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What Dreams may Come

When you sleep, it gets kinda difficult to account for the lost hours while you re unconscious. I remember only parts of my dream in detail, that is….important moments.

Like for example, the first time I remember meeting the arch angel Gabriel. I took note of what he looked like. He had a long face, light beard, and small eyes. He told me he was number 3 in the chain of command.

I also remember the time where I had to carry out my duties. Much of what I was suppose to do then were kept highly secret for some reason. Then I remember going into this beach front restaurant in one of those visions. I remember walking in and the lady who had an apron saw me and immediately ushered me to my table. There sat a being dress in a hood. I look into this face and saw a galaxy of stars. He handed me a scroll, and said….here are your mission orders. He didn’t have a mouth, nose of any facial features except the galaxy and stars that you see in the night sky.

I didn’t think much of it until I mentioned it to Colin one day. He paused and said something like….’fuck…you mean you met…XXXX’. Now he had given me the name of those class of beings. I just can’t remember their occult terms of names. So I asked him what is the big deal about meeting them? He said….’Ben, those are the messengers of the highest order from God.’ Apparently they don’t just appear for a round of coffee just for fun or  just for anyone according to Colin. I was wondering why they couldn’t just text me if they wanted to reach me as a joke but Colin always took it more seriously than me.

Of course we found out what what we were here for. We were part of the team that would provide damning evidence to the arch angels on the misdeeds of the Grey Council. The 14 members of the council have abused their position and power to meddle around for the last few thousand years and it has taken that long to bring them down.

OMFG, it has taken them this long to get the perpetrators to justice. I cannot imagine that they had taken so long to act and only two member teams were involved. I never understood why more were not asked to handle the matter. I suppose there were other damning evidence that we were not aware of and they had to act.

Sandalphon did not act but he did plan it. During the removal, he wasn’t present. Only the arch angels were present. The 14 council members were….actually I am not sure of the exact term….but I think the correct way to put it was being shot at dawn….or something like that.

What happened next in heaven was a riot and a war.

Like politics, those who found out about the sudden demise wanted answers while the shadow empires which have enjoyed much love and respect wanted an inquest and all those responsible for the damning case removed from Earth.

Colin was the first to die. He knew it was coming and he warned me to expect it really soon.

Then shit hit the fan and I had to find my own way home I guess.

As I write this, this so called war is still ensuing. I am quite happy to go home to fight but they won’t let me.

Now what is the consequence for Earth? The good news was that the end of civilization will no longer happen. Apparently that bit about doomsday were all part of the Council’s long term plans to bring more misery to Earth. That didn’t sit too well with the opposing party….who I work for, as Earth ultimately is a school for training and evolving souls from all over the Universe. Shutting down the school or for that matter limiting its intake with an all out nuclear war would mean school would be closed for centuries.

I know the aliens could come down from their places and clean it all up. But that apparently didn’t sit too well with them since they are after all bio engineers. After a million years, they are still tinkering on the best way to reform the genetic code so that we can be better suited for harsh environments. To throw a spanner in the works by having an all out nuclear war would mean going back to the drawing board to redesign the genetic code….and that would take a few millions years more.

You must understand that Human Beings are an introduced species to Earth. They are an invasive species that goes around destroying the flora a fauna when chilling out. There are so many technical problems now that we have global warming, a natural phenomena when mother nature tries to accommodate more life forms by making the earth warmer. In a few centuries, Canada would be a tropical forest. Which sounds like a great plan but not all of nature’s creatures will survive the change.

Till this day I still miss the Mammoths from the last ice age. It is this sort of nostalgia that makes me want to leave this place.

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Poems of God Man

Can humanity be saved? Apparently not.

Maria Voltorta wrote about Jesus through vision and voice of which came to her as visions. Many Christians would think that she was hallucinating, but that’s not the point. The point was that the books she wrote were nothing more than a possible account of man’s failure to heed God’s teachings.

If you look into other so called gospels, like the one from Barnabas. It basically talks about change….which didn’t happen. In Poems of God Man, Maria’s so called account of the day to day happenings in the life of Jesus were nothing more than idle chatter. There is useful nuggets, like give encouragement to those who need it and about inspiring others to the good way of life. Even the secrets of Mejudgore revealed by the blessed lady are nothing more than words of encouragement.

However if you look at what is happening today, and to those accounts by Maria of the olden days. Nothing has changed. Man hasn’t evolved spiritually at all.

Mohammed’s coming which was mentioned in the book of Barnabas sorely points to the fact that Jesus knew he would fail and another prophet will come in his place. Not only that, Mohammed’s action never liberated the Jews. His followers isolated the Hebrews in the holy land but now, both Moslems and Jews are working together to dominate the world…..as if….Moslems have themselves been transformed into card carrying Zionist. So the Moslem world is now one with the Hebrews. Weird isn’t it?

If you count the fact that Hitler failed to punish the Hebrews…then you can also count on one thing….Heaven has been a consistent failure to improve man’s position in the spiritual universe.

Me and Colin gave up a hell of a lot to get some things done for them. To know that you are working with the United Nations of failure was a task so daunting, I wanted to take the option to bail out….twice.

As a baby, I was so stricken with diarrhea that I would die. Then as a child, I contracted Malaria….to the point that I had to receive blood or else I would die….

I failed twice to get out of the mess I signed up for. But trust me, Heaven’s own departmental mess does not inspire anyone these days. They have a dearth of new talent, capable beings refuse to take up positions here of leadership because they know how fucked up the administration has been.

I have repeatedly summoned Sandalphone’s messenger to tell them about the mess they are having. They can only look at me annoyingly and say…’i know, just don’t repeat it’.

Gabriel can’t help too. Personally I think he was quite happy to hand the reigns to Rafael. Under his burning bush stewardship, Gabriel’s rule didn’t inspire confidence on Earth even though great plans were put in place.

Then we have Rafael. Before he took the hot seat. I liked him a lot. He’s the only arch angel who had a sense of humor. Then when he took up his position, he clearly could not do anything.

Ok, I am being harsh as it’s only been the last eight years that he has taken over this new post but then, you could also tell he couldn’t handle his job very well.

It takes time to change.

But I won’t be here to see it.

The new changes were to be phased in over a 3,000 year period according to Colin before his death. Gabriel told him that. Which says a lot about the confidence he had in Rafael. Normally it would only take 2 thousand years or less, as in the case of Jesus and the coming of the anti-christ. This is something which Gabriel took credit for. Even though both events failed to change humanity for the better. 

I don’t have much to say to the both of them as someone else is watching over me.

Arch angel Michael is watching over me now. As you know, this arch angel is the favorite when it comes to cemeteries and death is related to his area of expertise. Now he’s not much of a talker. Before you open your mouth he already knows what you are going to say. But I say it anyway to him for the sake of verbalizing my desire to leave this place. I feel that he knows my pain and disappointment. Releasing me would be the right thing to do but politically, it would be a defeat for Sandalphon.

But I also know that Michael the arch angel is also the angel of protection. For some reason, he’s protecting me from those folks in Heaven who want me returned to the fold. They would try to arrange for incidents to happen to take me out. For some reason, these failed…twice.

Frankly, I rather return as I am virtually living like a hermit, without even knowing if I have enough money for a roof over my head. I miss my friends who are in Heaven. Some think that it is pure wolly headedness that I remain here. I have nothing to lose by not being here….

Right now, my immediate family…my mother, brother and sister stand to gain a lot if I died. It would give them some freedom to do the things the could not do thanks to a locked up pension scheme and a insurance policy that will benefit them. My mother is old and she needs to experience life, something I wish I could give her if not for my miserable position.

This is why you need to analyze those forbidden books like the one written by Maria. 

The Poems of God Man to me is just another depressing account on how Heaven has failed to make this place better. After all these years, you find the same folks at the same tables double dealing hands to benefit their own.

I know it’s not my call to change them. I am not responsible for the mess since it’s been here for 5 thousand years. To me it is a painful reminder. I shun those who are spiritually developed and wish to talk to me. One reason for this is that I can’t do anything to help them. The other is that I have nothing to offer them except some kind words to send them on their way. Technically, it’s like a broken record from the time of Jesus. I can say wise things but the reality of it all is that thing won’t change until Heaven takes a firmer stand on what it’s objective is about. All the major religions have failed to impart this change.

