you enough to play with it, thinking that the safety lock is on without a doubt. and i'll be the fool who gets shot.

you were too trigger happy / @bbgwrites

[aus-yeezus]

[bakwaaas]

[achingchest]

you ever think about what other people’s lives would be like if you didn’t exist

you ever think about what your life would be like if you didn’t exist

they didn’t mean it

it’s okay

you have to learn to think positively

if you want to be happy you will be

you’re not working hard enough

you don’t deserve to be here alive

why wasn’t this life given to someone more grateful for it

laugh

laugh

we’re all laughing

things aren’t as serious as you’re making them out to be

stop ruining this by being sad

stop fidgeting

stop picking at your fingers

everything about you is ugly

suck it up, when it’s time to leave you can cry

it’s time to leave and the tears won’t come out

my eyes are watering but it’s not enough

maybe if i scream to this song at the top of my lungs i will stop feeling

how hard can i grip my steering wheel to stop blood flow

i can’t breathe

what can i do to stop this pain

the cold air is against my face and i don’t even feel it

i’m walking through my neighborhood and everyone’s front lights are turning on

you look as crazy as you feel

do you even feel

are you even real

what street am i on

i don’t remember which house is mine

stop in front of it for a minute

touch every inch of my face with every finger on my hands

feel nothing

i’m hunched over the toilet bowl but can’t do anything but burp

how did i get here

am i even real

staring at myself in the mirror and my eyes are bulging out of my head

they’re bloodshot but i’m still not crying

i want to laugh at how ridiculous i look but my face is distorted

if i could feel anything i’d be scared but i can’t so i’m not

pill label: take one pill two times a day for panic attacks

pill label: take one pill two times a day for depression

pill label: take one pill a day for bipolar disorder

pill label: take one pill 20 minutes before bedtime for occasional troubling sleeping

google search: how many pills do you have to take to overdose

google search: how do you stop reaching the suicide prevention hotline instead of death

google search: how many pills will change who i am

i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself

when does it ever end

stream of consciousness // dissociation

[achingchest]

“in the darkest corners of my mind, i finally work up the courage to ask you. my hair is standing straight on end. i feel nauseous. my lips are shaking. i don’t know how to phrase this. i ask, “do you love me?” it’s so small, it’s almost a whisper. i shuffle my feet. i look down. you look at me. you swallow. you say, “if you asked me if i care about you, i’d say yes. if you asked me if i’d always be there to answer your calls, i’d say yes. if you asked me if i think you are beautiful, i’d say yes. if you asked me if i like hearing you scream my name under the covers,” you pause, a small smile playing on your lips, “i’d say yes. yes, of course.” “but do you love me?” i ask again. you think i’d be satisfied with what you said. but i think i’m just mad. you shrug. “well,“ pause. “i just don’t know,” you say.”

— WHAT ELSE DO YOU NEED TO MAKE IT LOVE (via achingchest)

[owlmylove]

me at 3am: i must buy a lace bralette and new journal and freshly cut flowers and adopt a cat immediately

[achingchest]

“11 p.m. is for single mothers who cradle a glass of wine in their fingers and wait for the sound of a child crying they hope will never come— it always does. 12 a.m. is for high school students to do homework they didn’t have time to do after lacrosse practice and dance rehearsal— they yearn to rest their tired eyes but cannot. 1 a.m. is for sneaking into your bedroom on a school night at seventeen, reminding yourself how tired you will be in the morning, convincing yourself it was worth it. 2 a.m. is for star-crossed lovers rolling in bed sheets smelling of alcohol and tragic dreams that ironically lull them to sleep. 3 a.m. is for hopeless romantics wishing under late-night skies for someone to talk to, for someone who gets it. And all of those people think they’ve got it bad, but when 4 a.m. rolls around the corner, the past sinks into your veins— 4 a.m. is too late for anyone to save you, for when 4 a.m. tells you, “You can’t do this anymore,” you believe it.”

— 4 a.m. (via achingchest)

[5taro-archive]

[hedonist--poet-deactivated20240]

“Replacing one addiction with another, it’s too late to save this generation.”

— Hira (via hedonistpoet)

[horoskippy]

How the signs are feeling

Jaded as fuck and probably just wants to sleep: Sagittarius, Leo, Gemini, Libra

Amazing, only screamed into the void twice today: Virgo, Pisces, Cancer, Scorpio

Hasn’t felt feelings in months but if you had to choose, tired: Aries, Capricorn, Aquarius, Taurus

[witchtips]

Stones and Crystals Masterpost

Agate: Strength, Courage, Longevity, Gardening, Love, Healing, Protection.

