swansong,

[bella5wan]

lamb /lam/ (adj.) stupid.

# BELLA5WAN.* a semiprivate iteration of isabella swan, plucked from the twilight universe and almost entirely rewritten. incredibly anti-smeyer. my portrayal of bella does not rely on her relationship with edward as a driving factor towards her decision-making. it is an important part of her character development, but it is not the primary story that i want to delve into.

[ a deep-dive into ] : the plain jane, adaptation, parenting yourself, wanting something you cannot have, believing the unbelievable, dreaming, & being too dumb to live but too smart to die, among others.

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[bella5wan]

i fear bella was a little lizard freak in phoenix

[astrronomemes]

LADY BIRD: STARTERS

a collection of quotes, phrases, and sayings from the 2017 film Lady Bird. change & alter as needed.

"I wish I could live through something."

"Okay, fine, yours is the worst life of all. You win."

"You should just go to city college, with your work ethic. City college, and then to jail, and then back to city college. Maybe you'd learn how to pull yourself up and not expect everyone to do everything for you."

"You have a performative streak, I think."

"Everyone who auditioned got in. The part I got was basically me not getting in."

"That's something rich people do. We are not rich people."

"Oh, yeah, I remember you! You were wearing that dress."

"I just don't get why I'm not good at math. My dad is really good at math."

"Have you ever been out of the country?"

"Why do you care what I do to my clothes?"

"My mom is always mad. It doesn't matter if I get home late. She'd be mad at me anyway."

"I think we're done with the learning portion of high school."

"I think [name] wants to make an entrance. She's mad we don't have a spiral staircase."

"What the hell is in that duffel bag?!"

"How do you know when it's working?"

"Your mom was really sad you weren't here tonight for Thanksgiving."

"Do you need money for the applications? Because I can help with that, too."

"I'm not paying you to flirt!"

"Yeah, sex is not a big deal. It's just that my mom called during it."

"Don't worry. I'm not gonna snitch on you."

"The government didn't have to put tracking devices on us. We bought them and put them on ourselves."

"You are actually fucking evil. What is wrong with you?"

"When do you think is a normal time to have sex?"

"Being successful doesn't mean anything in and of itself. It just means that you're successful."

"You can't do anything unless you're the center of attention, can you?"

"Yeah, well, you know your mom's tits? They're fake. Totally fake."

"Just because something looks ugly doesn't mean that it's morally wrong."

"You give me a number for how much it cost to raise me, and I'm going to get older and make a lot of money, and write you a check for what I owe you, so that I never have to speak to you again."

"I don't even sort of understand why somebody would lie about that."

"You're going to have so much un-special sex in your life."

"Don't you think maybe they're the same thing? Love and attention?"

"I just wish... I wish that you liked me."

"I want you to be the very best version of yourself you can be."

"You aren't going to get in the car with a guy who honks, are you?"

"I'm just crying. Some people aren't built happy, you know?"

"I'm going to miss the fuck out of you."

"Please, [name], please, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. I appreciate everything you've done for me."

"I wanted to tell you, but we weren't really talking when it happened."

[bella5wan]

i Will be changing the twilight lore entirely actually.

[bella5wan]

now what do i change renesmees name to,,,

[mcflymemes]

PROMPTS FOR SHARING COMPLIMENTS AND PRAISE *  updated version. assorted dialogue for uplifting remarks, adjust as necessary

i think the world of you.

that was very brave, what you just did.

they owe you their lives.

you made it work.

i just knew you'd find a way to get it done.

you looked at me like you cared, like you saw something of value in me.

i didn't know people like you existed.

no one else listened to me when i came to them. except you.

i think you're doing an incredible job.

they'll never forget you after that.

you've shown me there's more to life than this.

you're getting better at that every day.

you make me want to do better.

your hair looks really nice like that.

you have great taste in music.

you should be very proud.

you inspire me.

i can tell how much time you put into that.

i enjoy spending time with you.

i look up to you.

that was incredible!

thank you for all you’ve done for me.

i’m so proud of the person you’ve become.

did you cook this? it tastes amazing.

i don’t know who i’d be without you.

you saw me when i was invisible.

that was really brave of you.

you did a really nice job.

thank you for caring about me.

that was a brilliant performance.

i’ve always admired you.

i’m so lucky you love me.

you always manage to make me laugh.

i’m very proud of you.

that was great! let’s try it once more.

how can i ever repay you?

it’s so great seeing you do what you love.

you catch on quick.

i loved that book you recommended.

you’re so brave.

i’ve never met anyone as kind as you.

i see you as a role model.

let’s go out to dinner and celebrate you!

you clean up nice.

i love what you’ve done with the place.

you did everything you could.

i couldn’t do this without you.

you have endured so much, and yet you still stand here.

did you do this all by yourself?

you’re really easy to talk to.

i’m a better person because of you.

i knew you could do it.

they never took away your kind heart.

you’re so cute.

your kindness drew me to you.

i always believed in you.

you make it look so effortless.

you always check to make sure i feel comfortable.

your passion really inspires me.

that looks like something out of a magazine.

i always knew you had it in you.

i trust you.

i admire your ambition.

your hard work paid off.

you never gave up. even when they told you it was impossible.

you’re such a strong person.

you have such beautiful eyes.

i admire your confidence.

no one else would listen to me. you did.

i can always depend on you.

i’m so glad we met.

you always care about my input.

you’re my hero.

i’m so glad we’re friends.

you’re more than enough.

you smell really nice.

i can tell you’ve been practicing!

you blow me away when you do that.

you are exceptional.

[bella5wan]

absolutely Hate the way that they did the bella/rosalie scene in eclipse now that i've refreshed my memory reading the book

[bella5wan]

thinkin ab .. .. edward Not saving bella in twilight . .. . , ,

[astrronomemes]

LADY BIRD: STARTERS

a collection of quotes, phrases, and sayings from the 2017 film Lady Bird. change & alter as needed.

"I wish I could live through something."

"Okay, fine, yours is the worst life of all. You win."

"You should just go to city college, with your work ethic. City college, and then to jail, and then back to city college. Maybe you'd learn how to pull yourself up and not expect everyone to do everything for you."

"You have a performative streak, I think."

"Everyone who auditioned got in. The part I got was basically me not getting in."

"That's something rich people do. We are not rich people."

"Oh, yeah, I remember you! You were wearing that dress."

"I just don't get why I'm not good at math. My dad is really good at math."

"Have you ever been out of the country?"

"Why do you care what I do to my clothes?"

"My mom is always mad. It doesn't matter if I get home late. She'd be mad at me anyway."

"I think we're done with the learning portion of high school."

"I think [name] wants to make an entrance. She's mad we don't have a spiral staircase."

"What the hell is in that duffel bag?!"

"How do you know when it's working?"

"Your mom was really sad you weren't here tonight for Thanksgiving."

"Do you need money for the applications? Because I can help with that, too."

"I'm not paying you to flirt!"

"Yeah, sex is not a big deal. It's just that my mom called during it."

"Don't worry. I'm not gonna snitch on you."

"The government didn't have to put tracking devices on us. We bought them and put them on ourselves."

"You are actually fucking evil. What is wrong with you?"

"When do you think is a normal time to have sex?"

"Being successful doesn't mean anything in and of itself. It just means that you're successful."

"You can't do anything unless you're the center of attention, can you?"

"Yeah, well, you know your mom's tits? They're fake. Totally fake."

"Just because something looks ugly doesn't mean that it's morally wrong."

"You give me a number for how much it cost to raise me, and I'm going to get older and make a lot of money, and write you a check for what I owe you, so that I never have to speak to you again."

"I don't even sort of understand why somebody would lie about that."

"You're going to have so much un-special sex in your life."

"Don't you think maybe they're the same thing? Love and attention?"

"I just wish... I wish that you liked me."

"I want you to be the very best version of yourself you can be."

"You aren't going to get in the car with a guy who honks, are you?"

"I'm just crying. Some people aren't built happy, you know?"

"I'm going to miss the fuck out of you."

"Please, [name], please, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. I appreciate everything you've done for me."

"I wanted to tell you, but we weren't really talking when it happened."

[tragicwrit]

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[edwardamasen]

MIDNIGHT SUN: CHAPTERS ONE & TWO SENTENCE STARTERS.

feel free to change pronouns as necessary.

❝ This was the time of day when I wished I were able to sleep. High school. ❞ ❝ How is he holding up? ❞ ❝ I could easily be frowning out of boredom. ❞ ❝ Is there any danger? ❞ ❝ Let me know if it gets too bad. ❞ ❝ Thanks for doing this. ❞ ❝ Their instincts told them what their conscious minds would never understand: we were dangerous. ❞ ❝ You weren’t going to do anything. I could see that. ❞ ❝ I’d wished, at the time, that I could explain to her exactly what would have happened if my lips, and the teeth behind them, had gotten anywhere near her. ❞ ❝ I acted as a lookout, for lack of a better word, for my family. To protect us. ❞ ❝ He’s gorgeous, of course, but don’t waste your time. He doesn’t date. Apparently none of the girls here are good-looking enough for him. ❞ ❝ So, is the new one afraid of us yet? ❞ ❝ In that instant, I was nothing close to the human I’d once been; no trace of the shreds of humanity I’d managed to cloak myself in remained. ❞ ❝ I was a predator. She was my prey. ❞ ❝ I was sane again. I could think again. And I could fight again. I could fight against what I didn’t want to be. ❞ ❝ I’ll miss you. No matter how short a time you’re gone. ❞ ❝ On the contrary, I’m the one who’s being rude - abominably rude. ❞ ❝ Don’t be a gentleman. ❞ ❝ You’re a thousand times lovelier than the stars, ______. ❞ ❝ Maybe you’re not as scary as you think you are. ❞ ❝ Very human, ______. Why don’t you punch the wall while you’re at it? ❞ ❝ It would look more impressive if you did it, baby. ❞ ❝ Actually, I feel a little sick. ❞ ❝ So you kill one human. That’s hardly the end of the world. ❞ ❝ You’ve got to learn to get over things. ❞ ❝ What is it about her? ❞ ❝ ________ is staring at you. ❞ ❝ He doesn’t look angry, does he? ❞ ❝ I didn’t have a chance to introduce myself last week. ❞ ❝ How do you know my name? ❞ ❝ Oh, I think everyone knows your name. ❞ ❝ I thought there was something different about your eyes. ❞ ❝ She was advanced then, intelligent for a human. ❞ ❝ It’s too bad about the snow, isn’t it? ❞ ❝ Why did you come here, then? ❞ ❝ Her smile just made me want to smile in response - to be in on the secret. ❞ ❝ Hasn’t anyone ever told you? Life isn’t fair. ❞ ❝ You put on a good show. But I’d be willing to bet that you’re suffering more than you let anyone see. ❞ ❝ Why does it matter to you? ❞ ❝ I clearly was not as perceptive as I gave myself credit for. ❞ ❝ Am I annoying you? ❞ ❝ I’m more annoyed at myself. ❞ ❝ I’d never expended so much effort to understand someone in all my life. ❞ ❝ I find you very difficult to read. ❞ ❝ Nobody died. ❞ ❝ You wouldn’t be the first one to mess up. No one would judge you too harshly. ❞ ❝ No, it would not be better if I got it over with. ❞ ❝ I’ve never seen him actually talk to anyone for more than a word here or there. ❞ ❝ It was like she thought she was dangerous in her decrepit truck. ❞