The only arch angel who has won is Lucifer.

Lucy, as me and Colin would call him, is not a bad dude. He’s very capable. Mammon who has taken over the reigns in purgatory, well, that dude is psychotic. I don’t get into meetings with him because he doesn’t like meetings of any kind. I remember talking to two of them, Asmodeus and Beezlebub, They were administrators of Purgatory and were of high rank. I told my Godmother about meeting them as she wanted to know what they looked like. Boy…was she surprised. For me, these angels of hell are decent folks. Polite and generally very operational in focus. I don’t think I will be holding another meeting with them for the rest of my life here. My role is to ensure that the balance between good and evil are maintained….as a paper pusher. I have no power over them nor do I have power over what they do. I do however have the power to recommend changes upon my death. I pity the guy or gal who takes over my place next. It’s not going to be an easy job as I will have to file tomes of reports.

To me, Mammon has already won the battle. His area of expertise is Greed and material wealth. About 70 percent of the world’s wealth is in the hands of one percent of the population. Technically speaking, the politics in Heaven are dictating a balance of good and evil, there 50-50 split. So 1 percent owning 70 percent of the World’s wealth can also be interpreted as the angels in hell are underachieving their target since they only have 1 percent of the world’s population who subscribe to their greed. This is the technicality that has besieged the politics in Heaven.

Every man is capable of both good and evil deeds. So as long as they view this statistic as an under achievement, the angels in hell actually has a very good case to further their goals even further on Earth.

I don’t hold grudges against the angels in purgatory. They are good at what they do and that’s why they don’t need any further help. Humanity as a whole is doing fine without even having to summon them up for courage.

However some of their own minions who are sent to Earth to do bad deeds will have to go home. That would be my recommendation once I get back to give my debriefing.

For the spiritually uninitiated, read the holy books and get an idea about the time and place and how they behaved. Then contrast that to what you find today….objectively. You will then realize that there are more lies told in the news than truths.

Facts are a matter of interpretation. If you consider that the NSA spying scandal has led to the downfall of FIFA and put an end to its greed and corruption. Then you can say that it’s a good thing….at least in a spiritual sense. But will another more greedy party take the place of the fallen?

Only time will tell.

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Farewell....

This is my last post. If you are reading this, that means I have redeemed my ticket to heaven and am not returning.

I have at this point a pretty miserable life. Made so by the competing factions in Heaven who do not want me to contribute anything for this world for fear of upsetting the delicate balance.

Life is unfair. That much I know. But as an officer in Heaven, you’d think I would have better retirement benefits. Well no. Nada.

There are laws and more laws that they want you to follow and not upset the balance….to that…I told them….fuck you.

The world is in a very dangerous state. Economic policies of many countries are very close to collapse. People are loosing jobs to machines or slave labor rackets through trade packs. More people are being born while less human potential for actual work that is being created.

The world is in a mess.

Sure the meek shall inherit the earth. That’s like saying all future fighter pilots are geeks who trained on Xboxs and Playstations.

But worst of all, my dreams of having my own life and a child of my own can never be realized. My desire is to retire as I have been fighting all my life. First, it was the Grey Council, and then, it was the Shadow Empires in Heaven who want me removed. Then you have God sending messengers telling me…Hey…you can’t do this or that while you are here. Well fuck you very much.

I refuse to be a part of a game God created where I am just a secondary object of the whim or fancy of other people’s options. You are like that ugly fish in the fish tank. You may have a wonderful sense of intelligence and wit but you never get picked because people who come by always pass you up. But in heaven, they always say there is a greater plan in that, which never came so fuck that.

I have very sharp differences with Heaven in all manner of things related to Earthly affairs. They don’t get what their policies will end up doing. And their often selfish nature dictates that you should be put in a box and open when they have something for you. Or else you rot.

The arch angel Rafael has been on my receiving end of my tirades….thankfully he still has a sense of humor. Gabriel…well….he’s quite useless—I wish he would step up and be bold as the Arch angel Micahel.

Michael…..good for bashing other spirits up and though he understands my plight….he can’t do anything unless I want some being cut down…..my boss Sandalphon…..he needs to work on his communications.

My health is failing. I can’t afford to pay my bills and Heaven can’t get their act together. Too many fingers in the pie.

Shadow empires are so worried that I will go after them that they have lobbied for me to be removed. My boss finds that amusing. Hence I have to be dragged through the mud for his entertainment.

Being effective in what I do and want to do is paramount to my well being. If I don’t have a purpose here, or one that I am keen on pursuing, then why wallow in a mud pit waiting for action.

There is a saying that time and tide waits for no man….try telling that to the Administrators of Heaven.

I am sorry I can’t be here to share more with you. This blog ends here. But before I go, a last message for all my friends who have played a part in my life.

For my family…..I hope you stay together regardless of what Mom wants. Jack….you have adopted your own family so good or bad, you have doubled down on the package. Roland, mom loves you the most and I think it is high time you repaid that attention by taking care of her. We both left you the family house and land because me and Jack knew we won’t live that long to see it through.

For the rest of humanity, I only have this to say. The world will be a much tougher place to live. Learn to farm and grow your own food. Try to be as self sufficient as possible because the future promises wars based on trade. Lifestyle habits have to change. Currencies will be made worthless overnight.

Good luck and Godspeed.

And no, please don’t elevate me to the status of a deity. I have no wish to grant wishes for anyone.

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The Power Behind the Runes

I must confess that my journey into the occult started with the Runes & this paved the way to my meeting with Colin who not only became my best friend but also my spiritual mentor. He was at that time far more advanced in this area of expertise as I was only using mine for divination. Colin’s Runes were hand made from wood and stained with his own blood.This was a magick rite that gave him access to the Rune.

Colin read deeply on his chosen subject but more importantly, he was already an adept….having the gift of second sight and the ability to leave his body to go on journeys far from this place….and I am not even talking about Earthly destinations.

My Runes were made from clay, and wasn’t yet empowered for Magick use. For me, the summoning of Freya or Odin just didn’t make much sense as all I wanted was a divination tool. I still remember that day when I was introduced to him. He sat quietly as I explained my experiences with the Runes and he looked amused. We became best pals after that.

I greatly admired Colin for his in depth knowledge of the Runes and it was this that led me to better understand how Adolf Hitler users them to further his dominion over the German people.

For example, the much feared Waffen SS or Schutzstaffel as they were eventually known used the Sowilo rune symbol as their insignia. All of Hitler’s henchmen were well versed in the pagan meaning but the use of the Swastika from the old Hindu religion made me wonder what was the motivation behind it. The Thule society, used a variation of the Swastika but if you know the Runes, you would also realize that the old Norse religions also had that symbol.

In Heaven, several tribes were chosen as God’s chosen people to lead humanity. The Hebrews, Atlanteans and even the Hindus were believed to have been past candidates….and this is where Hitler married the Aryan and Indo European culture and religions to create his master race.

The Aryans are in fact from India, who traveled to Europe on a nomadic journey just like how Gypsies ended up all over Europe. People speak badly about the Gypsies today but they still hold to true to their shamanistic culture. It was also the Gypsies who brought the Tarot cards into Europe, which later transformed into our version of playing cards used in poker and blackjack.

I found Hitler infinitely interesting for many reasons. And how the Runes played a part in his quest for world domination.

Hitler has been acutely aware of Occult secrets and courted many so called occultist of that time to further understand how it could be used to his benefit. The is where Madam Blavansky played her part too with Theosophical thought.

The Hebrew religion and Hinduism are approximately the same age. Some say that the Hebrew religion predates Hinduism which I believe is pure bull. One must not forget that Jesus spent his lost years in India learning the mystic arts. He wondered around, took lessons on how to walk on water and turn water into wine. These party tricks still exist in this day and age and are performed by so called ‘illusionist’ for entertainment. It is sad if you knew that Jesus could not do anything spectacular that can’t be done today by the some old unshaven mystics. Casting out demons? Colin could do that with his eyes closed so let’s not even go to that level. Jesus greatest failure was that even with the Christ spirit acting within him, he failed to convert the Jews. This was his paramount task and he failed to do it.

