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[junarian]

Me: *listening to music*

My brain: dude we have this really important issue i dont think we should be pushin this o-

Me: *turns up the volume* :)

[premixedpancakes]

me: *does any service for anyone*

person’s reaction: *is neutral*

me: I fucked up I fucked up I fucked up i FUCKED UP I FUCKED UP I FUCKED UP THEY HATE ME I FUCKED UP I FUCKED UP

[premixedpancakes]

people don’t understand how tiring living with avoidant personality disorder is. you have to watch every. single. move. you make in order not to embarrass yourself or have someone think you’re an idiot. you’re constantly anxious and terrified about your actions and go to great lengths to make sure everything is completely socially acceptable. avpd is posting a photo on Instagram but the minute it’s posted all you can think about is whether this photo was edited well, whether your caption was silly, whether you made a spelling mistake in your caption, whether people will laugh at you, cringe and think you’re a fucking clown because you can’t make a proper post on Instagram. avpd is not being able to do anything and just let it be. avpd is having a breakdown because the new person you texted left you on read, probably because you’re convinced they think you’re a fucking idiot. avpd is contemplating showing someone a drawing you’re proud of then when you do show them and their reaction isn’t as enthusiastic as you want you immediately regret everything and hate the drawing and hate yourself because why would you have ever thought you could actually make something good? avpd is striving to be flawless. avpd is striving to be flawless because you’re inferior to everyone else.

[sunflowerinc]

when ur out in the world n people can See you but you don’t Want 2 b perceived

[premixedpancakes]

how do you stop feeling ashamed and embarrassed and humiliated ALL THE TIME

[notfullyfunctional]

My brain: you're hurting them, nice going you sorry sack of shit. no wonder no one likes you.

My brain: wow, real fucking egotistical to think they even notice anything you do in the first place. what a fucking bitch.

Me: for the love of god please shut the fuck up

[pi-la]

[exactives-deactivated20141126]

[especially]

[quotemadness]

“I cannot rid myself of the feeling that I’m not in the right place.”

— Franz Kafka

[love]

[dwgif]

I want to know how a phone that isn’t a phone gets a phone call.

[understands]

[expelliarmus]

[destroymylife]

[thatbooknerdy]

“That perfect tranquility of life, which is nowhere to be found but in retreat, a faithful friend and a good library.”    ―Aphra Behn, The Lucky Chance, Or, the Alderman’s Bargain    

[understands]