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Just started reading A Little Life by Yanagihara.

Why is Jude acting like tfc Neil Josten; super elusive, raggedy, declining offered help, then asking for help as a last resort, "im fine", apperantly locking everything that has a lock and looking for exits the moment he steps into a room, has scars he hides...

#this may be far fetched #or not. idk yet #aftg #a little life #trauma mia here we go again

beemovieerotica

please say sike

instigatorjosten

does booktok know if they want just dialogue comic books exist?

#can you fucking imagine reading aftg w just dialogue? hilarious #< prev #tkm would half its size bc andreils intense eye contact convos would be lost on anyone watching them #we'd feel like the upperclassmen who think Neil magically makes andrew agree 2 stuff #ts sent me #aftg #neil josten #tfc #the foxhole court #tkm #trk #all for the game #andrew minyard #andreil

So crazy to me that Andrew had the hots for Neil from the get go. Like. It must be such chaos in Andrews head considering his contradicting feelings/instincts.

Cause on one hand Andrew is territorial and keeps tabs on Neil's "fascination" with Kevin and grills him over it...

& on the other hand he was probably thinking fuck fuck fuck fuuuuuuck why are you spewing lieees, just sit still and look pretty

#i just dont get how he could've been attracted to Neil if he thought he was bad news #neils pov makes much more sense to me bc he only feels smth after his initial distaste towards andrew subsides #and this only happens bc andrew proves his loyalty & strength to neil #(cue neils swarming abt andrews shoulders)#aftg #neil josten #tfc #the foxhole court #tkm #trk #nathaniel wesninski #the kings men #the raven king #andrew minyard #andreil #all for the game #all for the gay #beeatabb

We learn from Neil from day 1 that he has issues regarding his appearance.

In Arizona, he storms to the restrooms to check his roots; he wears contacts; he wears clothes a size too big for him; he LOATHES his father's inherited looks; he's super sketchy about his scars; he changes separately bc of that; his reveal to Andrew is a WHOLE MOMENT-

#when i tell you i was as taken aback as Neil was #like. girl.#anyway #aftg #neil josten #tfc #the foxhole court #tkm #trk #nathaniel wesninski #the kings men #the raven king #all for the game #all for the gay #allison reynolds #allison Reynolds aftg #beeatabb

dykekarkat

autocorrect Really wants to change heat to heart so im getting hit with sentences like this

#'thats a lot of commas you would do anything not to end a sentence' okay well. theres ALSO a semicolon. so fuck you #< so off topic but REAL #andreil

sambuckycap66

Somewhat confused about canon for AFTG. Remember when Riko convinced Neil to spend winter break at evermore by threatening to have a doctor at the rehab SA Andrew? Something Andrew said to Neil after the events of that chapter kind of implied that it happened anyway. Did I misunderstand this?

was Andrew still SA'd by that doctor who Riko was paying even after Neil agreed to take Riko's deal? Bc if so that's fucked up bc then Neil suffered for no reason

did Andrew’s therapist actually hurt Andrew?

Yes, Neil went to evermore for nothing.

No, you made that up.

Voting ended onMay 25

#I gotchu prev im on the hunt rn ill lyk when i find it #< if u do share with the class please <3

neroholik

#aftg #all for the game #aftg fanart #andreil

495lz

happy 19th birthday jr. :)

#aftg #aftg art #aftg fanart #aftg fandom #aftg trilogy #all for the game #all for the game art #all for the game fanart #nora sakavic #neil josten fanart #neil josten

daddyduncansdaughter420

"He stopped fighting to get free; the hands that had been trying to wrench Wymack's arms off him now held on for dear life."

The Raven King, Chapter 16

my roommate keeps just saying "oh, i'm not hungry" over and over again. I think i broke her.

#aftg fanart

keksikart

i know something bright exists 'cause Renée told me — it's inside of me

Ghost from the past.

just gonna leave this here:

"Neil, you can use the girls' shower while we're busy."

Neil stared at her. "What?”

Neil had noticed, but he hadn't thought his teammates would. That they had, and that they were doing something about it, knocked the wind out of him. He tried to answer, but he didn't know what to say. The best he managed was, "Is that really okay?"

"Kid, you're killing me," Nicky said. "Why do you always get that deer-in-headlights look when someone does something nice for you?"

"It's really okay," Dan promised. Neil tried to thank her, but she waved it off with a breezy, "Nope. None of that. Just don't steal all the hot water."

allfortheslay25

#aftg #aftg fanart

dismemberedlemon

Sometimes I think back to Neil's time in the nest, he was there for two weeks but pretty much only remembers his first day and when Jean dyed his hair back. This man, who remembers his father killing people when he was a CHILD can't remember most of what happened in the nest, WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED???