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Come on my period for the first time in about 4/5 months (I'm on a certain type of pill) and I'm dying 😂

I have such a busy day today as well

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Feel like fucking trash.

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Imagine being important to sum1 lol

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It's 9:30pm and I'm already considering going back to bed

When did my life become so boring

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Sitting alone at home drinking wine and eating Crisps with chicken nuggets

Depression takes on many forms

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I've only eaten a portion of fat free yoghurt and fruit today

The last two days I've binged ate to the max and feeling hungry feels good

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I wanna punch something

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When will anything make an impact on you?!

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Feeling so down today

What the fuck? Why does my brain let me do that

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21:40

Relaxing after a wonderful weekend with all those who I love.

Luck and happiness have been on my side these last few days and I'm going to continue smiling because of it.

I haven't felt low in the longest time and it's so refreshing and enlivening to feel this way again - let's keep it this way please! 🌈❤

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Happpiinnesssss 😁😁😁😁😁😁

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I'm a lucky gal

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I've got the best weekend planned. Just a few more days of work to go...

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22:04

Viewing through property's where I live. I can afford these places definitely, but taking that next step is so nerve wracking! It's a bit stupid really because I know I won't be able to get through it alone and I don't wanna pressure my boyfriend into moving out when money troubles are an issue. Hmm.

I'm back at work tomorrow after a couple of weeks off (well, from my main job). A little nervous but that's the norm with me now haha!! Going to watch a bit of TV in bed until around 12am and try and get some sleep after that.

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Just finished a day of baby sitting my neice ella and my sister's dog. So, basically just a chill day... going to spend tonight relaxing before an early start at work tomorrow - then I'll feel better for sure.

Also been experiencing some knee pain recently. Putting it down to a minor injury I had a few months back, some damage to my ligaments or muscle possibly? Definitely not painful enough for a fracture. We shall see.

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My good mental state is slipping again over a stupid act over the weekend.

I am so unbelievably lucky to have Henry in my life who is so supportive and understanding. So that will make this mission to get better a lot easier.

It won't be easy and I have known it's been coming for a while. When I am better again, everything will just fall back into place.

Baby steps...

[straylightjay]