depressed sick girl idk

[wishiwasanyonelse]

I get it when people avoid me. I don’t even want myself around.

[7nvk]

i think i was born wrong. faulty, incomplete. something is inherently wrong with me, and i’m not sure if anything can fix me

[saduboiss-deactivated20260204]

sometimes I just get so sick and tired of fighting just to survive.

[bella123405]

i’m expected as a disabled person with a terminal illness that will very likely kill me one day to work a pretty difficult and physically demanding job, take care of our 5 dogs, clean the house, do dishes, cook dinner, do laundry. and still somehow try to save enough money and find the time to go to school and start a new career. plus go to the millions of doctors that i have to in order to stay alive (idk why i am anymore) plus try to apply and get financial assistance for all my medical bills and then pay it all. plus grocery shopping which is incredibly difficult bc of my many health restrictions and somehow still find the time to take my meds and take care of myself and get enough sleep and spend time with my spouse and talk to my friends and family. i’m fucking done. i’m not cut out for this shit

[bella123405]

i really wish i could finally just do it. i’ve been feeling like this for so long and the past few months have been unbearable. i reached out to both my mom and my husband today and told them how i’m feeling and was quickly shrugged off. i tried reaching out for help. it all just seems so pointless. nothing to look forward to anymore. i wake up constantly in pain and sick every day of my life with no help or answers from the dozens of doctors i’ve been too. i can barely sleep anymore. can’t hold down any food. 21 yrs old and still can’t even drive. no job. no aspirations. nothing brings me joy anymore besides my dogs and my little sister but my dogs will be okay bc my husband will take care of them. my little sister will probably struggle and for that i will be eternally sorry but i just don’t know how much longer i can keep doing this anymore. i hope it doesn’t hurt anyone too much. i hope it’s quick and that my pain will finally end. that’s all i really want. i don’t even really want to die. that’s the problem. i want to live. truly live. but i can’t. i’m too poor and too sick and can barely even do the dishes or do some laundry without feeling like i’m gonna pass out. if any of my loved ones ever see this, just know i’m sorry. i truly did fight with everything in me. i’ve been fighting for almost a decade and it’s just a battle i can’t win. i’ve been drowning for so long and i just don’t have the strength to keep fighting for a breath of air. just know i tried. just know i loved you more than anything in the world. i’m sorry. i am so sorry

[bella123405]

gorgeous gorgeous girls have a million medical problems with 0 answers from doctors and think about sewerslide every single moment of the day

[spooxie]

[notdesignedforthis]

| oc | rb allowed |

[sa-dnesss]

[jupiters-saddest-alien]

I don’t wanna get out of bed. I don’t wanna eat. I don’t wanna go to work. I don’t want to go anywhere. I just wanna fall asleep and never wake up.

[abnormall]

[sagirah]

I realized today that I have stopped living life. I’m literally just trying to get to the next day, just living in the thought of tomorrow. I‘m not living, I’m waiting. And the problem is, I don’t know what I’m exactly waiting for. I‘m kind of scared for what it might be.

[abnormall]

it just gets worse and worse and worse and worse and worse and worse

[lostdeepindarkthoughts]

[painpoetry]

[abnormall]

i am utterly disappointed in who i have become. i wanted to be someone better, someone important, someone beautiful. but instead i waste space, i waste time and i burden the people i love. this isnt the future i had in mind for myself and i know its too late. i’ll never get that future i dreamed of as a child.

[cadonosorrisi-deactivated202503]