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" you're the fucking 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙨𝙩, you never make no sense. . . " OSDD(?) system. ex-host. 19yo angel ---------- ill hopefully doodle us and add it here sometime ---------- <3 - i like horror movies, indie music and cool games (omori, nitw, signalis) checkout 'Gnosia' btw. it's like if danganronpa was awesome.

---- ♫ - waxwing (sorry)

alteredpanel

a deer is just a piece of meat to you

heylsgowt

bpdohwhatajoy

The day I realized that wanting to be saved is in fact a trauma response and that no matter how old I get, I’ll be a small child waiting for someone to save me

#killing myself

neurodivergentaf

it's so wild when your parent changes when you become an adult. my dad is very cordial and non confrontational - he regularly helps me with adult stuff like changing the oil or providing insurance tips. he's always smiling when i call him on video and providing jokes when i complain about college

when i was a kid, i would have to tiptoe around his anger issues often, sometimes running quietly past his work table until he got his own place completely separate from our family, locked away for days. every so often he would start screaming in the car and trying to hit me or my brother for talking too loud while my mom attempted to calm him down as he swerved on the road. and now he, smiling, helps me with car insurance.

like oh, this is just who you are when you have power over someone, and this is who you are when you dont have power over someone. no wonder you can have a normal life, friends, work while scaring the shit out of your kids and wife. i see it now. i see why no one would have believed me. that, i think, is one of the core fears of trauma - seeing the outside of it from the perspective of other adults that brushed you aside, and understanding. of course, that understanding gives the opposite of solace; it just gives you more grief with nowhere for it to go