Amazonite: Gambling, Success, Auric healing.

Amber: Luck, Healing, Strength, Protection, Beauty, Love

Amethyst: Dreams, Overcoming Alcoholism, Healing, Psychism, Peace, Love, Protection against theft, Courage, Happiness.

Aquamarine: Psychism, Peace, Courage, Purification.

Aventurine: Mental Powers, Eyesight, Gambling, Money, Peace, Healing, Luck.

Azurite: Psychism, Dreams, Divination, Healing.

Bloodstone: Halting bleeding, Healing, Victory, Courage, Wealth, Strength, Power, Legal matters, Business, Agriculture.

Calcite: Spirituality, Centring, Peace, Love, Healing, Purification, Money, Protection, Energy.

Carnelian: Protection, Peace, Eloquence, Healing, Courage, Sexual energy.

Chrysocolla: Peace, Wisdom, Love.

Citrine: Nightmare prevention, Protection, Psychism.  Energy type: Projective. Associated element: Fire.

Fluorite: Mental powers, Meditation.

Haematite: Healing, Grounding, Divination.

Iron Pyrite (Fool’s Gold): Healing, addiction, strengthening of the will.  Energy type: Receptive. Associated element: Earth.

Jasper: Healing, Protection, Health, Beauty.

Jet: Protection, Anti-nightmare, Luck, Divination, Health.

Lapis Lazuli: Healing, Joy, Love, Fidelity, Psychic, Protection, Courage.

Malachite: Power, Protection, Love, Peace, Business success.

Obsidian: Protection, Grounding, Divination, Peace.

Onyx: Protection, Defensive magick, Reducing sexual desires.

Quartz: Protection, Healing, Psychism, Power, Lactation.

Ruby: Wealth, Protection, Joy, Anti-nightmare.

Sodalite: Healing, Peace, Meditation, Wisdom.

Sugilite: Psychism, Spirituality, Healing, Wisdom.

Tigers Eye: Money, Protection, Courage, Energy, Luck, Divination.

Tourmaline: Love, Friendship, Money, Business, Health, Peace, Energy, Courage, Astral Projection.

Turquoise: Protection, Courage, Money, Love, Friendship, Healing, Luck.

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[soundcloudgems]

Marc E. Bassy (Feat. Kehlani) - Made Love First

[varsityqueerleadercaptain-deact]

how do i become easier to love

[rosewater1997]

*literally nothing happens*

me: wow i want to cry

[notcarriebrads]

is anyone else insecure as hell and seriously worried that no one will ever fall in love with them or is that just a me problem

[cgcpoems]

