♡ confessions of a retired beauty queen

what to do with my impromtpu baby?

[junebugbooks]

[theliarsdaily]

[lesgardenias]

When do you feel your most beautiful?

Topless, sunbathing, eating fruit

[czernys]

she lies there, lost; gazing into the abyss - she searches for the stars, determined to discover the patches of smouldering fire, holding the promise of home

non est ad astra mollis e terris / c.o (via reneevalkers)

[bcautyqueen]

text 👯‍♀️ princess

jake: but lucky for me, i've got a girl who knows how take life by the balls and let me know what really matters. and for the record, it's not 'begging', i call it being brave. i love a girl who's brave.

jake: don't be a prune babe, but if you do i suppose i don't mind sleeping in my old bed by myself.. 😇

tor: i just hope i'm brave at the right times. but thanks boo. i know you're just trying to make me feel better. and it's working.

tor: so you're not gonna stay with me? if i'm a prune you're a prune! but i guess i'll finally come to bed when i get tired of being wet. besides you know i can't sleep without someone to throw my legs around.

[bcautyqueen]

storyofmichaela​:

‘‘i’ll have one of those chocolate shake things, please.’‘ it felt like things were finally starting to calm down since homecoming and the fire deal. michaela just tried to keep her head down, mind her business, and get her work done. if there was one thing michaela knew hopw to do, it was be smart. and to her advantage, using those brains to make some money on the side as well. she had a few papers to write for the basketball team and two intro to Bio labs to complete. nothing she couldn’t handle, just kept michaela out of her head for a bit. 

once her chocolate shake was delivered to the booth she was at, she grabbed a small white pill from a baggie: a secret weapon michaela had bought off kai once before that had become a prominent part of her diet. michaela kept her gaze down, occasionally sipping from her drink. when she felt the presence slip across from her, she paused to let out a sigh. ‘‘– i’m kind of in the middle of something. can this wait?’‘

she feels two pairs of eyes on her while she’s standing in line for her strawberry shake. and right now, she can’t be bothered to decide whether she recognizes the girls from hot yoga sundays or picketing outside the courthouse. either way, she occupies herself as soon as she gets her drink, searches the place for a familiar face and slides in next to mimi before she can be approached “sorry...” she says with her head tilted away from the line of customers as she takes a quick sip. “people are less likely to come up to you if you look busy..”

[bcautyqueen]

text 👯‍♀️ princess

jake: i'll give her a call when she's back from ireland with the material girl mama.

jake: no? i mean, i don't make things necessarily easier either. i'm stubborn and i take forever to decide on literally anything.

jake: fishing is pretty easy, might be a little boring, but it's calming sorta. well lucky for you, my dad did an upgrade and it's bigger now, so enjoy the remote controlled jets.

tor: that's true lol

tor: i just always thought it looked cool on tv, like something everybody has to do at least once in life. way to sweeten the deal. now i'm gonna stay in there alll night. and eat s'mores and watch fresh prince on hulu 🤸

[bcautyqueen]

montgomerymalachai​:

“Does anyone have any actual plan for the upcoming holidays or are we gonna have some big thanksgiving dinner at the hands of the cafeteria staff?”

“whether i’m going home for the holidays is still up in the air. surprised mr. montgomery isn’t shipping you all back whether you like it or not”

[thcartierrug]

@maggie_mccormack

[bcautyqueen]

lukebaker​:

at least you know it’ll only be a matter of time.  i’ll pick you up inn twenty. 

i’ll be ready in twenty-five.

[bcautyqueen]

text 👯‍♀️ princess

jake: i knew about your modeling type deal, even back then. also i did live in cali, so i kinda got a good feel for the weird and unusual people in show biz from some stories i heard. madonna's daughter lourdes taught people a lot during that mushroom picking trip.

jake: oh god no. i don't trust mo with safety scissors, let alone a power saw. but maybe some painting and throwing out some trash wouldn't be so bad. then we've got us a date. idk if you're into hiking now, but we've still got that jacuzzi in the middle of the room if you're looking to soak your cares away

tor: lol guess i have lourdes to thank for prepping you on all the craziness of the industry.

tor: ..am i hard to love? you can be honest..

tor: we can hike, sure. and i've been trying to find somebody to teach me how to fish forever now. drew says i'm not quiet enough. and you know i'm always a fan of a hot tub.