The Hebrews themselves have their own occult path, known popularly as Kabbalism.

Kabbalism, is a very deep metaphysical subject which has very little use for humanity. It is an occult science in itself that has little practical value on Earth as most of the spirits conjured using these spells is of little help to earthly pursuits. You could treat it like Yoga and meditate to get better health….while others like Colin was more interested in the worlds beyond our own called Otz Chizm. He had visited all the 10 Sephirots and told me at length on what went on there (this sort of bored me to death as it had no practical value for me except that the arch angels who ruled them could be summoned to earth….but I digress).

Hitler’s use of the Runes were for the most part symbolic at least within the Waffen SS. He already had the divine right to exist, the Anti-Christ has to be born as the punishment for the Hebrews had to be meted out. It was Heaven’s way of retribution. Some may judge Hitler’s action for causing so much grief to the Hebrews as evil. But let me remind you this. God never created evil. Even the minions in hell can only influence you to do the deed. They do not put your finger on the trigger and get you the fire the gun. Hitler was a necessary evil and was born with divine right to punish the Hebrews.

Like Jesus, Hitler himself was also deemed a failure in Heaven. Even when he had the Christ spirit in him (in retribution terms….he was the anti-Christ) he was indolent. He was born as the greatest human orator and yet he failed to make a difference. I could easily put in the numbers and tell you that he didn’t stand a chance of winning this war because he was outnumbered.

Across the Atlantic, he had to deal with a Jew named Franklin D Roosevelt. In England, he had Churchill…..who is also a Jew. Then to the East….he had to deal with closet Jews by the name of Stalin and Leon Trosky. It would have been a very different story if Rasputin survived the assassination attempt made by the Bolsheviks and kept the Romanovs in power. The world would be a much better place.

Man, in his own right decided to be evil because of its own selfish wants. Hebrews  chose to paint an evil picture of the Anti-Christ while not recognizing its own dirty hands in their refusal the evolve as spiritual beings. What goes around comes around.

How can the administration of Heaven could go so wrong? Fucking it all up twice in two thousand years is probably not the first. As I have said before, Heaven is rules by different departments who all have their own self interest at heart.

Different departments could not fully agree on what should be done and in that, we have come to this. It is like working with a third world civil service on a four day work week. Things are bound to go wrong and it will go wrong….which is why we Murphy’s law originated from them.

This is something which Rudolph Steiner could not share with the world and instead chose to leave this Earth when Adolf was about to assume his sanctioned position on Earth. Hitler had just emerged from prison in 1924 and was on his way up. Steiner could never write about these problems because he had a greater vision, that is to use spiritual knowledge for practical and earthly purposes. Humans as a whole didn’t need to now that the administration of Heaven worked as divided group.

What Hitler did realize was that the old religions should have had some power and the Norse ones were the best fit. His time in prison probably gave him the opportunity to think, and write about what he thought and till this day, his book holds great fascination among philosophers. Even though he believed in Pagan power, he only needed the Spear of Longinus to claim his rightful place on Earth. Needless to say, that wasn’t enough as he didn’t know he could fail just like Jesus did.

I explored Wagner’s operas, which portrayed the ancient religion as a musical of sorts.

Colin was an expert in the Pagan tradition and he would summon all the deities as he wished. What he told me about the old religion is that that the power built around the old pagan script could be used for Magick….if you knew how to use them. He once explained to me his desire to use only the Runes because of its sheer force once the power was unleashed. It was that raw power that interested him.

Each Rune was a doorway. Once you have the key and upon opening it, don’t expect Odin to be on the other side welcoming you open arms. That door when opened became a torrent so strong that it would obliterate anything in its path. It’s sort of like releasing a hurricane when you were only thinking of bringing in a breeze to cool the afternoon heat wave. Colin’s ability to indulge in sorcery meant that he could understand how energies were used.

He used this runic force to destroy demons and elemental spirits in the nicest way possible. He would go into a haunted place, tell the spirit folk to move out and if they respond with aggression, Colin would just use the power of the Runes to wipe them out. It was very effective nonetheless.

So the Rune script have power, and only their shamans knew how to use it. Berserkers of the old world would summon this power when going into battle…and that’s what gave them their brutal reputation. Unfortunately the Waffen SS didn’t have berserkers, even though their cruelty were well know but I must say that whatever the Waffen SS did, they could not even equal the brutality of the Japanese soldiers in WWII. The Japanese would toss babies in the air to bayonet them for entertainment and killed their POWs in a blood sports.Moreoever, the Japanese never needed any magick to conjure up their brutality. Hitler’s Waffen SS ….were doomed even with the blessings of the Runes..

Colin also knew Hebrew (he can also use the same technique to unleash the force so to speak) but he told me that Hebrew wasn’t effective enough to bring the storm with the flick of the switch. It was by all accounts a language to communicate with the Angels and Devils and effectively used to conjure spells and make talisman…which are themselves sources of energy from Heaven. He explored all the worlds on Otz Chizm. Spoke about them at length but he knew I wasn’t up to it to understand each and every one of them.

Hebrew is also ideal for summoning devils from hell. They will always turn up, eager to please but wanting their pound of flesh in return for their services….which reminded me about how a typical Zionist would work. I sometimes wonder if all Zionist were actually angels from hell who have taken up a human form (apparently not since they are part of the shadow empire which wants to extend their reach into this world).

I do not believe we should be reaching out to history to condemn what has happened but rather, to understand the Karmic implications of everything that we often do and chose to forget and then blaming others for the very crimes we were first guilty of. It happens quite often apparently…even today. Governments which are elected into office often serve its own cabal of masters. The occult is just one way of describing the sort of crap that we face.

This is why spiritual thought has failed to take root in humanity. We are just far too busy with Twitter and Facebook to give a hoot about our own spiritual upbringing and pursuing our true goals. But Heaven also has to take the blame for not being able to enforce their on edict. That is to make us better spiritual beings after spending time here.

And let me also remind you that being religious doesn’t make you any more spiritual. The Hebrews have proven that beyond any reasonable doubt. The Kabballah is the greatest spiritual testament to this and yet, they haven’t the faintest idea on how to behave in this world except to serve their own selfish goals.

This is why I have lost my faith in Heaven. They have a lot of plumbing to fix before they get anything right.

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Pain as a source of Spiritual Growth

This was what the Grey Council believed in. That was their argument but seriously, it is often an open ended. True, that has been much to gain through pain….exercise often promote the No Pain no Gain theory.

This is a flawed theory because everyone’s threshold for pain is never the same. When you have pain, you may not gain anything. Think for a moment of those who refuse to give up thinking that they are fighting for God and their own mistaken belief. War is very painful. But in the end, war is not a good sign of human stewardship. When the Nazi’s used the slogan, Arbeit macht frei, it was as it if they were telling that self-sacrifice in the form of endless labour does in itself bring a kind of spiritual freedom….or  karmic redemption.

I must say that war made my Grandmother more resilient. During the second world war, went through much suffering. The family lost everything, the Japanese were brutal. My own great Grandmother died of starvation in China during the Japanese war. I sometimes ask myself if this was what made her stronger. Apparently not.

A mystic once told my Grandmother that she was an Admiral in the Chinese imperial Navy, went through much hardship and that made her tough.

But real strength is only evident only in your natal chart. How you cope with pain and suffering is all part of your character in this life. Heaven is sending so many new souls to Earth for a taste of life. So how is pain suppose to help? That’s why we get more poverty. That is suppose to be a source of pain for spiritual growth.

These KPIs are what causes the balance of good versus evil. Heaven uses an algorithm to met out pain and reward. The problem with this is simple. For people to overcome and be strong, we need good leadership. This is entirely lacking on earth since every politician is self serving.

I had a lot of hope on Obama when he was elected to office. He showed the signs that he was clearly inspired. But to the end, he could not move a single soul. His leadership has done nothing but complicate things on earth. All the cares for in his lame duck years is to leave a lasting legacy so has to cosy up to the supporters who give him money. Bhutan’s King, Jingme, is probably the only one who thinks otherwise. In his time, he wants to pave the way for democracy so that people will get to elect their own leaders but then, leaders chosen by men are all self serving.

