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Although distant and judgemental, is a loyal, honest soul ✨

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sayang. sayang lahat ng effort wala din naman palang planong manatili. sana di na lang. sana hindi na lang. sobrang sakit lang kasi minsan na nga lang mag-risk, sa maling tao pa hahahaha

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I guess it's more serious than i thought? Dito ako pushing myself out of comfort zones, breaking my own fucking rules, and taking uncalculated risks for this relationship pero this is what I get? Simpleng terms hindi nya pa ako magets and always subject for clarification?

Happy 1 year sakin, talunan pa rin ako hahahahahaha hirap mong mahalin, self 🤣🤣🤣🤣

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Last week, Ive decided na 0703 is our number. Ive also told NJ na if mag gift sya sth for our 1st anniv- gusto ko mag present sya ng maayos na plano for our future. Lols. Just wanna see if marunong nga ba sya mag plan at kaya nya mag lead. I think yun na maging decision making point ko if dapat ko pa patagalin or mag give pa ako. Hehez

Life is such.

[ohsnapitsjane]

The hardest goodbye.

One of the hardest goodbyes that someone will ever experience is when we fall in love with someone and at the same time see that it is impossible to build a healthy relationship with them.

Staying means to continue waiting for changes that will never come, tolerating actions that hurt us over and over again, accepting the miniscule effort they give us from time to time and eventually losing ourselves in the unfortunate environment we continue to stay in.

We know walking away will not be easy and may even hurt down to the core, but it will be the path to finding our true self once again.

Sometimes you choose to leave, not because of lack of love towards this person, but because it is your own love that makes you take care of yourself and with that love you find the courage to leave the table when respect is no longer being served.

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28th

Belated happy birthday, self haha. Are you really happy? Kaya mo pa ba? Kaya mo pa ilowball sarili mo? Hanggang kelan tayo ganto? Hahahahaha

Kaya mo yan. May itatanga ka pa talaga

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Maundy Thursday with NJ

Although almost everything went okay, this is not the holy week I had in mind with NJ. First holy week namin together. Mag bbirthday ako next Tuesday 😅

In less than 2 months mag *celebrate* kami ng anniversary namin. Di ko makita rn if tama ba na paaubutin ko pa ng exactly 1 year hahahaha. It's not that I don't love him or that I love him any less, but because hindi ko pa din sure kung talaga bang align values namin 🤣

Coz I don't see the point para patagalin pa or ipilit pa if in the first place, hindi talaga match.

Hindi ko pa din makita na he wants to be a better person for both of us? Parang he's just showing it because ako 'to? 😂😂 parang pag iba na gf nya- iba na din treatment nya. Gets? Hahahaha

I also realized na hindi pa din naman nacclose yung gap namin. Super hard for me kasiiiiiii yknow sometimes I crave an intelligent conversation. We try pero laging nauuwi sa misunderstanding 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 tang inang yan hahahhaa. Kesa maka-spark nakaka-drainnnnnn 😭 lahat na lang ng deep talk nababalik talaga yung past ko hahahahhaa tang inang yan.

Ewan kooooooooo lagi ko naman pinagppray na gawin kami ni Lord right and better person for each other. I think konti-konti nya naman sinasagot? Konti konti nya pinapakira sakin and pinapa- realize kung si NJ ba talaga ang gusto kong partner for life 😅

Also katampo 28th bday ko next week. Sobrang sakit for me na wala man lang nakaisip saming dalawa na mag save para may pang celebrate kami sa coming bday ko hahahaha hindi ko na din naalala coz- bills here and there. It would have been better lang sana if naisip ni NJ in advance knowing na mag bbday nga ako. Oh, well. 🤷‍♀️

Now: 210am, Good Friday

Patulog pa lang kami. Inabot kami ng gantong oras coz ewan wala kami naging maayos na conversation 🤣 sana the rest of the week may magbago naman hahahaha 💔

Bye

[poemwav]

– Jackie Wang | from "The Crypt Seed"

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Dear Lord,

Kung pahiram mo lang sakin si NJ, thank you pa din. Kung kukunin mo sya sakin, wag mo na po paabutin ng mga taon. Masasaktan po ako ng sobra 😅

sabi mo samin:

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

Pero minsan kasi parang ako lang yung nag ttry 😅

Hehe. Hays. All according to your will, Lord. I surrender everything to you 🙏

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Iba yung sakit pala kapag hindi ka ma-appreciate talaga ng partner mo haha. Came home after a long day, nag ligpit, naglinis, nagluto, nag asikaso ng pets mag isa. I was so excited na makauwi at makita ka. Kitang kita mo sa face ko pagbukas mo ng pinto. We usually hug and kiss because namiss natin isat isa, pero tonight hindi ko inexpect. Sana kahit man lang konting appreciation dahil kakain ka na lang matutulog haha. Instead of giving me the grace, parang inis ka pa na gusto kita lambingin haha. Whews.

Maayos ako nag uupdate kanina sa work pero yung konting oras na hindi ako nakapag update sa byahe pa ang tumatak sayo. Where is the grace? 😂

Talo talaga ako dito, tang ina. Ayoko magbilang pero AFTER ALL THE FUCKING GRACE IVE BEEN GIVING hahahaha ano naman yung konting maliit na grace para lang maging okay tayo hahahaha bye

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Naka leave ako todayyyyyy. Yey! Naka leave pero may balak din mag work mamaya 🤣😭

More more time with self and cats 🫶

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romantic soft sex with soft loving aftercare

[thoughtkick]

“I just want to be with someone who doesn’t disappear when love gets tough.”

— j. iron word

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Bakit ang daling isipin o sabihin pero ang hirap gawin?

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Kanina sa kasagsagan ng Valentine's (gabi na, tapos na lol) naisip ko sulatan si NJ. Hindi dahil balemtayms pero dahil at that moment, gusto ko. Gusto ko pa rin naman gawin hanggang ngayon. Pero naalala ko yung mga sinabi ko sa sarili ko dati. Na ayoko na sumulat ulit para sa iba- kasi lahat lang ng sinulatan ko ending sakit binigay sakin ahahaha. Na sana ako naman ang sulutan- hindi dahil sa sakit, pero dahil sobrang minamahal ako.

8 months na tayo babi. Unfortunately for me, di ko alam kung pinipilit ba natin mag align or hindi lang talaga tayo nagkikitaan pero swak naman pala?

Minsan naiisip ko na kaya naman natin. Pero minsan pag di tayo magkaintindihan, parang feeling ko hindi natin kakayanin hanggang dulo. Iz driving me crazy haha is it the same with you?

Parang ano- mahal naman talaga natin isat isa pero laging merong mas sapaw pa yung different ideologies natin kesa sa relationship natin? Ewan ahahaha

Di ko naman hinihiling sayo na maging perfect ka and a person rel- pero sana try. Try with me. Let me see na you want to try.

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Roller coaster

Ganto ba talaga dapat ang relationship? One minute they lift you up and all tapos the next iddown ka din?

[feelingsoftheday]

i respect someone who is vocal. Tell me why ur into me. Tell me why i pissed you off & tell me how i can fix it. Tell me everything. Talk.

[daily-spooky]