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[kseniyagreen]

I think about how "you're the savior who came to destroy my life" is actually the ultimate expression of the "enemies to lovers" trope for me.

From enemies to lovers isn't complete for me unless their lives are destroyed and saved by each other at the same time.

[eaglerayys]

Suzanne Collins just said fuck you to everyone who’s ever critiqued the Hunger Games as being a “teen girl saves the day” story. She said oh, Mockingjay didn’t make it clear enough? Here’s a book about how people have been rebelling for decades only to have their efforts suppressed and propagandized. Rebellion takes time and it takes failure and Katniss may have been the spark that ignited the wildfire but she did so standing atop the doused flames of everyone who came before her.

[metes-and-bounds]

Not sure how to properly synthesize this thought, but I have some feelings about the Covey and its place within Katniss's story, and I need to get it out of my head.

Yes, she is certainly related to members of the Covey, but there is absolutely no textual support, beyond the songs she sings, for her being aware of her own familial history or having any cultural relationship with the Covey. Suzanne Collins makes it clear in TBOSAS that the Covey is culturally distinct from any of the districts, with their own naming practices, music, clothing styles, and lifeways. They are trapped in District 12, but they are not really part of the district. And to some degree, they are able to maintain that unique culture, despite the Capitol intentionally and forcibly incorporating them into District 12.

However, as a result of Snow's experiences/actions during TBOSAS, the Covey becomes a target (particularly by Snow himself). By SOTR, many of the elements that defined Covey culture in the previous generation (such as public musical performance) have been forcibly suppressed. The Covey still practice some of the same activities (such as going to important places outside of the fence, privately making music/writing songs) that they did before, but what we see in SOTR is a unique culture being actively and intentionally suppressed.

And by the time we get to THG, it is functionally erased. Yes, Clerk Carmine keeps his fiddle and eventually gets to play it in District 13. Yes, Katniss learns the songs her father taught her, that his family taught him. But because of the years of oppression, she doesn't seem to have any sense of the context of any of it. There are the archaeological remnants of what was once Covey, if one knows to look, but Katniss doesn't really seem to know that she should be looking, and doesn't seem to know that anything was lost or is missing. That an aspect of her father's family's culture is gone: that it was taken from her.

I guess where I am going with this is, in light of the prequels THG reads to me as a story not just of authoritarianism and resistance, but also of cultural erasure and the ways cultures linger on even in the face of it. Katniss's family has a rich culture of which she seems completely unaware. It is one more thing the Capitol has stolen from her, and she doesn't even know to mourn its loss. But shards of the Covey's culture and art persist, and in some cases give her the hope and strength and guidance to do what she does in the books. Katniss does not ever seem to think of herself as Covey (if she is even aware that the Covey exist/existed), but the lingering echoes help guide her on her way. No matter how hard he tried, Snow could not make them fall silent.

[oldbutchdanielmolloy]

when the television show makes you feel bad on purpose

[bemusedlybespectacled]

I'm sorry it's been almost a week and I'm still not over this like

okay

imagine, if you will, that you are mel king.

your parents are dead. you were an orphan by the time you were in college. the only person you have in your entire life is your sister, for whom you are now solely responsible.

you spend YOUR ENTIRE ADULT LIFE doing nothing but working towards being a doctor and caring for your sister. you have no friends because you have no free time, or so you tell yourself (it's also because making friends is hard for you but you might not realize that yet). you have no hobbies outside of ones your sister is into because then it's something you can do together. you eat the food she wants to eat and go to the places she likes to go to and watch her favorite movie with her 164 times. you don't watch your favorite movie. maybe you don't even HAVE a favorite movie. literally every day is study/work, go home to take care of becca, sleep. every day.

and then finally you get her into a residential program that she likes and you finally have ONE TINY SMIDGEN of free time (even though you are in medical residency, which means you are bare minimum working 12 hour shifts and probably regularly pull 24+ hour shifts). this is the VERY FIRST TIME you can actually try to have friends of your own.

AND YOU SUCK AT IT.

like, yeah, your boss is mostly nice. your coworkers are cordial. no one's being MEAN to you. but they're also not really listening to you or paying attention to you outside of normal coworker interactions and they literally just walk off in the middle of conversations without even giving you a heads up that they're leaving so you're still talking into the open air like a weirdo

EXCEPT

EXCEPT

this one guy. this ONE GUY who asks you questions and jokes with you and keeps asking if you're okay (which means he notices that you're not okay) and keeps reassuring you and complimenting you whenever you express even one (1) moment of self-doubt or upset

and like, sometimes it's hard for you to pick up nonverbal cues and tell if someone is being genuine or just polite or being nice to manipulate you, but then one of your other coworkers says that you seem to be hitting it off with him (!!) so maybe you can be friends (????) for the first time in your fucking life (???????!!!!!!)

except then he LEAVES EARLY WITHOUT SAYING GOODBYE so MAYBE NOT

but then he's back like an hour later?

but then he's gone again by the time you're off shift three hours late and then you go hang out with your sister and watch elf for the five millionth time even though you just went through a horrific trauma

and then you don't see him again for almost a year

and there are rumors about why he's gone, but you don't want to listen to them (perhaps because then you'd think badly of him and you don't want to think badly of him), but you DO talk to becca about him. maybe a lot? perhaps a disproportionately large amount considering that you spent not even a full shift with him one time months ago? and like, you still have the people in your workplace, and it's fine, but you still spend most if not all of your free time with your sister so when he comes back it's GREAT! YAAAAAAAAY!

