this ain’t good

5’1 SW: 140.2 CW: 133.0 GW1: 132 GW2: 125 GW3: 120 UGW: 110

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Crackers have no business being that many cals

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Wow it’s been a while. I haven’t posted since 2021.

My weight has gotten out of hand. I’ve hit an all time high of 140.2. I never feel confident anymore and I self loathe everyday.

Seeing that number hit me hard and I’ve been restricting ever since. This is my 4th day of being back on my shit and I’ve lost 3.2.

Returning to my restrictive tendencies is a very comforting feeling. I’ve done this before and it works. Getting my sense of control back is refreshing.

I’ll keep you guys updated as I go.

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Living with someone who has a worse ed than you is painful af. Mix of feeling concern for a friend but also constantly feeling like I’m not restricting enough 🙃

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Anyone else find themselves invalidating their own ed? Like if you haven’t been losing weight your ed isn’t valid, even tho you’ve been restricting like crazy? I know that’s not true but it’s still tough not to feel that way. It just plain out SUCKS to go weeks without seeing progress on the scale. Trying so hard and getting absolutely nothing in return. Yet I can’t bring myself to recover because I can’t risk that number on the scale getting any bigger.

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When your entire day has been garbage and the only thing you have going for you is that you’re going to bed hungry 🙃

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What kills me is that I don’t have to imagine what skinny feels like—I’ve felt it.

I remember what my legs used to look like in shorts and how my collarbones popped. I so desperately want to get back to that version of myself

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The biggest perk of my boyfriend breaking up with me was that I could hardly get myself to eat—food was absolutely repulsive. I lost 5 pounds within three days which is a record for me

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ha ha ha love it when my lunch falls on the floor at work... being clumsy is really helping out my ana 🙃

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Stupid bread

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i wanna go on a shopping spree but i wanna loose weight first!!!!!ughhhhhh

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Plateaus

Over a month ago I started restricting and weight fell off super quick. It was great. The past couple weeks it has slowed down by a lot. While this is discouraging, I know it’s normal and I’m hoping to get past this. Here’s what I’m doing:

🌿Yesterday and today I’ve been increasing my calorie intake in hopes I get my metabolism up again. It’s been weird to make myself eat because I’m honestly not that hungry anymore.

🌱I’ve started exercising for the first time in months since I’ve heard that it leads to a boost in metabolism.

🍃From now on, every week I plan to increase my calorie intake and not restrict for a couple days, probably during the weekends. I want to keep my metabolism on its toes and not get used to my low intake.

☘️Increasing my calorie intake doesn’t mean I’m going back to eating fast food and a bunch of cookies. I’m going to eat foods high in protein, like Greek yogurt and protein bars. Protein is known to boost metabolism. I’ll still be eating lots of fruit and veggies.

Basically I’m trying to repair my screwed up metabolism so I see some progress. I’ll keep you all updated on how this goes!

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Any advice?

For over a month now I’ve been restricting to around 600-800 calories a day. The first three weeks weight fell off super quick, but the past two weeks have really slowed down. It’s probably my metabolism adjusting to my restricted intake. Any ideas how to fix this? I’d so appreciate the help. Stay safe everyone

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Mom: what have you ate today?

Me: ...

Me: nothing

Mom: hm

That’s a yikes

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When I next weigh myself, I will have lost weight

Speaking it into existence

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My bones are getting bored of playing hide and seek, they just want the game to be over

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i’m losing weight. i’m getting skinnier. i’m manifesting

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Can we all agree periods are the worst?

Nothing more discouraging than doing super well restricting all week to step on the scale and see hardly a change. Guess I can be thankful I didn’t gain.