I KNOW TRUE PAIN

"Now, release your anger. Only your hatred can destroy me." INDIE | PRIVATE | LITERATE [vader icons mine, hayden not] muse now mostly found at @liqhtshow

[betrayedjedi]

why does anyone follow this blog anymore.

[betrayedjedi]

as you MIGHT know, this blog is hella inactive. but I AM NOT. i have been active as FUCK on my multimuse, which is why i’ll be adding vader/ani etc onto my multi as a GUEST MUSE. maybe eventually he’ll completely be transferred over but, for now he’s guesting there. because i HATE going between blogs, and i’ve basically moved all my muses over onto the multi. 

SO FIND ME AT LIQHTSHOW 

[beckylouisethompson-deactivated]

BPD symptoms to stop making fun of and recognise as what they really are:

Needing attention Outbursts of emotion (especially anger) Not getting out of bed Social withdrawal Self-destructive behaviours Being ‘clingy’ Forgetting things Getting upset about everything Bad self-care Promiscuity ‘Weird’ or ‘unusual’ triggers Needing validation

[user64290]

Needing attention - with out constant stimulation from our relationships, we forget we even mean anything to anyone. Outbursts of emotion (especially anger) - there are 5 intensity levels. at levels 4-5, we become the emotion. it sucks. (source: dialectical behavioral therapy)

Not getting out of bed - with bpd, depression is a reoccurring mood. Social withdrawal - we are champs at perfecting facades. don’t always have the energy for it though. Self-destructive behaviours - sometimes needed to escape those 4-5 intensity emotions.  Being ‘clingy’ - fear of abandonment. love addicted. not knowing how else to care about people. Forgetting things - emotional impermanence. we lose perspective of things we did if its associated with something painful (aka all things, all things are painful).  Getting upset about everything - impossible to see the good in anything unless someone sucked the cognitive dissonance right out of our heads. in other words, splitting–it’s a thing.  Bad self-care- see: depression is a revolving and reoccurring mood. Promiscuity  - see: needing attention because we don’t feel like “real” people.  ‘Weird’ or ‘unusual’ triggers - sorry if you hate the word ‘trigger’, but that’s exactly what this is. emotional ptsd. how else would you explain, “oh fuck, that song reminds me of when _____. welp. time to dissociate. haha i’m not here anymore. haha, i don’t feel anything.”??? Needing validation - we want attention to feel like people. we need validation to feel like good people. 

WISH I FIGURED THIS SHIT OUT A DECADE AGO. 

you’re welcome.

[firstratearsonist-deactivated20]

i’m stronger than this. i have to be stronger than this. there is no room for weakness, not here, not anywhere.

[jundlcndwastesmoved1]

For @betrayedjedi

[poees-deactivated20230305]

          how did us against the world               become me against you? x

[justbecauseiliketotalk]

I really thought you were going to come back. I’m still hoping that you will.

Late night thoughts (via justbecauseiliketotalk)

[violentwavesofemotion-deactivat]

I am someone who did not die when I should have died.

Anne Carson, from Grief Lessons: Four Plays by Euripides (via violentwavesofemotion)

[booksquoteslove]

You have me. Until every last star in the galaxy dies. You have me.

Amie Kaufman, Illuminae (via futureboii)

[palindroned]

You were my  b r o t h e r 

[padmes-deactivated20221022]

[seraaphinamorgenstern]

Anakin’s nightwear appreciation post for your viewing pleasure and such

[haydenandrachel]

[betrayedjedi]

Someone: that's not canon.

Me: I will face canon and walk backwards into hell.

[padmes-deactivated20221022]

Anakin demonstrating how passionate he is about droids.

[betrayedjedi]

                           “ the jedi, BETRAYED and consumed by his ANGER. “

[urbanoutfucks]

yeah i’m ok! i’m totally ok i just (takes a deep breath) (starts screaming)