i had a dream i got everything i wanted

[aomacheminchiavuoi]

I want to look like I haven’t touched food in months, I want people to be worried, I want people to make jokes about how the wind could take me away, I want to occupy less space possible, I want to be picked up with the minimum effort, I want to be skinny

[bbitches-bbroken-hhearts]

I’m so tired of living. It sucks trying to get better in a environment that caused it and is making it worse. No one cares or understands me.

[bbitches-bbroken-hhearts]

Ugh, I’m so fucking tired of life. I want to go to a mental hospital but I can’t find the words to tell someone. My stress is through the roof and my mental health is the worse.

[bbitches-bbroken-hhearts]

I really need some meanspo, I binged a lot today, gonna fast tomorrow.

[bbitches-bbroken-hhearts]

Me: binge eats

Also me: this is recovery, right?

[bbitches-bbroken-hhearts]

My ed: you’re fat, no one will like you

My anxiety: what happens if people ask you questions

My depression: who cares no one would talked to a loser like you

[bbitches-bbroken-hhearts]

Interviewer: what are your hobbies?

Me @ myself: counting calories, working out, binging, purging, looking at my weight and body.

Me: reading.

[bbitches-bbroken-hhearts]

Mom: why aren’t you eating

Me: so I’m trying this new diet it’s the water and gum diet

[bbitches-bbroken-hhearts]

Mom: come eat dinner

Me: you know what water would taste really good right about now