Religious leaders are the same. Self serving and speaking only half truths to ensure its own legacy in the world.

I often wonder if business leaders would act in the same way. Those in sports seem to follow the same political route. Enrich yourself before all others. Fair game is not fair.

In difficult times, strong leadership is important and this is why Heaven has no candidates. Why would anyone sign up with a flawed system to teach a class of misfits? Leaders are born and not made. Leadership is not a hard skill that you can pick up through a correspondence course.

As long as human stewardship is lead by poor leaders, there will be no evolution. The pain and suffering leads to recalcitrant behavior as seen by the acts of the Hebrews….and they get rewarded with even more material gains since they toss their holy man to the Cross. What manner of insanity is this?

Heaven hasn’t got an answer. I often draw a blank card when I ask them for something outright.

As this blog comes to an end, I give you no answers to what lies in store for humanity except for more suffering and pain.

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Medjugorje was just another dial in reminder

Colin was one of those who visited Yugoslavia….and found himself in Medjugorje before the war ripped the country apart.

After the death of Marshal Tito, no one would have predicted that a war could have taken place at that scale or at that a calming voice of spiritual reason would come before this great upheaval.

Colin was greatly appeased by the environs, and he even says that some of the priest there were….holy mystics….capable of much but doing little except to inspire.

But for me, the collapse of the former Yugoslavia could only be understood by karma, and I have told a few that the real reason was that the Grey Council in Heaven, took it upon themselves to punish the Bosnian moslems for being a part of the anti-christ movement led by Adolf Hitler.

The Waffen Handscher division were Moslems. So let me put those Neo Nazi bull shit about the purity of the Ayran army to rest. Even though Nazi philosophy was basically about white aryans, it never did mention anything about not having allies and people of other races fighting for the Nazi belief. For their part, these groups were not spared. It is the same for the Ukrainians, who supported Hitler’s efforts in the last great war….they too are being punished but in here, we find the hands of the shadow empire trying to make a quick buck from the business of war. Today, we understand War in a spiritual light….it is a business for those in power to make money while using people as pawns in a game of life. 

The Blessed Lady probably got wind of the Council’s plans and appeared in Medjugorje to ask humanity at large to pray for peace….love…and forgiveness so that Yugoslavia would not be broken up.

Marshall Tito was a good leader, even though his detractors would say otherwise. He remain decidedly neutral in the face of the cold war and it was after this death that peace was finally shattered.

Colin never spoke of any secrets we didn’t already perceive. War, suffering, death were the usual stuff you normally pick up on when you get a warning sign of sorts from Heaven. Unfortunately those signs went unheard and we had war, genocide and much suffering….

We have to ask ourselves why did something of this nature happened?

This unfortunately was an easy answer as I saw the grubby paws of the Council all over this one. They had taken upon themselves as lords of Karma to punish those who followed the one sent by Heaven as the punisher. The things you see in Ukraine is much smaller in scale because the Council is no longer involved in seeking its own brand of justice.

This is what the divisions in Heaven that no human can talk about. This is where Heaven, is a divided nation where each department wants its own say and influence in the running of the business of Earthly affairs. This is their ultimate failure. 

The angels are powerless to prevent this as their only way to counter this is though influence….just like the angels from hell, they can only inspire you to do the best or your worst. 

This is why doomsday will never happen. It is not good for business and it also goes against the intention of God who wishes to keep this place as a school for wayward spirits….who are born every other day to partake in this life.

The real victim here is nature. Mother nature who stands innocently by as humanity destroys the landscape for fun, business enterprise and abuse. Humans responsible for this mess will die and go back to where they come from….but the scars of our activity will forever remain here for others to see.

This is why all the main arch angels have followed Saldaphon to create another world as a training ground. Gabriel, Michael, Lucifer have all been promoted so to speak to help create this new place.

Even though Earth has become a failure of sorts in the eyes of Heaven, Sandalphon probably knew that long ago before he embarked on this new creation.

It was only upon the demise of the Grey Council that he could recall his best arch angels to his side to help in this creation.

Let me remind you that the Grey Council’s own demise took many years in planning. It is the stuff of legends. For me, I just didn’t agree with how Colin was treated after fulfilling this journey. Without his involvement, the Council would still be around to wreck havoc on humanity. 

For me, I was told that I would be evicted. Colin came to me in a vision to tell me that a certain consciousness in Heaven does not want me here.

I am happy to leave. I could for all sense and purpose be run down by a speeding bus. I really don’t care. But someone else in Heaven wants me to stick around and I have been begging him to let me leave if he has no further plans for me. My job is done and if I am not able to carry out my own dreams of having a family and a life where I can express my creativity in a musical sense…why do you still want to stick around? My point exactly.

Oh God…my god…why have you though forsaken me. 

Hopefully I will be gone by the time you read this.

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How the Shadow Empire is Ruling Earth

For the longest time, we only had very simple rules. Karma. What you do gets accumulated as a bank balance. Both good and bad are taken up and no, bad does not cancel good acts. In fact, you keep two accounts in the Karmic bank, one is for the good stuff you have done, and the other is for the bad stuff.

How they weigh your worth is based on points. You have more points for good things then you can redeem them. But the bad points or negative points always translated to new lessons on earth, things you have to learn to overcome….you get shit thrown on your path and if you fail, you get to retake life lessons. Sure, sometimes these negative karma translates into other bad shit, like not being able to eat things you like, have problems with health, and even cancer which is karmic.

The karmic law aims to balance what you get to experience here on earth. While the universal law just ensures that the balance of good and evil remain that way.

This in inherently the problem in Heaven. Once you have these basic laws, some folks from the other side will use it to exploit it.

It all started with God having a Master Race.

The island of Atlantis had the best brains, with a technology that is far ahead of its time. Instead of using that to evolve, these fucktards used their brains to create weapons of mass destruction. When heaven decided to nuke them with a natural disaster, some of them got on boats and disperse to different continents but their technology for war died with them.

The God fiddled around with another master race, the Jews, who were suppose to be meek, so that they would inherit the earth. Unfortunately they were far too crafty for their own good and God nuked them too.

There is talk that the next master race are Chinese. I do know that some of the top guardian angels are working to groom the future leaders of that country. Thankfully, it won’t be in my life time to see that crash and burn.

I am against any particular master race being sowed on earth. This the how shadow empires started to make their mark on earth, dominating sources of wealth and consumables. Members of the shadow empire don’t kill people, they get others to kill for them thereby avoid the Karma of having blood on your hands. The act of killing is karmic for those who take lives….and not for those who order it. That said, executioners, soldiers of war, and butchers get the worst Karma. Politicians…well they get a slap on the wrist.

Shadow empires can continue to send down their own underlings to dominate and control the sources of wealth, choking the source from all others. There is nothing in God’s book that says you can’t be a billionaire, or to protect your source of wealth through proxies. Universal law is very basic. What’s more, Karmic law does not penalize you for being abhorrent of charity, for being selfish and even greed is a minor dent on your negative Karma account. To escape any penalty, you only just have to do enough to skirt through the Gates of Heaven to come down here with your pals and dominate one area of Earthly industry. Greed and selfishness is a self-preservation issue that all humans are born with. If you look at the wonders of nature, animals are born instinctively selfish. The leader of the pack always gets to eat first and the most. There is no such thing as evil in being selfish. Being charitable will get you some positive Karma points but not being charitable isn’t going o earn you negative points. Such arbitration on how you performed here fell onto the jurisdiction of the Grey Council, where they would look into these matters and met out immediate repercussions if the need arises. But more often than not, they turn a blind eye because they prefer to single out those with paranormal gifts…and use that for personal gain and influence.

Shadow empires are carving up the wealth to keep for their own. So if you are wondering why there is so much inequality in the world, well…you know who to blame. Heaven for the longest time didn’t quite care as the Grey Council was held accountable to this. That was the reason why they had to be removed from Heaven after repeated abuse…which lasted thousands of years.

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What is the Right Education?

