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recently finished the final season of on my block and i think one of the most beautiful parts of the whole season was after jamal gave back gnome spooky to chivo and chivo looks at gnome spooky and tells him that he'll find his way back home and then cesar see oscar (ghost oscar) and when he turns back to hug him and he sees gnome spooky.

oscar found his way back home.

that is beautiful to me.

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I didn’t even notice that connection!!! 😭

More thoughts as I process s4. I’ve seen people criticize Diego for his portrayal of Cesar this season. Main thing being the deep voice, but have you noticed the same thing with Spooky/Oscar? Spooky had a much deeper voice when he was in the Santos compared to the Oscar of season 4. Because it was an act on both parts, they were both just kids acting a part, trying to be hard. Oscar was what, maybe 19-20 in the first season? Probably just as scared as Cesar but putting on a brave front to protect his brother because that was all he knew. He thought Cesar would be safer joining the Santos because that was all Spooky knew at the time. Just a kid trying to protect his kid brother.

I think the overarching theme that they really drove home by bringing back Latrell was that they were all just kids who never asked for any of this, just kids who wanted a safe place. Oscar didn’t deserve his fate but neither did kids like Latrell who never stood a chance because of their environment.

#this is just me babbling at this point #on my block #on my block spoilers #oscar diaz #spooky diaz #cesar diaz

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Oscar knew who killed him. In his last moment, he still tried to protect his brother by not telling him. Because he did not want him to get revenge and loose himself even more. He wanted his little brother out of the gang life and in his last moment he was still protecting him. So when Cesar asks him who it was, he shook his head no. In the end, we the audience don't know who did it either because it does not matter, it was another kid, forced into the situation they did not ask for, just like the kid who shot Ruby. It is a never ending circle of vilance and Oscar wanted to break it. He wanted more for his little brother. It's not a plot hole but it did destroy me.

I was initially pissed about Spooky’s fate when I first watched s4 but the more I think about it, the more I understand. When you grow up in a neighborhood like that, sometimes no matter how hard you try to get out, shit happens. Like their father said, Spooky was in the streets for a long time and the streets don’t forget.

Of course because it’s fictional, we want our favorites to survive and get out but I actually appreciate the reality. People die because of gang violence everyday, either as intentional targets or because they were in the wrong place at the wrong time. People with dreams and people they loved. One thing I appreciated about On My Block is they never romanticized gangs. As much as I hate that we lost Spooky, I understand.

#on my block #on my block spoilers #oscar diaz #spooky #spooky diaz #cesar diaz

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Reddie #344

- driving -

Richie: Can I ask a question?

Eddie: Only if it’s important.

Richie: Do owls have eyelashes?

Eddie:

Richie:

Eddie: *pulls over to google it*

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Black Flag (Punk!Eddie)

It (2017) - Reddie - ½ - 4,166 words

Summary: Richie Tozier is a struggling comedian in Portland, Maine. He walks into his usual venue to find that a punk band is playing. Richie witnesses the firecracker of a front man that is Eddie Kaspbrak and a wild night for both of them ensues.

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(A/N: Hi! I have a few prompts in my ask that I promise I am not ignoring, I just needed to get this little headcannon out of my noggin! This is super self indulgent and fun and I hope some of ya’ll out there enjoy it too :-)

Partially inspired by a post by @gazebo-pills so ya’ll should check out their blog they are so fun!

Make sure to go listen to Black Flag - Nervous Breakdown so you can really pick up Eddie’s vibes.

Also if ya’ll like this and want the smutty part 2 just let me know ! I was just too excited not to post part 1! ok bye)

Richie Tozier was standing in a long line outside of a brick building called The Wack Job. He worked here multiple nights a week doing his stand up routine. No, he wasn’t doing it full time. And no, it didn’t pay well.

While he considered his Voices to be a one-of-a-kind act, it wasn’t getting as much attention as he anticipated. He had been working on his routine since he was literally ten years old, so when he started performing and he didn’t have people flocking, Richie was surprised. He knew that most genius went overlooked and that is precisely what he always told himself just to keep his head up.

The line began to move as people started piling into the small venue. Richie’s interest was definitely peaked, he never saw a crowd this large when he was here throughout the week. He decided he might stay back at the bar for a little while, after he picked up his paycheck from the owner, of course.

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Stanley Uris called his wife Patty, that he adored, “baby-love” and promised to never hurt her and he kept that promise until may 28th 1985 . aka the duration of their entire relationship. he also “never locked the door against her” and started crying because he thought he was the reason they couldnt have kids . im gonna pass out

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Reddie Prompt: hurt and comfort. Eddie having been beaten up a little by bullies for getting angry at them for saying something about richie. Richie sees the results of the fight, keeps asking what happened, takes him home, patches him up but keeps asking why he got beaten up. Eventually eddie gives in an tells him why he got beaten up. Lots of softness, embarrassment and soft kisses? Probs been done before but weak for h/c!