(one of your patients asks you what you do for fun and you can only think of one activity that you like independently of your sister and it's something that you used to do. and reading, which isn't exactly a social activity. and then he knocks you over and you hit your head and your day is already not going well but that doesn't help)

but hey THE ONE GUY IS BACK and you have INSIDE JOKES that he REMEMBERED despite it having been almost a year since you first/last saw him and he MAKES SURE YOU'RE OKAY and he GETS RID OF THE COPS who are FREAKING YOU OUT and he TURNS THE LIGHTS OFF AND CLOSES THE DOOR because HE REMEMBERED WHAT YOU TOLD HIM ABOUT THE ER BEING OVERWHELMING ALMOST A YEAR AGO

so OF COURSE you're relieved when he gets assigned to take care of your sister while you're busy getting personally attacked and dissected like a bug deposed and he's great with her and respects her as a person and oh by the way it turns out she has a uti.

a uti that she got from having sex.

a uti that she got from having sex with her boyfriend.

a uti that she got from having sex with her boyfriend whom she's been dating for six fucking months and apparently everyone knew about it

EXCEPT YOU, THE PERSON WHO HAS NO HOBBIES OR RELATIONSHIPS OR LIFE OUTSIDE OF HER BECAUSE YOU HAVE SPENT YOUR ENTIRE ADULT LIFE DOING NOTHING BUT WORKING AND TAKING CARE OF HER.

AND SHE'S GOING TO BE SPENDING THE EVENING WITH HIM INSTEAD OF YOU.

like I am fully team "becca should have as much sex as she wants and supported decision-making is entirely the appropriate legal choice here and mel needs to back all of the way off and stop treating becca like her teenage daughter instead of her adult twin sister" but I CAN UNDERSTAND MEL'S CRASH OUT AS WELL

ANYWAY mel should hang out with langdon and maybe make out with him about it because she needs to have at least one relationship where someone pays attention to her and her needs

behold my kingdon manifesto

[bladeweave]

"they should be in a healthy relationship with good communication" they should be obsessive freaks who stalk each other and have zero boundaries

[guzhufuren]

KINNPORSCHE ANNIVERSARY WEEK 6

Favourite quote

[thedeafprophet]

I love when trauma makes characters messy. I love when characters don't know how to show love. I love when they lash out. I love when they're vile and break down. I love characters who aren't perfect victims. I love when stories don't excuse behaviour but allow you to understand it

[bcimhungry]

vp + text posts that i made in 2022 and never posted <3

[chalkrevelations]

I'm an idiot.

I've had someone doing a deep dive in the past couple of weeks on my VP meta, so I've been re-reading some of the posts that are being liked and re-blogged, and it's made me realize that Vegas "dies" more than once in the show, because only in re-reading some of my posts NOW about how the hedgehog is Vegas does it smack me in the face that the hedgehog death is not just a dress rehearsal for Kun's death, it's also a metaphorical death for Vegas.

Vegas is the hedgehog in the cage, hedgehog dilemma and all, and then he locks up Pete in the cage, and then the hedgehog gets sick and dies, and what does Vegas do? He immediately unlocks the cage to let Pete escape by "accidentally" leaving the keys to the handcuffs and then fucking off to roll over and expose his soft little belly in the backyard by weeping over his dead pet.

Original Vegas dies along with the hedgehog. I'm only putting that together now.

:facepalm:

[myownprivatcidaho]

whatever souls are made of, yours and mine are the same (insult)

[gettingintoknives]

mirror traps by hera lindsay bird

[thisautistic]

[loveisonlyforthebrave8]

vegaspete + same scene, different font. (happy 1 year of pete’s capture!)

[usertoxicyaoi]

“I need you, Pete.” KINNPORSCHE (2022) : EPISODE 13.

[spicyvampire]

KINNPORSCHE (2022) EP.4 ➞ EP.12

[sinnersvegas]

speak into the mic pete 🗣🎤!!!

[dramaism]

Right now, I feel useless. No. I’ve always been useless. You’re the most important person in my life.

[agendratum]

#i love that it focuses on pete in the second gif and then blurs him out to focus on porsche#because the way i wanna interpret that??????????#with how we introduce vegas looking at one of them but they can’t tell who?#and clearly it’s both but there’s a specific order#by who vegas is really interested in and who he makes himself focus on#because no matter how much or how long he has been attracted to pete he had no reason to indulge#and indulgence would have been against all his motives#so he targets porsche as part of his plans#and enjoys toying with pete’s head in the meantime#he may not even realize how interested he really is other than pete being generally attractive#but that safe house works like a rice cooker and brings aaaaaalllll the focus on pete#and god#god they just become everything via @vegasandhishedgehog 

[jimmysea]

Bible Wichapas as VEGAS & Build Jakapan as PETE KINNPORSCHE THE SERIES (2022) dir. Khom Kongkiat Khomsiri

[ameliarating]

#the look on pete’s face though…he’s already starting to crash here i think#vegas is still riding high on the endorphins and feeling warm and fuzzy#it’s starting to sink in for pete what he just did#and he’s not feeling! totally okay about it!

at some point between Pete’s hazy smile immediately after the sex and this moment here, Vegas got up to untie the rope around Pete’s wrists (a voluntary restraint) and chain it instead (absolutely involuntary).

bet he started to crash then.

[itsbinghebitch]

babe are u ok i saw u reblog sad web weaving posts about hunger and yearning and not tagging vegaspete