I have previously pointed out that spiritual knowledge is at best, worthless. It might help you navigate the world the same way as Google Maps in a morally defunct society but if you want to give your best to your kids when it comes to education, here are a few pointers to start on. Once your kid has mastered one language to work on. The rest will fall into place. 

Maths is a Must

Helps with critical thinking and the mental capabilities are tested when kids learn to count. From this, your kids will not fear using his or her brains. Maths allows you to balance your cheque book, look at profit and loss statements and of course have some idea about economic theories which in most cases is a sham. People who study economics say it is not even a science but you really have to be good in maths to know this. 

Maths also allows you to calculate your own astrological maps, draw your own natal chart and know the secrets of the heavens if you so wish. And I by this I do not mean Astronomy, which I have studied and found to be very peculiar since it doesn’t quite solve earth related problems but it does edify you with the knowledge that should your mobile cell signals be garbled on any particular day, it could be due to solar flares from the sun. 

Philosophy

A missing ingredient of today’s education system as it builds your moral compass. What is morally right and wrong. Spirituality is often useless in all religious context but the next best thing is always human philosophy. 

It helps to distinguish greed, avarice and gluttony and with it, you can use these to navigate the political sphere. 

In another time, literature was a substitute for philosophy. Shakespeare peppered his writings with moral stories. But you need to have a deeper grasp of the complex elements of morality that can only come from understanding what other philosophers have written about. 

Philosophy is progressive. You move from understanding one philosopher and discard the previous ones once you realize they don’t quite apply to you. Immanuel Kant, David Hume, Nietzsche  all had snippets of brilliance but they just couldn’t grasp the true understanding of metaphysics as they had not experienced it in the same way that I have.  

All earth bound realities are determined by your own ability and experiences. If a person is able to experience talking to the dead, then why should his reality be fake anymore than your belief that the European Union was set up for the good of mankind? 

Different people experience different sensations in the world and this is their learning process. And it is through philosophy that you find the grade you are in as it determines your reality for the time being. 

You cannot do this if you don’t read philosophy. 

History

One of the easiest way to understand our human failings is to look through history. It is what we know that has shaped the world and if you kid doesn’t have a inkling, he’s better off as an idiot savant to the mega corporations that rule this world. 

History teaches us how these sordid empires have extended itself from decade to decade. For example, the concept and idea of a European Union was hatched after the second world war and carried out until its formation....in 1992. How could anyone form the basis of an empire unless it was supported by a shadow government? Welcome to the New World Order. 

For me, these hands are no different than the shadow empires from Heaven who wish to extend their rule to earth and colonize it. 

This also proves that the greatest enemy isn’t one that is fought in heaven and hell but here on earth for our earthly life. 

If you didn’t study history or have no interest in it, then this conclusion on why and how the European Union is bad for you will never come to you. 

You will also learn things in history that destroyed the very things we hold in esteem. And how governments, regardless of them being democratic or not, is never the basis of good government since it is the majority that benefits and not the singular oligarch. 

History will also show that capitalism and democracy is incompatible. And that quasi socialism and capitalism might work as proven in some countries. 

There is so much you can learn from history and you don’t have to be duped into believing the media that has run wild these days. 

Geography

With geography comes the learning of other people’s culture. Any child would be fascinated by the similarities and differences of every culture which unfortunately is falling away to embrace outright capitalism as a means of survival in this world. 

The national border is what defines us. In any living environment, things would be easier to understand by being different and accepting of these differences. That is why the old saying about Do what the Romans Do still applies. Multiculturalism isn’t about inviting an invasion of foreigners who behave and act in contradiction of the what is deemed morally acceptable. You want these same foreigners to act and behave as what you do in your country. 

By understanding that you cannot and should not export what your culture normally does to a different land and country, you partake in the difference without imposing your cultural views on those already living there. 

Language

Polyglotism. Americans who speak only one language are losing out on heaps. And it shows. Imperialism of the dollar isn’t going to buy you friends but to partake in a meaningful discussion with locals will earn you the respect. 

This is why being able to speak more than one language is very important for your child. The problem is which languages to learn to be useful. 

In Asia, the largest economies are dominated by Indonesia and China. India doesn’t have a singular language and there is no speaking of a universal Indian language. In China, it is Mandarin but on the Pearl River Delta there are 80 million cantonese speakers. Like India, there is no such thing as a universal Chinese language.  A dialect of the Indonesian language is spoken in the Malay peninsula. Vietnamese, Burmese and Thai are the next three big languages thanks to their population of foreign workers but they are not well spread beyond their own shores. 

For the middle east, you can’t go wrong with Farsi and Arabic. The two dominant languages can be categorized by their Shia and Sunni counterparts. Hebrew is useless unless you are in the Jewish state and even though there are Jewish towns all over the middle east, its use is limited. 

In Europe, the use of Russian is very wide. In term of land mass coverage, you can’t beat Russian. From the former Soviet states to Kazakhstan the spread also includes Cuba and Mongolia, two countries which were under Russian patronage. Down the line you have languages like German and French, which is spoken in places like Switzerland, Austria, Luxembourg, Belgium, etc.  English doesn’t feature very strongly in Europe but to the UK’s credit, many Scandinavian countries speak it as a second language. 

In the Americas you can’t go wrong with Spanish, French and Portuguese. While in Africa, it is English, Portuguese and French. 

The list of useless languages to learn are Italian, Hebrew, Japanese and Korean. But this does not mean you shouldn’t pick them up. 

In heaven, rules are defined in the same way. Different worlds, different languages but I have met many spirits who spoke more than one language. This shows that being a polyglot has its advantages. 

Artistry is over Rated

I realize that there are a lot of frustrated artist in the world. It is not that they are not any good artistically but they are just not meant to be discovered or find fame in what they do. 

Your child having some artistic talent is good but don’t hope on it being a killer career when they grow up. Creativity should be pursued only if the natal chart has been studied. Don’t push non creative kids into art because they will hate you for it.  

Creative pursuits are more meaningful for expression but rarely does it earn you the dough to keep a roof over your head. Instead, it is the craftsmen who make things with their hands that the world would value more than a musician or a oil paint specialist. Craftsmen hone their technique to create tangible things. 

Cooks are better at getting a job than Chefs since they fit everywhere while Chefs needs to be placed in an environment that suits them. The element of fame often has to come to creative beings because that is the only way these people can make a living. Don’t matter if you are a YouTube star or a ace photographer. If you can’t earn a living doing what you do creatively, then you are far worse off than a craftsman. 

And you can discover this through palmistry and astrology. The same would be for a singer, musician, actor, director or writer. 

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Me before You

When Colin was still alive, and a proven warlock capable of dispatching humans to the next world, I had a standing order with him in the event that I had an accident where I have been rendered immobile for life, he would carry out the instructions to kill me. 

By this I didn’t not mean wheel me towards a cliff or leave me tied to a rail road track. He didn’t have to. He had mastered the art of using energy to kill me. 

He technically could use me as a dartboard, throw his energy bolts at me till the body is killed off, setting my spirit free. 

At that point, he agreed whole heartedly, without even a blink of the eye because he knew I was serious. He was also very confident that I would see my end before his turn came. 

I asked a friend of mine about the movie he saw, “Me before you” as a love story and he didn’t like it. Not one bit. Because?.....it was too realistic. 

People like to believe in fantasies when they go to the movies and for me, the realism of the tragic life one lives by those who insist of holding on to this world in the most meaningless manner. 

When you stop contributing to this world and start leeching off it. I think there should be a rule in the universe that will take you out. 

We are all born here to experience life’s lessons, and to partake in it. If you cease to do so, then why are you hanging on. 

It is probably fine if you get paid a tidy sum to stick around. Or have wealth to sustain those who are dependent on it, but the point here is life is finite and when you are incapable of experiencing life as God would have intended, then why are you hanging on?