“Jesus fuck, what the hell happened to you!?“

Eddie Kaspbrak grinned sheepishly from where he stood, shivering on his sort-of-maybe-boyfriend’s doorstep, body aching and face stinging. He looked like a mess no doubt, scrapes on his knees, cuts and dirt on his face, and what felt like an ugly bruise swelling out of a particularly nasty gash just under his right eye. Henry Bowers had known exactly what he was doing when he beat the shit out of him and shoved his face in the dirt. He knew it would send Eddie spiraling into a fucking panic only a true germaphobe would ever experience. He could feel the dirt now, like an extra layer of skin, caking into his wounds, mixing in with the sweat and tears and blood on his face. He needed to get clean, and it just so happened that Richie Tozier’s house was just around the corner from the…er…crime scene.

“I fell off of my bike,” he recited the mantra he’d been repeating in his head on the way over, shrugging. “I just need a couple Band-Aids, is all.”

Richie looked unconvinced from where he stood, leaning against the door frame with his arms crossed in front of him. It was one of the lazy mornings for the Losers Club- the kind where it was too cold to actually do anything fun, so everyone just ended up staying home, or doing their own things (Eddie himself had been on his way back from the train docks before…well, everything happened).

Most people looked like shit in the mornings. Richie Tozier was not one of those people. He looked…good, Eddie thought, despite everything, not that he really minded. Real good, all bedroom eyed and soft, frizzy black curls sticking up every which way. His face was flushed pink from the cold outside, the faint patches of freckles on his cheeks shining like stars out in the freezing winter air. His mouth was kind wet looking, lips shiny with water, and the idea that maybe he'd seen Eddie’s distorted outline through the blurry peephole and rushed to brush his teeth made the smaller boy's face go a little hot. Richie always had this infuriating ability to look like some kind of big awkward teddy-bear 24/7, all warm and inviting with his sleepy eyes and his goofy grin. Eddie wanted nothing more than to fall into his arms and cry out of pure frustration, let Richie kiss his head and bury him in the warmth of that big Derry High Football hoodie of his (Ben’s actually, but they all knew once Richie got ahold of a piece of clothing, he never gave it back).

But Eddie wasn’t going to do any of that.

Because then he’d have to tell him everything.

The tall boy raised an eyebrow. “That’s some bike accident, huh?” He asked suspiciously, pushing his glasses further up his freckled nose with the tip of his pointer finger.

Eddie huffed. “You gonna let me in or not, asshole? Its fucking freezing out here.“

“Be my guest,” Richie winked, yanking the old mahogany door open far enough for Eddie to slip in past him.

The Tozier household was Eddie’s favorite of all the Losers residences. Maybe it was because he’d spent so much time there while growing up—sticking glo-in-the-dark stars on Richie’s walls and building blanket forts in his cramped, cozy bedroom, pushing aside stacks of comics and rumpled clothes to make room for blankets on the hardwood floor.

Maybe it was because of Richie’s parents—nice folks, Wentworth was funny and Maggie was sweet.

Or maybe it was simply because Richie lived there, the boy he sort of, kind of kissed sometimes—chapped lips and heavy breathing in the darkness of his room—with his loud laugh and his spaghetti noodle limbs that held Eddie so nicely.

All he knew was that a wave of warmth came over him when he stepped inside just then, the familiar smell of cigar smoke and lemon scented floor polish calming him almost instantly. The panic and the anger and the adrenalin swirling inside his head dimmed, if only a bit. But it didn’t turn back time, didn’t erase what had just happened. Because it was true that Henry Bowers had punched the shit out of Eddie—it wasn’t something new, getting one beat by Bowers and his gang, routine more like. Only something had changed this time, and maybe it was that Eddie hadn’t slept his full 8 hours the night before, or maybe it was cold as fuck and he wanted to get the hell home already, but something had compelled him to open his big stupid mouth.

I’m not fucking scared of you, Henry, he spat. Not long after that, a large bony hand was on his neck, pushing him into the scratchy trunk of tree. Hmm, not scared anymore, are we, runt? Would you be scared if I hurt someone else, someone ya love? Maybe that faggot Trashmouth of yours. Not like anyone would give a damn if he showed up dead somewhere, one less cocksucker to worry about, he’d said.

And that’s where things got supremely fucked.

Because Eddie had thrown the first punch.

Eddie headed straight towards the bathroom, through the dimly lit hallway just past the front door, fingers dragging along the worn flowered wallpaper. He heard the front door shut behind him with a soft thud, the current of chilly air flowing in from outside cut off abruptly. Richie was behind him not more than a second later, flipping on the light switch in the bathroom and motioning for Eddie to sit on the counter. He shut the door behind them, sparing the bruised boy a glance before turning his back to him. Eddie watched his friend as he rummaged through the cabinets on the far end of the small room nervously.

