Me and My Loves

I'm a 20-something lover, friend, thinker, perpetual student, bookworm, quote lover, coffee addict...

[beautyforashes-is613]

Favorite Things #3

Sharing a French press with you on our mornings off.

Singing, dancing, and drinking with you while we cook.

Sharing my bed with you every night...even after 4 years it's my favorite part of the day, the part that always goes right.

[stayhungry-stayfree]

It’s crazy when you stop to think about how many times you’ve thought to yourself, “This is it. I just can’t bear to do it anymore. I’m done.” And yet here you are. You’re still breathing, still living, still fighting for joy, for life, for light, for love. And you are loved. For as much as you may be struggling right now, you’re here. You’re strong as hell. Don’t forget it, kid. 

[beautyforashes-is613]

Sigh

[psych2go]

I am lonely, yet not everybody will do. I don’t know why, some people fill the gaps but other people emphasize my loneliness.

Anais Nin (via psych-facts)

The loneliness is crushing my soul right now.

[sleevesofgrass]

if you are not crazy, i mean absolutely crazy about what you love, then i beg you, either find a way to be insanely crazy about it or throw it away. you were not born with half an ass human therefore you have no right to half-ass the intensity in which you love.

christopher poindexter (via sleevesofgrass)

[beautyforashes-is613]

I may be calm on the outside, but I'm storm on the inside.

[beautyforashes-is613]

Recovery is hard...even when you're going on 4 years. The intrusive thoughts just kinda sneak up on you...and then they linger and overstay their welcome...not that they are welcome in the first place.

[imsoshive]

Know the difference

[beautyforashes-is613]

I love her beyond words.

[michellepsychologist]

By Emm Roy

[introvertunites]

[beautyforashes-is613]

This is me.

[introvertpalaceus]

[taliabobalia]

when millennials were first heading into high school and college there was a huge trend in news stories about how stressed out our kids are, how their backs are getting messed up from carrying so many books, how they’re sleeping less and doing more school work, and how we should do more to help our kids have the childhoods we had because our kids are falling apart from stress and being forced to be more productive than kids should be. but then once millennials started hitting the workforce all the news was about how millennials are lazy and narcissistic and entitled lmao you were real concerned about us until you found out a 23 year old is more qualified to do your job than you

[quasi-normalcy]

That’s because at some point in the middle we stopped being “their children” and became a bloc of terrifying outsiders with foreign values and little regard for what had been their established cultural norms.

[solarpunkarchivist-deactivated2]

I’d forgotten this but you’re right. I think it started earlier though, it started when we started out performing them on exams. Then suddenly all our schoolwork was easy and we were being rewarded for just showing up.

[awesome-picz]

[beautyforashes-is613]

Still one of my favorites :)

[jiujitsubunnies911-deactivated2]

The thing that sucks about deciding that your depreasion will not overtake you is that you don’t feel you can whine anymore. You don’t complain about being unable to move from your bed; you just move. You don’t tell people how badly you want to die for fear of seemingly crying wolf.

You’re depressed and you don’t even feel you can ask for a helping hand to lift you out of it. Things just are. Time continues. Your heart mends but never quickly enough. Shit happens, and you’re expected to push forward as though your brain stem is not constantly attempting to wrap itself around your neck.

I often wish I had let go when I still had the chance.

[beautyforashes-is613]

I feel this.

[beautyforashes-is613]

[beautyforashes-is613]

I have high-functioning but moderate to severe chronic depression with recurring episodes of major depression. I've also seemed to develop some sort of anxiety disorder. So, I have dysthymia and major depressive disorder and some sort of anxiety disorder. So my brain is almost always trying to kill me. My brain is almost always trying to override my body's natural survival instinct. Why am I saying this? Because I'm high-functioning, so I don't think most people realize how hard I fight to get through the day and make it through it alive. Because I feel like I have to wear a mask so that other people aren't uncomfortable around me because no one knows how to react around someone who is mentally ill, so instead of believing I'm sick they tell me "you don't seem sick, or, everyone feels like that sometimes, cheer up, things will get better." So I'm taking off the mask for a brief moment to say that no, not everyone feels chronically depressed and anxious, that's actually a sign that something is wrong. I actually am mentally ill, but I do my damnedest not to let it win, . And I hope to dear God you're right and that things will get better, but I also need to be realistic, I've struggled with this for 10+ years, I might just struggle with it my whole life.

[mothurs]

who else is feeling the crippling weight of the universe tonight ;)

[aseaofquotes]

[sequinsed]

I read this in my 11th grade english class and i still think about it sometimes.