[bcautyqueen]

text 👯‍♀️ princess

jake: i'll get over it, don't worry about me. you just focus on your case. if you explain your situation about your parents, i'm sure people will understand why you felt like you had to do what you did. i dunno, something tells me you weren't the first girl this has happened to with this company. all it takes is one brave person to stand up.

jake: no, they left, but maybe we can have some guy on guy sleepovers, in a strictly platonic way ofc. but i hear you, maybe sometime away from everything would do us both some good. we can always go up to my cabin for a few days. the police haven't helped my family yet, why start now?

tor: i do worry about you though. every time some crazy new detail comes out all i can think about is what you'll think about it. and sigh, who made you so wise and good?

tor: yeah, and maybe they can help you fix things up? don't know if i'd trust them with any power tools but anybody can move stuff around and paint? yes pls, closing statements are tomorrow and i'm itching to get away. with you, ofc.

[bcautyqueen]

lukebaker​:

think you should be more proud that i can actually read. you wanna drink where you work? you know i can take you to a much nicer spot, but it’s your world. 

frozen’s closest, it’ll do. you can save your fancy spots for whatever hot dates you’ll have lined up by next week. and you better know it.

[bcautyqueen]

text 👯‍♀️ princess

jake: i'm not mad that you worked at a strip club, mostly because it was years ago and like, i've done my own share of things i don't like to talk about to anyone either..it's just sort of a shock to see that like thrown in my face by somebody i don't know. but don't regret anything, anybody who was that much of a creep deserves to be brought down.

jake: what am i supposed to do? i can't put you in danger, and i really don't want clare and the baby in any danger cause of me either. plus, i'm not alone, i've got my frat bros that hang out here too. they're a little young, but they're strong when it counts.

tor: ik :\ and idk what i can do to make it any better. vanessa told me the same thing but it's like that thing people say about a tree falling and no one being around to hear it. if i say something happened but no one believes me & the jury says it didn't...

tor: then where they when this weirdo snuck in and could've done some serious damage? let me come stay with you for a few days, or you can come stay with me at nessa's, or idk let's get a hotel...did you tell the police?

[bcautyqueen]

text––tor🌻

VANESSA: it won't be. you're a lot braver than me, you're standing up to something people are too afraid to do. maybe seeing you try might make more gurls come out about what he did? or at least less will work with him because of this? but t's up to you, what do you wanna do about the leak?

VANESSA: i've gotten pretty much cleaned all of tiny's leftover stuff out, so the bed's all yours, my love. but if jake's gonna come over, make sure i'm out of the apartment first. :*

TORI: i guess you're right..something good could come out of this even if it's not the way i'm hoping. and if not we can run away together and start a new life in malibu?

TORI: lol i think you'll be fine considering all we're gonna do is watch 80's movies and eat donut holes. but have you and tiny made up yet?

[bcautyqueen]

text––tor🌻

VANESSA: you'd probably have blackheads and low self esteem, but that's not the point. tori... what is the first rule of makeup? i'll have some.

VANESSA: then you lose and we go get sushi. that doesn't change what happen. that doesn't take away the bravery you had to step up.

VANESSA: jake's a good guy, i think. every girl deserves a secret or two, but now that it's out... we gotta handle this. do you wanna stay with me? stay low and off campus?

TORI: rookie mistake ik. my head's just been a little all over.

TORI: i just don't want all of this to feel like it was for nothing. but now more than anything i just wanna try to get on with my life.

TORI: yes pls, i love our sisters but none of them understand the concept of space. ..or me locking myself in my room with a bottle of champagne.

[bcautyqueen]

text 👯‍♀️ princess

jake: it's ok. i know you have a lot going on with your case and everything, which is why i'm not trying to like, bring up drama or put any pressure on you. i just don't know what this is trying to accomplish, like is this defameing thing? does vendetta work for that asshole or something?

jake: yeah, it was wild. i mean, i haven't really had a choice. i'm trying my best to get this frat house into a frat home before christmas. but i think i should be in the clear, i can't let some coward set me back.

tor: well i love you for it. really. i know a lot of people wouldn't have been able to deal w/ all this like you have. honestly, i'm starting to regret even going through with it...i wouldn't be surprised, he has the $ to hire some anonymous stalked to do some digging. but i don't know? i don't think there's any endgame other than to make us all miserable..

tor: you cannot stay there! are you cuckoo? especially not by yourself!