“…know there’s a fuckin’…first aid kit around here,” he could hear Richie mumble, pill bottles rattling and falling over at the fault of his big, freckled starfish hands. “So,“ he began, voice muffled from inside the cabinet. “Ya gonna tell me what the fuck really happened, or are you gonna keep a good man in suspense?”

Nobody’s gonna miss that piece of shit fag anyways.

Eddie’s fists clenched in his lap, and he flinched in pain, glaring down at the gashes in the knuckles of his right hand, drying with dark black blood. He’d punched Henry hard, hard enough to make them both bleed, and he’d do it again if he fucking could.

“I told you what happened,” Eddie replied stiffly, sliding his hand under his thigh with clenched teeth to hide it. He watched as Richie made it across the room in a single easy stride, kneeling down in front of Eddie to stick his head in the cabinet under the sink. “I fell off my bike.”

“A-ha!” Richie came back up, a silky thin spiderweb tangled on his hair and an old fashioned tin pail in his grasp. “I know you’re lying, Spaghetti-head. But I’m gonna patch you up anyways, just because you’re cute.“ He tapped Eddie’s nose with the tip of his finger, a grin playing at his lips. Fair enough, Eddie thinks. They both knew he was lying, both knew what really happened—what always happened, that didn’t mean he had to admit it aloud.

“Ugh, fuck you,” he pushed Richie’s hand away, fighting down the smile that threatened to stretch out his split bottom lip. “Just gimme the first aid kit. I’ll do it myself.”

“Nope,” the tall boy held the box out of Eddie’s grasp. “Sorry, Eds, but I’m the doctor today. You can call me MD Big D—Get it? Because I have a big di—”

“—yes, yes I get it, Rich,” Eddie rolled his eyes, cheeks going a bit warm. “Now could we get this over with before I bleed out?”

“Anything for you, Sweetums!” Richie soaked one of the hand towels hanging from a hook by the sink with rubbing alcohol and dabbed the corner of it to Eddie’s dust covered face, cleaning out the scrapes and dirt. It stung a little, but Eddie liked the sting of rubbing alcohol, it calmed his nerves, eased the panicky feelings that settled in his chest like stones—if it burned it meant it was healing, his mom always said. He only flinched a little bit when the rough towel brushed the gash under his eye—Henry had been wearing his dad’s stupid college football ring, fuck him.

“Shit…sorry ‘bout that, kid,” Richie mumbled. He was close—close enough for Eddie to smell the bubblegum toothpaste on his breath—he swore Richie was the only person above the age of 6 that was still committed to bubblegum flavored toothpaste, jesus

But the fact remained that Richie Tozier had brushed his teeth for him.

“S'fine,” Eddie whispered, undamaged hand reaching out to curl around Richie’s slender torso, flexing his fingers against the warmth of his clothed spine for comfort. He could always count on Richie to be a human heater, and his hands were always freezing. “Just…stings a little is all.“

Richie sighed deeply, the hand towel on Eddie’s face slowing in movement just next to his mouth. “Fuck, Eddie,” he sighed, the pad of his thumb ghosting over the cut on Eddie's bottom lip, like he’d just noticed how fucked up his face was. "He…he never got any of us this bad before…what the hell happened?“ Richie wasn’t joking anymore, eyes sad and tired behind his glasses. God, Eddie wished he didn’t have to look so goddamn sad.

So much for not telling him anything.

Eddie sighed. “I’m just tired of it, okay? I’m 16 years old now, I shouldn’t have to cower and beg at Bowers’s feet anymore. Fuck him.”

Richie froze. “You told him something, didn’t you? Eddie—”

“Look, all I said was that I wasn’t scared of him anymore. And then he said…he started talking about you and just saying horrible things, Richie. And…and I was just so mad and..” Eddie was rambling now, angry tears prickling at the corners of his eyes, fuck.

“And…?” Richie coaxed.

Despite everything, Eddie grinned. He held up his fist for the other boy to see, bruises, splits, and blood and all.

Richie's mouth fell open in awe at the sight of Eddie’s split knuckles. “No. Way.“ His freckled face broke into a wide smile.

“Yes, way,” Eddie said proudly, flexing his fingers. “Punched that son of a bitch right in the face. Made him bleed, too.”

Because he said you didn’t matter, Rich. And I know you don’t think you do either, but to me, you’re the whole goddamn world.

“Eddie Kapsbrak, you’re my fuckin’ hero,” Richie stated, eyes wide and cheeks pink.