[bella5wan]

writing in first person . ...

[bella5wan]

   ❝ you look like you're in pain, ❞ @hrtached's face the very picture of concentration: furrowed brows, lower lip chewed raw ⸺ nothing but confusion in his eyes. if they were in a cartoon, she's sure there'd be steam blowing out from his ears. entertaining as it was, bella was just happy that he was finally putting in the effort, even if his reasoning wasn't necessarily aligned with her own. her, keeping her grades up to eventually receive her golden ticket to a decent college; him, maintaining a c+ average to keep his place on the basketball team, with hopes of an athletic scholarship in his near future ― she supposed that though their paths diverged on the how, their end goal was exactly the same. fingers reach across the bed to pull the textbook out from in front of him, shutting it and pushing it further away all in one fluid motion. ❝ why don't we take a break for a little while ? we've already been at it for a few hours. ❞

[bella5wan]

# BELLA5WAN.* a semiprivate iteration of isabella swan, plucked from the twilight universe and almost entirely rewritten. incredibly anti-smeyer. my portrayal of bella does not rely on her relationship with edward as a driving factor towards her decision-making. it is an important part of her character development, but it is not the primary story that i want to delve into.

✱ this is a sideblog. all follow-backs will come from @endfght.

[stavroginas]

Haruki Murakami, from Norwegian Wood

[soulrph]

send in " take it easy. you're safe now, but you need to relax. " for the sender to greet a waking receiver after having found them badly wounded and on the brink of collapse at their doorstep.

alternatively, send in " how long was i out for? " for the sender, having woken up on the receiver's sofa/bed/spare bed, to greet the receiver after showing up on their doorstep earlier with serious injuries and in a weakened state.

[astrronomemes]

EVANESCENCE: SELF-TITLED STARTERS (PART I)

a collection of lyrics taken from Evanescence’s self-titled album. change & alter as needed.

“Do what you want.”

“Do what you want ’til you don’t want it anymore.”

“Stand and face the unknown.”

“Remember me? I’m everything you can’t control.”

“You don’t have to lay your life down.”

“Do what you want ’til you find what you’re looking for.”

“Every hour slipping by screams that I have failed you.”

“Only love will guide you home.”

“Remember who you really are.”

“Don’t waste your time.”

“It’s never enough for you.”

“I don’t want to play your game anymore.”

“I’m all out of love for you, baby.”

“I’ll numb the pain ’til I am made of stone.”

“Make me everything you need me to be.”

“I will still remember when you’ve long forgotten me.”

“I thought that I was strong.”

“You say you love me, but it’s not enough.”

“I never meant to lie.”

“I’m not the girl you think you know.”

“The more that I am with you, the more that I am all alone.”

“How could I forgive you?”

“You’ve been dreaming if you’re thinking that I still belong to you.”

“My heart is broken.”

“I can’t go on living this way.”

“You’re not even mine.”

“I will always be waiting until the day that I see you on the other side.”

“It’s too late to change your mind.”

“Every day, I’m waking up in someone else’s life.”

“I’m gonna save this wasted life, and nothing can stand in my way.”

“Burn it ’til there’s nothing left.”

“I’m drowning in the mess that I have made.”

“I cannot erase this darkness in me.”

“I only have myself to blame for it all.”

“I’ve been denying this feeling of hopelessness in me.”

“You believed in me, but I’m broken.”

“I’d like to feel like I belong here.”

“One day, we won’t feel this pain anymore.”

“There’s nothing that can change the way I feel.”

“I can still taste the poison of every thought, every breath, I wasted here.”