thought collector

[i-wrotethisforme]

My PIN number to this day is my second grade best friends birthday. There are people I don’t talk to anymore whose families are still in my prayers. There are shirts I wear to bed from exes of 8 years ago who are married now with kids. And I haven’t found a macaroni salad recipe better than my college boyfriend’s mom’s. Our lives are made up of so many people and when people become parts of our lives, some parts remain long after they leave. And in the same exact way, it’s comforting to know there are so many lives you’re still a part of that you have no idea about.

[beyond2am]

Beauty In The Struggle

Lately I’ve been thinking about why I lost the energy to publicly share the good things happening to me. I’m a hoarder of memories and I used to find joy sharing these to others, either through photographs, videos, or essays. I guess I still do, but not as much as before.

I realized now that I became conscious of posting in fear that it may bring an untoward effect to someone. Whether or not, I have good intentions, others might not take it well. Especially now when we’re still facing a pandemic, suffering from financial crises, and struggling to get by, in general.

But hopefully it’s not too bad either. Hopefully society still finds it acceptable to share your reality without feeling guilty about it.

As such, nowadays, I feel compelled to write about my reality—the relentless joy of living in Batanes during this time. It’s the best thing that has happened to us who have lived away from home since high school.

It’s a privilege indeed but I feel that it’s a privilege we have earned over the years. Imagine the shift from seeing your family and friends once a year to spending time with them every single day. Celebrating milestones with them is a luxury we rarely afford.

I don’t flaunt it mostly because I feel humbled. That I can take a breather outside to free my headspace. Run towards the hills during short work breaks. Ride to the beach and wait for the sun to set by weekend. Get batshit drunk and wasted. All while pursuing my chosen career path.

And it is all thanks to the Philippine’s response to the pandemic, however awful that might sound. And to our employers and institutions for allowing us to be here. This is what J.Cole wrote folks. This is the “beauty in the struggle”.

[books-n-quotes]

“Sometimes you are going to miss a person who was an almost to you. And feel sad because there is no name for that feeling. You just feel it in a way that makes you tired to your very bones.”

— Nikita Gill, Almost Feelings

[poems-and-word]

[books-n-quotes]

“Angry, and half in love with you, and tremendously sorry, I turned away.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby (via books-n-quotes)

[sotick]

By  Poppy

[summersweeet]

[journeyof20000steps]

[euesworld]

“A bad day is just that, a bad day.. and things will get better again. Go to sleep, and when you wake up things will reset.. giving you another opportunity to smile, another opportunity to laugh, tomorrow is an opportunity for change. And the sleeping rests you up so that you have the energy to keep moving forward.. things will be ok, things are always ok, they just don’t seem ok cause you are having a bad day, and bad days never last forever.”

You are ok, a bad day is sign that things are not in the place they are supposed to be, that’s why tomorrow gives you a chance to start putting things where they belong in your life - Eue

[juansendizon]

“Before you sleep tonight, be grateful for something. Be grateful for the way the sun shined from your bedroom window as you woke up this morning. Be grateful for the bacon, coffee, and eggs you had at breakfast and the sufficient energy they gave you to keep you strong for the challenges that came your way. Be grateful for your friends, co-workers or classmates that helped you learn new things and made you appreciate the warmth that comes from the feeling of working as a team. Be grateful for your mental health just as much as you are grateful for your physical health for both of them are essentially connected. Be grateful for your room, your bed and your family for there’s no other place like home. Be grateful for the love you know you deserve for that gives you enough reason, meaning, and purpose to be alive. Be grateful for everything that keeps you here.”

— Juansen Dizon, Bedtime Prayers

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“Start over my darling. Be brave enough to find the life you want, and courageous enough to chase it.”

— Madalyn Beck

[beyond2am]

Maybelle's 'Small but Definite Happy List'

1. Sleeping without the need of waking up early

-Nothing better than being unbothered about waking up early the next day

2. Buying what you love on SALE

-It's like winning the lottery

3. Travelling

-Going to new places and making memories is the best healing therapy for me

4. Taking photos and videos

-I like documenting moments so I can cherish them afterwards

5. Binge-watching series

-Best way to beat boredom at home. I love watching Korean dramas, BTS episodes, and American shows

6. Eating

-Eating is a definite happiness. Especially eating good food

7. Wearing nice clothes

-Clothes are everything to me. My confidence is somehow dependent on the clothes I wear

8. Meeting up with high school friends

-This is a small but definite happiness. Gathering with friends from home laughing about the good old times while speaking the local language is the best

9. Ticking off lists

-I'm a planner so it's a definite small happiness to tick off items I've accomplished in my list

10. Spending time with family

-I'm happy just by being with them

[books-n-quotes]

“When did the future switch from being a promise to being a threat?”

— Chuck Palahniuk, Invisible Monsters

[raichuus]

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[books-n-quotes]

“This is what I like about photographs. They’re proof that once, even if just for a heartbeat, everything was perfect.”

— Jodi Picoult, Lone Wolf

[sleepin]

“There were things I wanted to tell him. But I knew they would hurt him. So I buried them, and let them hurt me.”

— 02:52 thoughts (via avouer)

[theprocast]

It feels good to be different and to have a genuine friend, another beautiful human being, accept you for who you are, to be told that you’re perfectly fine the way you are and to stay this way.

— Marley C. | Accepted.