Eddie rolled his eyes, face going hot under the other boy’s dark eyed stare. “Oh, beep beep, asshole. I’m proud of myself..“

“No, I’m serious, Eds,” Richie said. “I mean—You punched Henry Bowers in the face! Fuck—should I start callin’ you Rocky fuckin' Balboa now, or what?” he grinned, socking Eddie playfully in his arm.

“I mean—God, how the fuck do you even like someone like me?”

Eddie frowned. “Someone like you?”

Richie’s grin stayed put on his face, but there was something bitter in his eyes now, something Eddie didn’t like one bit. “You know…” He fished a Band-Aid out of the first-aid kit and carefully smoothed it over the scrape on Eddie’s knee. “I’m not like you, Eds. I can’t stand up to bullies, or tell people how I feel…I’m…weak.”

“Weak?” Eddie laughed, arms reaching out to pull the boy into him. “You know you’re the only fucking person in this town that can actually admit who you are? I mean, hell—it still scares me how much I like you, I still get all freaked out when I look at you and realize you’re more than just my friend. I…I get so scared even thinking about telling anybody about…what I am. But you? You did it. Fuck, Rich, you’re my hero.“

You gotta know that, right?

Richie’s eyes bore into him, bitterness and sadness magnified behind his huge dorky glasses. The fact that could think so little of himself made something in Eddie’s chest ache. He wanted to show Richie how special he was, how much he meant.

“My fucking hero,” Eddie said again. He slid a hand up to hold the other boy's chin, guiding their faces together.

Kissing Richie was always the same. Warm, sweet, a little rough and awkward. But it always felt like it was the first time, they way the other boy’s ridiculously long eyelashes tickled Eddie’s cheeks, big calloused hands—musician’s hands—tugging at his shirt to bring him in closer to his body, to the warmth that was Richie. It always caught Eddie off guard, how soft Riche Tozier could actually be. To the outside world, he was loud, blunt, unthinking, but to Eddie? There was this whole other side that only he got to see. Sure, Richie was still loud, still made jokes about Eddie’s mom (ughhh), but he could be sweet, like homemade honey, open mouthed kisses and warm hands on Eddie’s face, in his hair. Richie hummed happily and deepened their kiss, tongue finding its way into Eddie’s mouth, warm and slick and sweet. He tasted like bubblegum toothpaste, and maybe Eddie liked it, liked how it reminded him of his childhood, back when he didn’t have to worry things—like Henry Bowers or being a fag in a town full of fag-haters, or the well-being of this boy pressed up against him, bony and freckled and humming happy little sounds in the back of his throat whenever Eddie tugged at the roots of his curls. And he felt like that again for the first time in a long time, carefree.

Because Eddie Kaspbrak wasn’t brave—he was just stupid and brash and most of the time he acted on impulse and feeling, alone. And he’d probably just signed himself up for a one way ticket to Hell with Bowers because of what he did, but he just couldn’t bring himself to give a damn, not with Richie keeping him warm. Because he knew he was safe here, in Richie’s house, with his lemon scented floors and glo-in-the-dark stars. Eddie would worry about the wrath of Bowers later.

Richie tugged his bottom lip between his teeth, and Eddie hissed in pain.

“Mmshit, sorry,” Richie laughed breathlessly, pulling away. Eddie gazed up happily at his face, cheeks flushed and lips swollen. Fucking gorgeous, he wanted to say, but he didn’t. Maybe one day he would finally work up the courage to say it, out loud. One day.

“S'alright,” Eddie said, still catching his breath. “I forgot where I was for a second.”

Richie smiles, slowly and lazily. “Yeah, I have that affect on people, Eddie-kins.”

“Jesus, shut the fuck up,” Eddie snorted, chucking the hand towel at him. “Come ‘ere.” He pulled Richie back into his embrace, bony hips settled in between where Eddie’s legs hung off the counter. He cupped Richie’s face in his hands, leaving a line of soft kisses down his jaw-line. “You gonna patch me up, or what Dr. T?”

Richie guffawed. “Its MD Big D, actually.” He pressed a lazy kiss to Eddie’s lips before bringing the rag back up to his face.

“There’s no fuckin’ way I’m saying that,” Eddie said, flinching at the stinging cut under his eye.

“Give it time, Eds. Give it time.”

He eventually finished cleaning out Eddie’s scrapes, all the while assuring him that it stated so in his PhD that kissing “boo boo’s” was part of training at medical school, and once Eddie was covered in bandages and kisses, face flushed and heart light with warmth, his sort-of-maybe boyfriend grabbed his hand and pulled him off of the counter.

“So…” Eddie began. “What do you wanna do now?”

Richie wriggled his eyebrow. “I think you know…”

Eddie did. “Blanket fort?”

Richie grinned.

“Hell yeah.“

UMm sorry if there’s no keep reading thing,,it’s not working on my laptop for some reason hmMmm :/ Gonna uhHH post this on myao3 ,, check my other stuff out if ya’ll want :))