Suksess is Near!

a sort of diary blog, for a guy like me!

[bigthoughtsfromabigguy]

Hallaien👋

Hey!

I just made this blog to use as a sort of diary, as I don't want to use my main blog for that. Im mostly gonna post positive things from my day. Create something to look at when I'm down, yaknow.

Anyway, this is my first blog blog, that I don't like, just repost things with, sooo.... idk

Idk my pronouns either, but I would prefer He/Him and She/Her

Im just a little guy. I don't know my gender, and I don't care to find out <3

Im a minor, so please be respectful.

I go to art school so some post are bound to be about that. I like superheroes, spesifically Marvel, DC and Dispatch. I love fan fiction, Ao3 for life <3

Sadly, i also have anxiety ;( some posts about that too (if not most)

I love my friendes and my family, and somtimes i worry that im a bad sister, but i try to not think about that :>

I like to imagine that im a writer, and i plan to write my own book someday, preferably before turning 18 so i can call myself a teenauthour.

Tag system!

#big thoughts from a big guy sad, anxious, mad posts

#sucsess is near! Joyful stuff

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i know i have to take a break from wirking with my hands, but i want to create! I want to draw! Learn how to animate! Crochet merch! Sew something! I want to fill my life and space with stuff! I want! I want i want i wantiwantiwant rahhhh

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I LOVE SPIDER-MAN!!!

rahhhhhh!!! I just watched bnd!! Ooooomgggg.

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I LOVE SPIDERMAN!!!

He did not deserve that </3

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oh, whats this? A road trip! How fun! Well, i'll start packing then :D i have to bring my headphones and my– what did you say? You have one more thing? Oooh, what is it :DD

.... My period?

Okay... i'll just, go... yeah :|

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I have famously shamed the state of my hands, but a new subject just dropped (drumroll please) Knees

FUCK MY KNEES

[flooferdrawsshtuff]

tada (jazz hands)

omg the quality is dogshit... Anyway!

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reblogging this... for no reason 👀

[colourpatternist]

I love sudoku

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sudoku is just ragebaiting at this point, bro, WHY ARE THE NUMBERS DOING THAT

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thaths not a nightligh anymire, thats the sun. Holy shit.

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yk that thing people on tumblr always say? "Oh my god, tumblr nerfed my picture, click on it for better quality" and like i never do. But now that i amnin the know, I Know. Tumbler wil fuck up even thw thought, ok, of a picture.

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when did the time get so much!? I just sat down here about... 7 hours... ago... i see the problem now...

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I am sharing a double bed with my tiny ass dog. And he is sleeping. With my foot. As. His. Pillow.

You could sleep anywhere else my dude! And you chose My Foot!?

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fuck anxiety, i dont want to live like this anymore. I hate it. I hate it i hate it i hate it. I dont think i can hate anything more, and be more unfealing towards a subject

Anxiety makes me feel like shit, and it takes all my joy and ambitions. I dont want anything, i just want to float in an endless void of peace.

I feel like a shell of my old self

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no one is better that me at trapping unlucky stones in my impeneralannees steel prison flip flops. Guarded hevily by unyilding toes and heels that clasify as beasts in the arena

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I dont like saying im not fine, because i am fine. But its not really fine fine, jyst fine. And i am okay, because im living and its sunny and its nice here, and im fine. Really

[json-derulo]

it's so annoying that therapy works. I have a bloodwork appointment in less than an hour. A few months ago that would've had me shaking shitting kubrick-staring curled up on the floor with anxiety. now it's just 15 minutes of unpleasant bullshit I've gotta do before I can get donuts

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🤞crossing my figers that this is me in a few months :D