Personal humanoid void

DNI if you suck. Im not a minor but I don't mind minors interacting, just maybe don't DM

[oursystemblog]

[lavenderprose]

As a married person I do need to tell you all that Shane and Ilya do weird shit all the time.

They routinely have entire conversations where Ilya is very softly smacking Shane's foot the entire time. Shane enjoys the percussive feedback.

Ilya mispronounces the word "Application" and they just sit there mutually whispering 'Aaap-li-caaa-shun' at each other for the next thirty seconds.

Ilya comes up behind Shane while he's trying to make a smoothie and says 'HELPING HANDS' and puts his arms under Shane's armpits.

Ilya sees Shane undressing in the bathroom and yells, "Take it all off!"

Shane carries Anya into the bedroom and holds her over Ilya's chest and moves her paws and says, "Papa it is me. Papa it has been an whole hour since I ate. Papa I am so hungry and sad." then drops her on his stomach.

Shane comes into the home office and grabs a pen off the desk and puts it against Ilya's cheek and says, "Any last words?" and Ilya says, "I wish I had eaten more dumplings."

Ilya spends an entire episode of House Hunters International with his hand down Shane's pants. It's not doing anything in there either it's just keeping warm.

Sometimes they are just mutually awake at three AM for No Reason and they go stand on the porch and stare at the empty street together.

Sometimes they are laying there playing footsie on the couch while on their phones (Parallel play) and Shane says, "Does your mouth ever do that squeezing thing. You know. When you eat." And Ilya says "Explain" and they spend the next ten minutes dissecting whether this is a Human Experience or a Shane Experience.

Sometimes Ilya will put his head on Shane's stomach and say, "Show me your boooones" and wait for Shane to lift his shirt so he can burrow under it.

I just think that we as a fandom need to embrace how Weird married people get about each other. From personal experience I am telling you it is SO FUN.

[alltoowille]

Yuna and David having watched their autistic son be so isolated all of his adult life and never having a happy relationship or close friends who understand his anxiety and then finding out that the man they’ve spent a decade hating on his behalf can casually talk him down from a panic attack in less than a minute

[jonnywaistcoat]

Hey Jon, I'm bored and thought this would be funny. Are you a Markiplier fan? And whether or not you are, would you consider watching his horror movie, Iron Lung, based off the game with the same title, and giving us your opinion? It's been doing insanely good in the US. Love your writing, btw! Would also love some tips for writing horror, as a young writer!

I've not seen Iron Lung yet, but I'm keen to as I really like the game.

And I am a Markiplier fan, even though I've never watched any of his stuff. I'm a fan because his streaming of Slay the Princess was one of the big things that started its taking off to a frankly staggering degree, all of which led to me getting a rather tasty bonus from Tony & Abby. So I will always be a fan of Markiplier for indirectly making me a bit of cash. Cheers mate!

And a quick horror writing tip for young writers... Pay attention to rhythm - body genres like horror have a lot in common with music or poetry; because it's as much about flow and timing of the horror as it is about the what the horror is.

[jonnywaistcoat]

Legitimately, given how uncomfortable many folks are with frank discussions of sex in general and BDSM in particular, I don't think people are ready to have the conversation about the similarities between writing horror and domming a scene. Gamesmastering a TTRPG as well - any activity that involves eliciting specific physiological and emotional responses from a participant or audience member.

[oursystemblog]

typing enthusiastically kicking feet and giggling while also thinking "what the hell am i doing"

[themoonandmyman]

listen. listen I know they’re all muscular stereotypically attractive dudes. but it is important to me when Relaxed Tummy.

[pukicho]

You might try to hurt me but I have regenerative limbs and regenerative feelings and regenerative confidence

[themoonandmyman]

whatever you do don’t think about Ilya getting so drunk after a win that Shane has to princess carry him out of the car and ilya is just slurring ‘you are my hero shane’ ‘no I mean it you are so strong and pretty and good at hockey’ and then he starts tearing up and Shane is like ‘ok no more tequila shots for you Mr Russian Constitution’

[chubby-cry-baby]

as we know shane rarely cries but they watch Past Lives and shane genuinely is inconsolable at “you dream in a language i can’t understand” like ilya has to turn off the movie and get shane water and hold him and shane is trying to explain how he’s trying to learn faster and he wishes he understood russian and he wishes he knew what ilya was dreaming but he’s cry hiccuping and can’t get the words out and he’s saying he wishes he could help ilya more with the depression and that svetlana lived closer and that he wishes he knew that his mom called him ilyusha but none of the words are coming out coherently.

