Broken.

live a life you will remember.

[my-witchy-journal]

🎃Samhain🎃

💀OTHER NAMES: Halloween, All Hallows Eve

💀DATE: October 31

💀OCCASION: Wiccan New Year

💀COLORS: Black, Orange, Indigo, Gold, Purple, Silver, White

💀 SYMBOLS: Apple, Pumpkin, Grouds, Pomegrantate, Acorn

💀GODDESSES: Crone, Hecate

💀GODS: Horned Hunter, Cernnunos, Anubis

💀ENERGY: Death and Transformation

💀INCENSE: Sandalwood, Patchouli, Sage, Sweetgrass, Rosemary, Dragonsblood

💀CRYSTALS: 

Amethyst: protection, clean away bad vibes

Ametrine: take care of yourself, paying attention to your immune system

Apophyllite: helps to connect and strenghten the connection with the spirit world

Black Tourmaline: offers psychic protection in stressful environment, helps to get rid of negative thoughts, repels negative energy, brings awarness

Bloodstone: divination

Calcite: helps to enchance connection to the spiritual world, strangthen clairvoyance

Orange: encourages happy transitions, powerful energy cleanser, helps release past traumas

Blue: offers comfort and reduces fear

Citrine: increase creativity

Danburite: stone of astral travel, bring peace to the subconscious self, protect from dark energy, strengthen connection to the spiritual world

Dragon Blood Jasper: helps to engchance life force energy, helps to find love, forgiveness and compassion

Hag Stone: Witch Stone, protection

Obsidian: enchances Samhain rituals

Phenacite: helps to connect and strenghten the connection with the spirit world

Smoky quartz: security, protection, absorbs negative energy, helps to communicate with spirits

Staurolite:  helps to connect and strenghten the connection with the spirit world

💀TREES: Apple, Hazel, Oak, Pomegranate

💀HERB AND FLOWERS: Allspice, Apple Leaves, Broom, Calendula, Chrysanthemum, Cinnamon, Comos, Deadly Nightshade, Mandrake, Mint, Mugwort, Mullein, Nutmeg, Rosemary, Rue, Sage, Sunflower, Thistle, Wild Ginseng, Wormwood

💀ANIMALS: Bat, Black Cat, Owl, Raven

💀FOOD: Apple, Pumpkin, Pear, Grains, Hazelnuts, Corn, Ale, Cider, Teas, Herbal teas, Meat

💀 ACTIVITIES: Recreate family recipes, Create an ancestor altar, Work with divination, Take a nature walk, Share family stories, Carve pumpkins, ect

💀 SPELLWORK: 

Banishing

Clarity

Divination

Endings

Getting rid of bad habits

Honoring the dead

Letting go

Past Lives

Protection

Releasing

[ahhlurkin]

Backwoodz by ahhlurkin

[dionysian-mystery]

[gentleaddictions]

[beautimustaylor]

Would you know my name

If I saw you in heaven?

Would it be the same

If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong and carry on

'Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven

Would you hold my hand

If I saw you in heaven?

Would you help me stand

If I saw you in heaven?

I'll find my way through night and day

'Cause I know I just can't stay here in heaven

[msdahmer]

I love you.

10 days until your 1st birthday. The guilt is killing me. I try to tell myself that it wasn’t  fault and that the pain would eventually go away. It is my fault and the pain never gets any easier. I listened to everyone else and what they wanted. I didn’t listen to you. You have a brother. I’m sorry he had a chance and you didn’t. I’m so sorry for everything. I was a terrible mother.  

[kerra-nicole]

I thought about you today

It brought tears to my eyes

Still not understanding why

- my angel baby how I miss you

[theproblemswithmissingyou]

Why did you take her from me?

//2:06 (via theproblemswithmissingyou)

[drunk-on-writing]

i knew it would hurt the physical pain, that’s what i was expecting this hurt though, i didn’t see coming because i don’t regret what i did i made the right choice for me but fuck some days just getting out of bed is too hard to do knowing that i might see a commercial for baby products on tv is enough for me to keep it off knowing that i might run into a pregnant person in the shops is enough for me to stay home but even staying home isn’t safe because there’s no escape from my mind from either thinking too much or the static white noise of forcing myself to shut down is it possible to miss someone who was never born? can you still have postpartum if you aren’t really a mom? i know one day this pain will pass and i will be able to breathe again but now but right now it hurts

Anonymous said: Kind of a hard request. But I was wondering if you could write about an abortion. 

Anonymous said: Could you write about the aftermath of an abortion…

(cc, 2017)

[beautimustaylor]

bright eyes- lua

I've got a flask inside my pocket We can share it on the train And if you promise to stay conscious I'll try to do the same Well, we might die from medication But we sure killed all the pain What was normal in the evening By the morning seems insane

And I'm not sure what the trouble was That started all of this The reasons all have run away But the feeling never did It's not something I would recommend But it is one way to live 'Cause what is simple in the moonlight By the morning never is It was simple in the moonlight Now it's so complicated It was simple in the moonlight So simple in the moonlight So simple in the moonlight

[mvxxi]

[tackled]

[aarrt1212-deactivated20240709]

[beautimustaylor]

if my love should see this

know it’s always been you. it is you. it will always be you. i have changed and experienced so much growth. if i could, i would go back in time and beat the shit out of the old me and choke her out for ever hurting the only person i will ever love. i would show you back then how the good finally came out and the bad bits of me were able to be burned and buried.

know i never moved on, and i never will. 

things happened in a pretty crazy way that hopefully i will get to tell you about one day. things i regret almost more than leaving you. but leaving you will always take precedence. honestly though, if i had never left, i would have continued down the path of being the worst version of myself. and you, my beautiful boy, didn’t deserve that for another second.

you never leave my mind, and everything i do is perhaps for us again one day. we will live the life you deserved from the start, and it will be a life to remember.

i miss you terribly... but i’ve waited years for you once, i can wait for years evermore.

i love you forever. you’re my favorite.

[11-515]

[understands]

[eliminated]