after eddie dies, richie decides to go new york state and see myra himself and she opens the apartment door and sees shes literally eddie’s mom but with blonde hair and richies like oh god eddie 😩
like it’s even clearer how fucked up eddies life had been and that makes him immensely sad eddie never escaped his mom’s influence
richies like “hey,,,, mrs. k” really hit home
its been like six months since eddies been dead and richies gonna tell her but she’s like “if you are looking for my eddie-bear he’s not here eddie ran off and hadn’t come back. thats okay. im gonna wait for him"
and richie just can’t fucking do it he can’t tell her this is just too fucking bizarre
she offers richie some water and tells him if he needs something from eddies room to go ahead inside and its literally a brokeback mountain of richie going to eddies bedroom and going through his clothes and his stuff
richie sees an inhaler and he just fucking breaks down clutching it to himself
yes richie does pocket the inhaler before leaving but before he does richie sees a stack of vhs tapes labeled WITH THE NAMES OF RICHIES SPECIALS AND OTHER COMEDY SHOWS HE WAS IN
so he asks myra if he can take them and she’s like "go ahead take them you’re that comedian richie tozier thats why i thought you were here my eddies a big fan of your shows he was so obsessed them even though eddie criticized them"
it feels like a punch in the gut repeatedly
finally richie leaves and its just sinking him that,,,, eddie forgot him like richie forgot him but he DIDNT in his own way eddie NOTICED him when they forgot and loved richies jokes when they were apart and its too much