LEO: You really don’t want to admit it, because it’s a pretty ridiculous thought, but you’re scared of what being fully healed from the heartaches you’ve experienced entails. Because you aren’t sure of who you are when you aren’t hurting and you don’t know how to observe the world with unclouded eyes. It’s okay to be apprehensive of the sides of yourself that you haven’t had many opportunities to become acquainted with. While you may know yourself better than anybody else, that doesn’t mean that you need to be an expert on all things you. It’s okay to still be in the process of meeting yourself and figuring out who you are. You aren’t racing the clock. VIRGO: You’re finally embracing the things you’ve been talking about doing for so long, but something feels off about it and you don’t know why. Because isn’t this the thing you’ve been working towards? Isn’t this the life you pictured yourself living after pulling yourself out of the gutter and onto the grass? I don’t think it’s right to assume that you’ve made the wrong decision here, but it’s important to remember that not everything you wrap your arms around is going to feel soft and easy to swallow. Sometimes the right decision has to hurt in order for it to be the right decision. Soon you’ll know if there’s anything that needs changing. LIBRA: I know that trusting your instincts after being led astray so many times is a difficult thing for you to wrap your head around. You’re not the type to forget about the poor decisions you’ve made, or the mistakes you’ve given life to. However, road bumps and wrong turns aside, you are still a person worth listening to. It may seem as though everybody else has a map showing them the route to success and that yours was lost in the mail, but I’m going to let you in on a secret: nobody has a clue, a lot of us are just really good at acting as if we are. You haven’t fallen behind, you’re running with the wolves. SCORPIO: Everyone assumes that you have a lot of love in your life but, while it’s easy to pinpoint a handful of people that have handled your heart with the utmost care, it’s easier to identify those that haven’t. At the end of the night the latter is what plagues your thoughts and wrings the tears out of your eyes, and admitting to that seems like a sign of weakness. But I want you to know that you aren’t obligated to live up to the expectations that the world holds for you. You’re allowed to make your own goals and visit your own places of interest. And the people that can’t love you for that aren’t people that you need surrounding you, anyways. SAGITTARIUS: You have a tendency to look for yourself in everybody you meet, stacking your personality traits up like chips in a poker game that you’re destined to lose. The problem here is that in order to do this it involves reducing yourself to the most basic of traits and that isn’t what you are. Just because you can rattle off a list of acquaintances that use humor to detract from a situation in the same way that you do, doesn’t mean that you’re a carbon copy conglomerate of the souls you’ve met and interacted with. You’re unique, and you’re a lot more than simply a list of shared qualities. There are parts of you that cannot be put into words. CAPRICORN: Has anybody told you lately that they’re proud of you? I know that things have been piling onto your windowsill and that you haven’t had the energy to clean it off yet but you’re still standing tall and you’re still here and that’s something to be happy about. Celebrating the small victories isn’t something that you’re used to doing, but it’s time that you start; it’s time that you open your eyes to all of the things that you do on a daily basis that warrant praise and positive attention. An action doesn’t have to be monumental in order to be important. You do wonderful things each and every day. AQUARIUS: It’s been difficult to get back into the depths of your passion because there’s a really loud voice in your head saying that it isn’t worth it. A feeling of insecurity welling up in your throat and spilling out of your mouth whenever you open it to speak. Sure, your dream is big. Cynics may have told you that it isn’t worth pursuing. But there’s a reason that you’re chasing what you are, right? It’s because it makes you happy, and it makes you feel whole. And I know that it can be incredibly discouraging to stumble over things you care about, but you just have to keep walking despite all of that. Your goals are worth it. PISCES: Lately you’ve been haunted by the memories of people that only came into your life to take. The nightmares have become an almost regular guest in your bed, taking the sheets and kicking your shins every night like clockwork. I want you to know that what you need to do in order to gain closure over the unkind past seems terrifying because it is. I also want you to know that you deserve to move on from those that have harmed your growth in the past. It may seem impossible to reach a place of contentment with the situation you’re picturing as you read this, but you’re more than capable of surviving what’s follow you. Allow yourself to thrive. ARIES: Taking care of yourself still feels foreign, sometimes. Acting adult-like is an oversized jacket that you’re familiar with shrugging off and leaving at home despite the weather that requires its presence. There’s too much societal and social pressure to be fully grown all of the time, in my opinion. Not to say that you shouldn’t be responsible, or that you don’t already take care of the things that you need to, but you’re able to reevaluate what it means to be a successful human being. You aren’t chained to standards or rules or cookie-cutter definitions of “being a grown-up.” Don’t lose touch with the roots that mean so much to you. TAURUS: Another ending, another heartbreak, another name written through the steam on your shower wall. It isn’t fair that you give so much and still only get apple cores and empty promises handed back to you. I know you’re starting to wonder if it really is a “you-thing,” if the absences you’ve needed to learn to exist around were created by your own hands in ignorance. While most failed connections falter on both sides of a line, that doesn’t mean you’re allowed to be mean to yourself for things that aren’t exclusively your fault. Being kind to yourself is a practice that will benefit you more than you know. It’s okay to give yourself a break. GEMINI: Happiness is a lover that always sends you postcards but never tells you when they’re coming home. You’ve grown so accustomed to their quick scrawl reading “wish you were here” that you can almost predict each cards’ arrival after every new bout of sadness. It feels like your emotions enjoy mocking you a lot of the time, making you cry over your latest heartache while reminding you of the moments in which you felt nothing but pure and unfiltered joy. I can’t guarantee the continuous presence of bliss in your life, but I will say in confidence that it’ll always come back to you. Even when you think it won’t. Especially then. CANCER: It’s a lot easier to let the dying embers of a fire fade into darkness than it is to stoke them back to life. I know that you’re tired of crouching next to weak flames, watching them flicker and refuse to glow despite your best efforts, and for good reason. Everybody knows that you deserve better from the world, that isn’t a question. How could you, the big-hearted lover of love, be destined for something as ugly as this? The answer is that you aren’t. Large, beautiful, fulfilling things are on their way, slowly but surely. Don’t forget that it won’t always feel like this. You won’t always view happy moments as a quick reprieve from the norm. Promise.

AUGUST HOROSCOPES, by Caitlin Conlon (via cgcpoems)