[ilya-sweetheart]

someone overhears ilya threatening shane with releasing an incriminating photo and the whole league and twitter goes wild because this is blackmail !!

so shane has to post the photo himself to prove that no, boston captain ilya rozanov does not have any evidence or incriminating documents on shane hollander

instead it’s a picture of canadas golden boy hungover eating mcdonald’s for breakfast flipping off the camera wearing a raiders hoodie

[coolhumanoidbeing]

hard pivoting into making this blog about heated rivalry because i have free will

[clever-and-unique-name]

If you spend your formative years being relentlessly bullied by your family for being "too sensitive" (read: having the normal emotions of a child), one thing you might start to do is repress every emotion you possibly can and excise the rest.

Only, those excised emotions aren't gone, they just get bundled into your subconscious mind. They live just beneath the surface of you, waiting for something (a trigger) to cause enough of a crack for them to pour out.

You can be consciously aware that the emotions you're feeling are unreasonable in response to the actual trigger. But leaning into that ("Stop being ridiculous, you're overreacting!") only leads to more repression, more buildup, more explosions.

This is why I'm repeating over and over to myself today, "You are not too sensitive, you are just having emotions. You are allowed to feel emotions."

Stuff I needed to hear way back when, I can tell myself now. The trick is getting myself to believe it.

[permanenteclipse]

A doodle one of us made as a visual aid to help compare with another system how it feels like it works

[coolhumanoidbeing]

hello I'm back, therapy has been epic and I'm okay with having DID again

[coolhumanoidbeing]

when life is good I barely post here. I think writing is a coping skill, so I'm only drawn to posting when things are bad

[vampcraft-deactivated20231205]

i think as adults it’s our responsibility to be nice to kids and treat them with the respect we wish we got at that age and im not kidding or exaggerating in the least

[neuer-fruehling]

[coolhumanoidbeing]

People that think of children as some kind of incomprehensible other species fascinates me. You were one??

[coolhumanoidbeing]

Getting therapy from an actual DID specialist might be one of the best things that happened to me.

It also helps me see that when people say things like "no therapist would ever say alter" or "Therapists will help you find the real self (aka alter)"... it's all false. A good therapist meets you where you're at. They tend to copy your vocabulary (and not just with DID patients).

I'm still trying to understand they aren't trying to trick me tho. Like "ha!! See? It was a delusion all along! I don't even believe in DID!!", all cartoon villain style.

But I'll get there. And to the next step, and the one after that.

[creekfiend]

About ten years ago I decided that the next step I needed to take in my life was to accept and explore what it meant to be a failure and to have failed. This infuriated almost everybody in my life and clearly terrified a lot of people. People do not want you to accept failure. They dont want you to like... Sit with and think about it and pick it up and turn it arpund in your hands and really examine it. They want you to keep throwing yourself against the impossible walls until your body explodes! They do not want you to say "alright then, I've failed. What does that mean for me? Im still here. What does the life of someone who has failed look like?"

This makes people very angry and panicky.

My mental health improved in ways it had not in the previous DECADE once I stopped. And. Sat. With failure. And thought about what my failure ... Was. And looked at the structures that produced it and examined them critically.

It is so taboo to fail and admit it openly and talk about it. It is so taboo to talk about or think about failure in an accepting way rather than hiding it shamefully until you experience a degree of success in some area which allows you to present the past failure as "a stepping stone" to your current situation. Fuck that. We are put in positions of guaranteed failure by society every day and then punished and shamed for it. Lets fucking talk about failure

[littlest-owl-prince]

"you cant use your disabilities an excuse"

there are many reasons why a disability will disable someone. before you call it an excuse, maybe try considering why their disability, visible or invisible, effects their abilities.