I don’t know how to handle these feelings anymore. Not seeing you around was so easy. So easy to forget you and not think about you. But now you’re back, and I keep seeing you and my heart doesn’t know what to do. I thought that I was over you, I’m sure a part of me knew I still loved you a little, but I thought I could handle this. Every time I see you, even for the smallest second, my heart physically stops and it feels like a someone is sticking a needle into it. I want to talk to you, even get a smile maybe. But I can’t, I’m too scared of your reaction. I want to apologize for all the horrible things I’ve done and I want to make your disappointment in me go away. I’m not saying I want you back, I’m saying I don’t want you to hate me anymore because I don’t think there will ever be a day when I don’t feel something inside me when I see you. I’ve listened to your songs, I’ve laughed and I’ve cried over them, but I mostly listen so I can hear your voice. That beautiful voice that can calm me down in any given situation, even now. Do I miss having you around? Of course I do, especially now. And I honestly would want nothing more than to just simply know how you feel when you see me too. Is it complete hatred still? Is it a pierce in your heart like mine? Does a part of you want to talk to me too? Maybe one day I’ll have the courage to ask you. I don’t know when that will be, but hopefully one day. I’m so sorry things ended this way between us, you were supposed to be in my life for a reason and I don’t think our story is over. Hopefully someday you can forgive me for the person I was.
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