not so starry-eyed anymore

don't follow without permission, thanks

[sour-echinacea]

where do people get energy from

[donotfollowthisaccount101]

what r ur kinks

I'm consumed by grief

[konoko]

[ssmall-again]

what do people without mental illnesses even think about

[bent-with-bitterness]

my gf and i don't forsee being able to move out of her apartment anytime in the next few years (if ever lol) but lately we've been looking at houses for fun on zillow and just wishing it could be different

but now every time i think about it, i literally start having an anxiety attack about leaving behind the squirrels we feed out of our bedroom window. it feels unbearable. like i tear up and my guts start aching and i feel sick. lmfao

[bent-with-bitterness]

god my sleep is so fucked up and i am so tired all of the time. i have accomplished tasks, but i still feel like i can't get anything done.

i have so many projects to work on and so much organizing to do. plant stuff to deal with. sewing. decluttering. art. at least the apartment is 90% clean on the surface, there's just like... the kitchen drawers........ and some clutter on my desk........ and a folding mattress i need to sew a cover for so it can be an ottoman..... ughhhh.............

[rylandgraces]

[the most low energy you have ever seen me] we’re about to go crazy mode

[bent-with-bitterness]

having more good days re: lingering pelvic/bladder issues. today was a mildly unpleasant day after like 3-4 good days, but maybe it's flaring up because of Uterus Time

but now my friend Nerve Issues In My Leg is back 😩

my gf is going to get a vasectomy this week and i'm getting my nexplanon out at the same time. i will hopefully start continuous BC pills until we're in the clear and/or i don't want to take them anymore, but i also don't want periods, sooo

[bent-with-bitterness]

my implant came out fine and i'll be starting pills soon. really love the pl@nned p@renthood we went to, it's the nicest of the three i've gone to in MD. my gf did great!! i was able to be there with her after my appointment, and watched the procedure. luckily it ended up being no-scalpel and she'll have an easier recovery.

all of the providers and people working there were wonderful. we felt safe and comfortable, and especially as someone who has had a lot of shitty obgyn experiences, i felt heard and respected. loved all the pride flags, too, and the provider who did my implant removal had pride flag nails and shoes and earrings!! she complimented my rainbow shoelaces :') i also didn't encounter any shittiness about our masks.

we grabbed taco bell on the way home and just lounged the rest of the day. kept rotating out ice packs for her and made sure she was comfy. her pain is much less today, and my arm hasn't been bad at all.

👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍

[dogpuppy]

[ruhrohrexia]

i wont worry about it i say to myself with the always worried disorder

[bent-with-bitterness]

having more good days re: lingering pelvic/bladder issues. today was a mildly unpleasant day after like 3-4 good days, but maybe it's flaring up because of Uterus Time

but now my friend Nerve Issues In My Leg is back 😩

my gf is going to get a vasectomy this week and i'm getting my nexplanon out at the same time. i will hopefully start continuous BC pills until we're in the clear and/or i don't want to take them anymore, but i also don't want periods, sooo

[bent-with-bitterness]

been dealing with inconsistent levels of pelvic pain since my uti + ureaplasma treatments in march and april. been doing pelvic floor exercises and trying to drink water consistently. i've had a few nearly-pain-and-urgency-free days here and there in the last month. but today i am worried i have a uti again, because it feels different and i am scared and tired of all of this

[bent-with-bitterness]

had a few good days regarding pelvic pain / urgency / discomfort, and now it fucking sucks again, and i'm mad about it

[violetmelancholia]

literally me

[veggiemedleys]

see my problem is if i “listen to my body” it literally only wants to lie down and take naps, all the time

[dragongirlsnout]

The spirit is weak the flesh is weak and me also I feel not so willing

[bent-with-bitterness]

that can't be right omfg