BettieCracka @bettiecracka - Tumblr Blog

Art of the Toxic Jungle: Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind - Dir Hayao Miyazaki (1984)

I literally can't tell if I'm too mentally ill to be in a relationship or if the relationship has exasperated the mental illness, but I'm sure tired of it. The fuck man.

Loney wifey

I wish he touched me as tenderly as he did his guitar.

Or at all really.

I’m sad.

rosesandwhiskey

“There comes a point when you either embrace who and what you are, or condemn yourself to be miserable all your days. Other people will try to make you miserable; don’t help them by doing the job yourself.”

— Merry Gentry in A Kiss of Shadows (Laurell K. Hamilton)

ssubliminals-blog

i set myself up for abandonment and then cry about it online

bettiecracka

Because I'm a shit human and not worth my weight in salt...

#bpd thoughts

hematitehearts

Quartz with Hematite

Locality: Brandberg, Erongo Region, Namibia

dillondean

once i fix the chemical imbalances in my brain making me prone to severe procrastination and depression, lose all my body fat and replace it with muscle, get my phd, pay off my student loans, and get new clothes it’s over for you hoes

tearthatcherryout

bettiecracka

Two years and counting. Nope. Love and am attracted to the man I'm with and being patient gets me masturbating alone.

Tmw you're so far in the hole you've dug that you give up and lay down and wait to be buried.

#bpd life #bpd feels #bpd #bpd thoughts

bitchycode

next time i’m opening up to someone is my autopsy

hematitehearts

Fluorite and Baryte

Locality: Berbes, Asturias, Spain

I love sex so much and have been denied by the men who "love me" for years on end. It's made me hate sex. And feel like shit when it's even mentioned.

I could have sex with other people, but for some reason the men who "love" me won't fuck me. For their own reasons I guess. 5 years of two men ignoring my sexual needs and it's just died inside me.

It's made me miserable in general.

Why won't they fuck me? Because I'm crazy from bpd and don't deserve a whole happy life. That's just the way it is. I feel so sad and empty.

I came back to tumblr because I need to say these things and no one in my life cares. I guess. Whatever. I wish I wouldnt wake up. At least then it'd be quiet.