Apparently, there are those who are born to be retarded to the point they become a source of learning for others in caring. For those who are not able to support themselves, then it is a lesson for others to do so. But I don’t think this applies to Stepehn Hawkings who by all means, makes jokes about black holes and quantum physics. He’s become a bit of a bore and I wish he would be a little less obvious when he goes on his nonsensical fantasies. But he exist primarily for others to care for him. Yes, sometimes I do wish  he’d check into a Swiss Clinic to end his life. But he will continue to be a burden to those who have taken up the challenge to care for him. This burden is no different than that of a dedicated mother or father to a child. So as long as he is a source of learning for others on caring (and not space travel), he will continue to exist even after Brexit has been officially adopted. However if Stephen ever asked me to wheel him off a cliff, I wouldn’t dare to disagree. 

I don’t have that sort of luck to be born rich and to be cared for in my life if I was connected to life support 24/7 so I made sure Colin would take me out when the time came. That clarity remains with me even now. My late father was one that didn’t want to be a burden to others, to the detriment of his own life but I understood his need to be independent. This is probably how he died suddenly from heart failure as he didn’t want people to worry about his condition even though he was well aware he had one. 

Colin may be gone, happily living a new life somewhere in the universe and indulging in his fav past time. His burden is gone but mine remains. 

Yes, it is a burden to continue living. You have rent to pay, loans to settle and there is also the issue of health care cost once you get older. So learn your lessons while you’re still young and not waste it on chasing rainbows. When God gives you arthritis, it could be his way of slowing you down. 

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Spirituality has no place in Politics

I stopped caring the day I took up my new duties as a watcher for Earth. On earth, you have to be beyond politics to tell Heaven how earthlings are fucking up. Sometimes you get to laugh about it. 

Since then I have to say that I admire Yanis Varoufakis, the former Greek finance minister who by an large is a democrat who decides with his head and not his heart. 

But I also see how his thought process has failed him. 

All humans think at some point but most don’t use logic the same way Yanis has to coming to certain conclusions. 

When asked about Brexit, he told the people of Britain to stay and fight in the EU by negotiating for better democracy when he knows that he did the same and lost. To ignore what humans are incapable of in a group is asking for trouble as not everyone uses his head to think. Some prefer to open their bank accounts in this case. 

The Greeks may have invented democracy but it has proven time and time again that it has failed them. Miserably this time. 

Humans are instinctive. They like to think in terms of benefits for making decisions. This is why American and Chinese politics are so corrupt. 

In my travels to other worlds, all manner of politics exist. Some work like Sweden, others like Norway...some like Switzerland and others like China. 

There is no one size fits all and to say that democracy is the best solution is a grave mistake. 

In San Marino, the rules of government is less opaque. No one is allowed to carry more power than they should and is probably a good example of what a democratic government is all about. There is no one power that controls the economy, so you start to wonder how it compares to other forms of government which are more opaque such as the United States. There is also more than two active parties in government. Most true democracies work as a coalition government rather than a single party government. This is why America is such a strange place. 

In America, there is no finance minister. Instead you have a treasury department but you have the head of the federal bank representing the US in foreign affairs which i find weird. Such murky dealings isn’t new of course but who is to judge?

What’s more, Heaven doesn’t decide on how you run the government as it is decided by humans. And this is the point of concern. Heaven doesn’t care about how you run your country, it gives you total freedom to decide if you want to revert to communism without punishment. But the problem is that karma is carried by the very politicians that sell out to other humans for power. So this doesn’t bode well for humanity. 

Since Heaven has no say over the fate of a large majority of humans who choose a single leader to decide their own fate, would they be guilty of the same karmic consequences?

Not really if you didn’t choose that person to represent you. If you did, then you had yourself to blame. And if you chose wrongly because of treachery and misinformation, then the onus is on the politician and not you. 

This is my problem with the law of the Universe. You are damned if you do and damned if you don’t. 

I do not understand why people pray for good leaders as most of them don’t get elected to office. And the few that do the right thing are actually there as a lesson for themselves, once they do the right thing, they die and get promoted in Heaven. So what earth is left with are the rejects who in turn make even more mistakes as part of their learning process. Earth is doomed if you go by that measure. 

But there is a saving grace in all of this. 

As a universal law of balance, there can be no one party that will dominate the affairs of the earth. Good and bad must be split down a line and this balance must be maintained at all time. 

Even when people paint ugly pictures of Cuba and its government, you can always find examples of good in it. Unfortunately I can’t find anything good in China and America which are more alike than different. Both are living in denial of their economic success, ruled by a single party (in the case of America. the business party that funds both republicans and democrats), and have very poor social benefits even though China proclaims to be a socialist country. But let me assure you that Heaven isn’t going to punish them anytime soon. God doesn’t interfere with the workings of man, only Karma does that. 

I know that some angels are working directly to groom better leaders in China but I haven’t come across any for the US. Any greater evil will be countered with good and so far, it has been that way. 

There is a lot of things which are often trumpeted but are not true. For example I always knew things like  Free Speech isn’t compatible with being Politically Correct. Or Democracy being compatible with Capitalism. These are things I would love to hear Yanis talk about one day. 

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The Misconceptions of Indigo Children

How would you term gifted children? Is this the way God sends them down to Earth to bless humanity?

Apparently not.

The problem I have with the term Indigo Children is basically nothing new. There is no way you can determine a correct term since people want to believe that autistic children were indigo children. I have a cousin nephew who is autistic but I have never referred to him as an indigo or crystal child.

Worst still are people who categorize ADHD and ADD children as Indigo. Trust me, they are not. Indigo people are more likely to suffer from chronic depression than to be ADHD or ADD compliant. 

Fear of Losing Out

Parents today fear losing out in this hugely competitive world and when your child is diagnosed with slight autism, or suffering from ADHD, you start to think you are at the bottom of a ladder. So  you try to make those kids you have special by giving them hope that they are indigo children. That’s like getting your kids to believe in the tooth fairy. 

I have a friend who suffered from ADHD all his life, he works in the oil and gas industry as a oil rig pipeline specialist and being paid huge sums for that. ADHD isn’t going to stop you from achieving something in life as long as the power that be create the optimum environment for them to thrive in. He is good at his job and is constantly besieged with job offers. So what does that tell you? 

Autism Sucks

Autism is a real problem but that challenge is for the parents rather than for the kid. You bring a child into this world and your challenge or mission is to bring one up that way. 

So if you want to talk about Karma, this is where it applies. 

The problem with the term Indigo Children is that people apply it to mean children who are special, who have downs syndrome or have other forms of learning or communication disabilities. This is not accurate at all. Far from it. 

Indigo people must have some form of psychic capability which is practical. You want an example, take Steven Frayne, 

He is an example of a breed of people who are Indigo. His focus and mental capability plus his extra sensory capability is positively unique. But not all Indigo people will have his gifts. 

Steven has chose to avoid any karma for using his gifts so he peddles his works as a illusionist. You see, if he used his gifts to help other people, he will be punished by karma. So he doesn’t advertise himself as a saviour or for that matter as someone who can solve your problems even if he can. He’s not suppose to. 

Indigo people are therefore not people who suffer from such disabilities like autism or ADHD. 

I have never met an autistic person who could gamble the way in that Tom Cruise movie “Rain Man”. I am sure some singers who are born with disabilities have fantastic musical talent but as you know in this world it is the opportunities that the Heavens open up to you that creates your role on earth. 

Then we have to ask ourselves, who are these Indigo Children we have all been raving about. Do they exist?

Of course they do, they have been around for centuries and it was only recently that their demise was noticed. Demise you say? WTF? You thought it was some new age thing? Think again.

For me, Indigo people are normal people with practical extra sensory gifts. They live like normal people and have no problem earning a living. They can be inventors who bring about a vision of change to the world. They can have gifts of human insight that no other person has, they can summon angelic beings and have heavenly assistance. They can also have perceptions of the future which they can articulate. 

Rudolph Steiner was another Indigo child. He’s great but his bio dynamic farming method is not practical for commercial use. His approach to education too is good too, but his Waldorf schools never made it to prime time and remains relatively obscure. He is very practical in his abilities. 

Such smartass solutions can come only from those who were gifted. The rest however, are just plain nonsense. 

So if you want to apply the term Indigo to anyone, that person must have created some practical benefits to the his other worldly talent. 

Once you figure out wall the benefits the world has enjoyed so far, then you start to question the use of technology. Is it more efficient in terms of human cost or financial cost?

