i'm forgetting to brush my teeth again.
i always take that as a sign that i'm starting to fall apart again.
and yet, it tells me that my mind is starting to get anxious again and then i will be so unmotivated for the next few days (sometimes weeks) and everything feels numb and i forget a lot of basic simple things and everything feels so overwhelming and i want to kill myself and not exist anymore i dont know what to do anymore i dont know i dont i fuck
im back to being an annoying and lazy bitch. figures.
i cant even commit with the simplest of things.
i fucking suck i shouldnt exist i shouldnt be here i dont deserve to be here djhrkfekfjkejdjd ugghhhhhh i hate myself.
it's gonna take me weeks to go back to "normal" ugh i fucking hate this.