berry

just random things that berry thinks about

[berrytalks]

the ‘what if’ we could have been

Six years. You've given me six years to remember. Laughter that could last forever The smiles that shone a bright light in an otherwise dark existence. the solace provided by your presence I shall cherish these memories for the rest of my life.

You've always been the 'maybe' in my life. We could have been a great pair. Maybe we are in the world I created. but not in this sense. In this world, no way. It clearly wasn't enough. liking me but not having the nerve to take a risk I am not worth the risk. and it's blatantly shown It's fine. Actually, I count myself lucky. that I have ever crossed your mind for the slightest chance of what we could have been the ‘what if’ we both thought of silently I suppose that's all there is to it. the final of my what if scenarios the final question before I let you go What if I loved you enough

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the right moment

You may get the feeling that the world is whispering to you. It's as if it's telling you that now is the right moment. Everything appears to be perfect, as if it was supposed to be that way. I've never felt the weight of letting someone go. I had no idea it would be this difficult, but it's still love. I was hoping that things would be different this time. Perhaps this time will be different. Perhaps this time will be 'different'. It's crazy what all those "maybes" turned into. Perhaps this time, I should stop and wake up. Maybe it's time to quit dreaming about our 'what ifs' that never existed.

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sorry if I don’t write often. I only write when I really feel like writing because I don’t want my thoughts to look like it was forced to come out :)) 

[berrytalks]

Fear

It's been ten days since the madness began. I'm sitting in the corner of a small room, shivering as I hear horrible noises a few meters away. I was starting to lose it. I'm starting to get the feeling that something is getting closer and closer. When I heard three knocks on the door, my vision began to blur. Despite my fear, I found myself heading towards the door. Terrified of what I was about to see, my trembling hand twisted the doorknob and carefully opened the door. As I lifted my head, I saw a strange entity looking exactly like me.

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Drifted

Do you know how it feels to be on the verge of losing someone but helpless to stop it? It's as if it's passing through your eyes, and there's nothing you can do about it. I want to to start acting, but why can't I make a single move? I'm about to lose a friend. But here's the thing: I'm at a loss on what to do. How am I going to put a stop to it? Should I ask about what went wrong? I feel that asking her such questions would aggravate the situation. Doing nothing is the same as simply watching her go away with each passing day. The only thing I'm certain of is that if I let this go on, our friendship would come to an end. The idea of it frightens me. It hurts, but I'm not sure where. I can't even bring myself to answer the question, "Will I regret doing nothing to save our friendship?" I feel like such a bad friend because, no matter how I look at it, it's still my choice. It was entirely my decision not to save us. Worse, as the day goes, I'm becoming less concerned, as if I'm okay with what's going to happen.

[berrytalks]

How often do you learn new things?

When learning something new, it doesn't actually need to be something huge. It can be as simple as learning what a certain food is made of, or hearing a friend's opinion about something; it can actually be anything. It's impossible for a day to end without learning something new. Learning is inevitable because we discover a lot of things everyday even if we don't intend to. Maybe we're just unaware because we don't actually pay attention that much, but learning is a part of our daily routine.