idk

just a sweet lil cocktail of anxiety, depression & oc skin picking. yum

[overthink]

[teardropzzz]

[slim--pickins]

Mood: scabby Aesthetic: swollen

[eloquencly-deactivated20211012]

[behindthespots]

I'm done. I can't take this anymore. I'll never be hapoy, what's the use in trying

[stimtime]

Every person without OCD/a BFRB who’s ever said that they’re “so OCD” about something owes me fifty bucks.

[behindthespots]

Looky I'm rich

[skinpickinghell]

[sansastark]

a weird thing about having developed mental illness at such a young age is i honestly don’t know sometimes how much of me is a symptom and how much is down to personality, like i honestly do not know my core self and it troubles me A Lot

[delusional-borderline]

the worst thing about being mentally ill is like.. nothing is wrong.. my life is pretty okay right now.. everything is fine. and yet.. theres this sinking feeling in my stomach and i cant stop thinking about dying

[spookyloafer]

[behindthespots]

Ugh. This is new. I meam, what even is this. Like i don't already have enough BFRBs.

[behindthespots]

I'm not sure what's more frustrating - having a lot to things to pick at or having nothing to pick at.

[insecuritext]

[behindthespots]

hey

So i just wanted to say thank you so much to the followers i have on this blog. That kinda makes it sound like i have a lot of followers, which i don't, lol. But being united with people who share similar struggles has helped me more than i could ever express (mostly 'cause I'm dumb). I just wanted to let you know, i actually have 3 separate blogs linked to the one account. So, if you recieve notes from - xoxofinescissorsister69, that is me, hello. A brief breakdown of my blogs for anyone that is interested. (I would post links but I'm also too dumb for that, so.) xoxofinescissorsister69 - celeb crushes/likes, aesthetically pleasing, no drama, all that (who i want to be) imrubberyouareglue - things i like or relate to. things that are sad, things that are funny (basically who i am) behindthespots - the truth, my skin picking/ dermatillomania, my anxiety, depression (who i don't want to be) Thanks again ♡ xo

[badlydrawneverything]

[behindthespots]

fallen off the wagon

I was doing so well with my skin these last few weeks. I actually got to the point where my skin had nearly cleared up completely. The best it had been in a very long time. But of course, as always, I'm back at it. It's mind blowing how accurately my skin reflects my mental state.

[seekingthesolutions-blog]

Cheater

The absolute worst part about dermatillomania is the contrast between how elated and relieved you feel as you’re picking and how ashamed, angry, and *sad* you feel when you finally walk away. 2 hours later. Dermatillomania lies and it cheats you out of what true elation and happiness and relief feels like and replaces it with shame and depression.