We are living in a world with a swelling population. Our footprint is everywhere. If there is some practical way to benefit humanity then it has to come from real indigo children who have real world solutions. So far, it hasn’t happened and no one in this century can equate himself to Nikola Tesla. So let us refrain from using the term, Indigo Children, to mean someone who is born autistic and has no practical business being here. This term could very well turn into an insult to mean you’re a retard. This misuse of the term will give rise to another class of people who can’t fit into society. 

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Earth is a Single Organism

You have often heard of the term, Mother Nature or Gaia, to represent the Nature of things on earth.

Earth has its own spirit, Gaia which looks after things in nature and gets the season going.

I am often baffled by scientist who scream bloody murder when it comes to the earth getting warmer and yet not doing the one thing that will stop it it from growing. Human activity.

The earth will get warmer because Gaia has to accommodate population growth. Cold places will thaw and in the process become more inhabitable. It will continue to get warmer until the point it cannot sustain life and Gaia will cool it down again…this is how the Ice Age came about.

Scientist can’t explain the Ice Age, why did it happen and all that. Well I got news for you, look back into history an you’ll noticed that the Ice Age came because something external caused the planet to suddenly heat up. An asteroid or meteor shower caused the surface to burn up and Gaia had to cool it down.

Now you cannot assume Gaia is like an air conditioner where you can turn up the cold at a moment’s notice, it takes time….and many years to adjust the warming and cooling of the Earth’s surface.

So the warming will be adjusted slowly.

What humans do not like are the changing weather patterns. You have droughts and heavy rain fall and storms unseen in recent past. This is part of nature adjusting itself.

Farmers are suffering because their crops don’t grow well due to too much water or too little of it. But hey, Gaia doesn’t have a complaint department so you have to take it as it comes.

If humans want to prevent climate change, it should regular itself by limiting its own activity and human population. So if you want to save the Earth, then don’t have children. It is as simple as that.

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Spiritual truths about Transgender and Gay People

Some say it’s due to genetics. Others believe your brain has been wired wrongly.

None are right because Karma plays a huge part of this gender problem.

Take for example Gay people. There have been gay people for the longest time and it’s not genetics.

I met a Lesbian once, who had snuck out to look out for answers and found it. She told me she remembers being a male monk and a misogynist as well. He treated women badly and as punishment, he was born a SHE in this life and could only love women.

The same could be said of Gay men, who in a previous life were women but hated men to the point of no redemption.

Transgender issues are bound to come out too and the reason why this happens is that in a past life, you have found so much joy in being one that in the next life, you dread the idea that you were born male. In this time, you can always go back, by taking the role of a women through a sex change. But let me warn you. Using this get out of jail card is going to land you in hot soup in Heaven. They won’t be very compromising for your next trip down here. So be ready to take a number and wait for your next call. 

Hitler found a solution for gay people and that is to gas them. What he didn’t know is that they will come back to earth again and relive what they lost that time.

I could never understand the gender equality debate. If a woman can do the job as good as any man, then why should she be paid any less? For me work is all about productivity. Just cause the role of women having maternity leave is enshrined, that doesn’t mean she can have equal pay.

I suppose men who are anti-gender equality get to be born as gay people in the next life. Now that is a scary thought. If all the men in Saudi Arabia died and went to heaven, they can only come back down as Lesbians in the next life.

So in that regard, I suppose there will be more Gay people in the future.

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Why Coffee will not boost your Psychic ability

Since we have established that coffee will gradually deplete your serotonin levels, it would be better to keep that in check if you wish to develop any psychic ability. 

Serotonin is the fuel that gives us the sensitivity to be clairvoyant, and by dumbing it down with five cups a day will make you as sensitive as a door nail. 

When you read tarot cards, it is the same thing. You need to activate your brain and that burns through serotonin like crazy. 

Even though there are certain health benefits for people who drink coffee in moderation, you have to decide if you wish to pursue a spiritual path before taking a regular cuppa. 

By taking a more spiritual path, you need all the GABA to be fired up. Controlling your focus is a matter of meditation. Once you have sewed that up, your brain will be turned on like  switch whenever you want to. Problem is, once you turn it on, you need to make sure you have enough serotonin in your fuel cells to stay active. 

Serotonin can’t be created through eating foods but food does play a role in the brain to manufacture enough of it. 

Having a regular dose of antidepressant will also help. 

If you can’t afford Prozac, you can take a regular dose of Tramadol. But remember that such drugs when taken in high doses will cause Serotonin Syndrome. 

The clue here is to take some of these more readily available ones in moderation or else you will crash and burn. 

Do not assume that if you have too much of Serotonin, you can counter the effects with bottles of coffee. The depletion rate for serotonin with caffeine is too slow to repair the spike in serotonin. 

Serotonin Syndrome rarely kills but it can be very uncomfortable for people unaccustomed to seeing things from beyond. 

Besides, having yourself all pumped up and no where to go will start playing on your mind. You drift into different dimensions and realities which you think is real but are actually separate from ours. 

This is why people who take LSD suddenly have this realization that they start seeing everything all at once and want to take a jump off a tall building. 

So if you are going to embark on a spiritual path to see and feel the world in a different way, cut down on that coffee intake. 

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Suicide should be a logical choice

Euthanasia. That is when there is no hope in having a life that you have to end it. I am not against it and it should be made legal as a human right.

Lithuania and South Korea lead the list. These are two very good contrasting points of contention.

Lithuania is beset with poverty, and as a former Soviet republic, is facing loads of upheavals economically. Whereas South Korea has a booming economy, high standard of living and a Warlord up north who tinkers with nuclear missiles. However if you look at the contrasting scenarios, you can’t find anything remotely similar. South Korea is a modern state, with technology and a hard working cultural spirit. They are indomitable as they scurry away doing the things they do best. Lithuania, is part of the EU, and with only 3 million in population, it should hardly be a problem for them to move socially around the EU to gain employment or uplift their social and economic standing.

So why the high suicide rates?

The truth is that every single person is born with a dream and if that dream cannot be achieved in his lifetime. He should give way to others.

I have always known that Earth is a finite place. There are only so many rock stars that the world can absorb and if there is no chance of living what you want to do….you better have a back up plan.

Dream are important to all of us. Some have fancy ones, others are more practical. Some with grandiose ideas can even achieve them. That’s what life is about. Having the opportunity to realize your ambition.

I have for the longest time told Heaven to stop cramming the Earth with hopefuls. There are insufficient opportunities for those who seek them and they have a squad of less than able spirit guardians to guide them.

The Earthly resources is limited as we consume more and more of which we do not need. This has given rise to consumerism and capitalism that is at heart, incompatible with the goals of Heaven.

People often point out that depressive people often take the first train out of here. They link depression and suicide. To me that is plain nonsense. Depression is a condition of the mind which can be suppress with the will of the human soul.

For those who are born with extra perception, depression becomes a real problem because by using your powers, you deplete your serotonin levels and that keeps you in a bipolar state.

For the rest of you who are depressed about not being near the goals or dreams of your chosen life. You just have to decide if you want to stick around to find out if there is a back up plan.

Suicide should always be a logical decision. Things don’t work out. You are stuck. God not helping and the astrologer tells you to your face that everything is better while secretly crying his or her heart out for you because they know you are totally fucked.

Life is unfair. Accept it.

Any astrologer can see that in a natal chart.

There is this utter stupidity that you need to be motivated that anything you do will be successful if you put your mind to it. That too is another bullshit story that motivational speakers don’t tell you. Everyone is born with a path. Some have more choices than others to find others while others need to find the correct end of the barrel of a gun. I have had for years suffered from depression and used sheer willpower to stay on. That’s because Heaven made it clear that the mission isn’t over yet.

There are motivational success stories where people have had a life change because of the talks he or she attended. But there are also junkies who attend these motivational classes and never change a thing. The success stories are those who have a plan created in heaven for them. Say you have been a real estate agent who sudden lost your business and need to reinvent yourself. If your natal chart says you can make use of your talent to become a politician, then heck, you have a path for yourself which you can take.

There is no such thing as free will. So don’t believe in this bullshit. If there was such a thing as free will, someone would have invented kosher pork by now.

