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learning how to draw him because i like him already

We were probably in a "you're mine" sorta dynamic?

i've said it before but it will forever and always make me insane that jacob's ending is to join the cullens for the sake of bella not having to give anything up. they find out jake will be immortal & tied to renesmee forever, so bella gets to smile & say "my family is finally complete! ^-^" but jake already HAS a family. he has a father and 2 sisters. quil, embry, seth and sam are like his brothers. jacob and leah were planning to run away together. he's always been welcome in emily's home, sue has been a family friend since before his birth. bella abandons her mortality by choice because she feels no connection to the people around her, but jacob has really strong bonds. it's clear that every character we meet in la push is like family to him, he's an active member of the community. jake would've graduated high school and been a mechanic, would've grown into a young man. a good friend, a fun uncle, a present son. he's set up to have such a rich life. and he's just magically compelled to give that up. beyond his control, he loses sight of everything, because his high school crush's baby is now the singular most important thing to him. he's perpetually 18 with his perpetually 18 year old girlfriend, running around vancouver or alaska or wherever with the girl who friendzoned him at 16 & her in-laws (who were antagonistic to him for months). and i'm just supposed to say omg yay now he doesn't have to let go of bella! everyone is happy! it's complete madness

i feel like i kind of... took everything for granted for the past two years and i let myself go. i got used to people being present all the time and now that i really know what it's like to be surrounded by company, i don't know how to be by myself anymore. i feel everyone's absence and it's tiring. i hate being used to people and the grasp they can have on me

edwardscatholicguilt

I'm a twilight canon denier. Stephanie really gave us Emmett Cullen and expected me to believe that he wouldn't be Bff's with the wolf pack ? Get out of my face

the worst part is, the only reason why i didn't do it yet is because there's no definitive methods around and i know that if i survive it, my dad will definitely make me guilty about it... and also the shame of having the live with the role of being the one who tried and couldn't do it lol