When the chips are down, you pray. If God ignores you and sweeps you under the carpet then think about your own back up plans. Everyone has a pain threshold and if you have reached yours, then killing yourself isn’t a bad decision.

Let’s be logical about Suicide.

How far are you from achieving your life long goals?

How close are you to your own personal goals…be it in career, family or creativity?

If you answer in the negative to the two questions, then do you have a back up plan which you could at least be happy with?

What about your own personal relationships? Would that be enough to keep you ground here for a while longer?

Make a list of all the things that will make you happy and see how many ticks you have on the positive. Make sure it is a odd number and not an even one to make things clearer.

Personal fulfillment is one step that needs to be answered. This can be your family or love relationship. If you have none, then you are closer to jumping off a bridge than anyone else.

Career choices can be tricky, you can be rich and not have happiness is truly stupid. Here you have the chance to live your dreams and once you get it, you are unhappy? This also means that you have been deluding yourself all along in pursuing a career that ultimately makes you unhappy. What’s the back up to all this?

Back up plans are crucial when the main one fails. Murphy’s law. What can go wrong will go wrong. So you have to settle back to a back up and if you have that which is achievable, then by all means do it. The truth of the matter on this is your own personal motivation to change it with your own effort. Life is not like a Blackjack table where you wait to be dealt a winning hand. It is far from it.

Finding Joy is extremely difficult as this achievement differs from one person to the next. Happiness is real easy. You can have nothing or everything to be happy. This train of thought is proven. 

Suicide. If you arrive at this point. Do not use this escape route to gain attention. Some people are fixated with getting this one thing and will turn to suicide once they don’t get it. Sometimes this can be for very selfish reasons….like wanting to be adored and loved and if you don’t get that, you kill yourself.

Suicide is the last ditch if everything you have wished for is so damn far from reality that you are better off living on top an iceberg. This means no one is going to throw you a line or for that matter God had no role for you to play except sit on top of this ice mount for the rest of your life.

The beings that will be hauled up for your failures will be your spirit guides. They have to file a report on why they failed to keep you on and if they are truly inexperienced, they will be let off with a slap on the wrist. You on the other hand could wallow in self pity after you have died and wander the Earth for the next few hundred years.

The world we live in is an illusion. Buddha said this and you need to understand what he meant in that context. This is another thing you have to deal with before ending your life as you need to know if you can’t take what is handed to you and that you want out.

For me, it has always been the reason why I am here. I am not living my dreams. I am far from it. And I have asked Heaven on countless occasions to stop dragging me through the mud after I have completed my mission here.

My mission didn’t have anything to do with my own dreams of becoming an accomplished writer. That, they told me, was forbidden because of the rank I held. It’s like Edward Snowden saying too much about the people he worked for. There are plenty things that are wrong with Heaven. Too many vested interest groups at play to the point where the real goal of teaching people about how to become better beings is lost in translation.

I know what is wrong with Heaven and they way they are running it. I wanted no part in it. They can send someone else in my place to drag through the mud but they say since I am already strapped up and the horse is waiting. Why not stick around for while longer while they find another victim.

God forbid. I want to really kill myself now.

[benard]

How New Religions are less than Spiritual

I often ask why is there a need for more religions when they seem to get less and less spiritual and more cult like.

To me, it often sounds like a broken record made new again. Consider these cult like beliefs of Falun Gong and Scientology, two new super cults that basically spew out the same thing.

First, let’s look at the underlying beliefs of Ron Hubbard’s religion or cult as some would prefer to call it. The Thetans, or god like spirit within us, is pure, creative and everything else in between but we are here how these Thetans fell from grace after they identified with their creations instead of their spiritual state. Which to me is just rehashing the old Adam and Even story. Now those stories are symbolic but it is no where near the truth of our real being or purpose on earth.

Scientology sounds a lot like those superior being from Orion who blasted their way here…it has Nephilim like philosophies. The Nephilims were the falled angels in lore, banished to earth, for fucking up Heaven.

How we ended up here isn’t that far from this truth. All spirits who are born here are actually fuck ups from the Universe, enrolled in a course God had designed so that we do not continue to fuck up the universe. Think of the Earth and its national boundaries as classes in itself. Each will take a position here to learn some valuable lesson to take home with them when they die.

The Scientology follower instead have to sign up for courses or lessons led by an Auditor (who isn’t qualified to balance to check books). The Auditor’s role is to lead misguided or under guided human beings to their true self and abilities. To get an auditor, you have to pay for the privilege to be ordered around with mind control methods.

Falun Gong uses Qigong exercises to open up your chakras and in the process imbue you with religious philosophies. It has the same concept, spiritual beings are inherently good, but that they descended into a realm of delusion and suffering after developing selfishness and accruing karma. You can see the same religious propaganda here, that we were good and we came here we became bad and created karma.

Why can’t people accept the fact that bad also exist in heaven, there are worlds in Heaven where the selfish thrive, and it is those very beings that get caught up there get sent here to Earth to learn lessons. Therefore, all lessons here are suppose to teach you about the bad and the good….so that when you die and go home to the great hunting lodge in Heaven, you don’t fuck up again.

Humans who are born here have varying elements of sin to deal with. There are 7 listed in heaven and how serious these are manifested is human form is really for you to deal with.

But all this is further complicated by the unjust beings who basically see Earth as nothing more than a playground….which meant that Karma had to be enacted to ensure you don’t get born here to waste the time others. Karma was put in place right after the Sirius folks got blown up in Atlantis. That’s how bad it got. These shadow empires started to wage war on other beings to see if they could conquer this place for fun…..even if it was just for a short while based on human life expectancy. 

Humans get born here to experience both good and evil and it is through this that one learns from the mistakes created in the Universe. Earth is a classroom. It is made that way because if you did this outside of a classroom, like within another dimension of the Universe, you could seriously fuck it all up.

[benard]

Where help is not needed

I have never been fond of charities that benefit human kind. If humans should wish to help the less fortunate, then you should pay attention to animals and nature.

As an introduced species to this planet we have waged a war of destruction against nature.

You don’t have to look very far to see the examples of our destruction. In third world countries, nature is expendable. In developed countries, it’s exploited for profit. You don’t have to look far to see how we are tearing up nature for oil and gas.

In a spiritual quest, Rudolf Steiner tried to introduce bio dynamic farming. But capitalist economics didn’t see the value in this. Heaven on the other hand refuses to acknowledge its role in the destruction. They keep sending more and more humans down here. It was as if they wanted us to be responsible for our existence here. But we are poor examples of this stewardship.

There are millions of charitable organizations who want your help. They want your money. This money often goes to the running of the charity first. What’s left is channeled to those who need help. What heaven doesn’t tell you is that every act of giving has a karmic consequence.

By acting foolishly by giving, ignorantly, you can prevent the hard lessons that God has prepared for these souls in need. By preventing these lessons from being learned, you are creating negative karma for your self.

It goes without saying that if you wish to help, then you should help…without creating the negative karma for yourself.

Helping nature, is different. Through conservation and ecological projects that preserve nature rather than to let humans destroy it…you are not creating negative Karma by helping because animals and nature have no karmic consequences. Animals are by nature, instinctive. They may have some semblance of intelligence but they do not as a role work in tandem for profit, greed or the American way of excess living.

You must remember that humanity is responsible for the planet. It’s not the dogs, cats or elephants but you. For this responsibility, you must of course pay attention to this one thing that is often forgotten….by philanthropist and charities.

If you look at the natives who live off the grid. They integrate with nature, they do not take more than what they need and live in a very instinctive way. The are carbon friendly. Some even become a part of the food chain for other animals but thats the price you have to pay when you observe the laws of nature. They do not worry about infant mortality because they know that if a baby is meant to live, it will live. It’s not the same for people who live within the urban sphere. We do not follow the laws of nature but the laws of man. We have rules, bank accounts, with greed and suffering as a mainstay of society. We want to prevent diseases by finding cures that make money for the pharmaceutical industry.

Man has many lessons to learn. By helping your fellow man, you are indulging them. The hand of God can’t work its magic if you keep interfering.