Scum Villain; Binghe Week; Day Five / Disciple
Title: The Monster in Us
Author: Akiko / Rinsled05 (AO3)
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: None
Summary: Luo Binghe snaps. Itâs humans who bully the weak and step on the downtrodden. Itâs humans who care only about power and control, who hurt others for the sheer fun of it. Humans are the scum of this world. (Part 2 of a Binghe-centered; Bingqiu; Monster/Human AU.)
Written for @bingheweek: Day 5; Disciple
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Itâs Meng Mo who approaches Luo Binghe the next morning, arms tucked in the sleeves of his robes.
âWhat happened?â he asks, gingerly.
Luo Binghe glares at Meng Mo. Curled in a ball, he knows heâs shaking, eyes bloodshot and sigil glowing red in the darkness. Looking as if heâs finally fallen past the edge of sanity. Nightmares kept him up all nightâof Qingge mocking him, insulting him, stabbing him through the heart with a dagger. All while Shen Qingqiu watched and laughed.
âI enter peopleâs dreams, as you know,â Meng Mo says. âAnd yours were, well. Unsettling.â
Ah, yes. Itâs why the outline of Meng Mo is so faint, having gone in and out of this reality so many times that his own body has faded.
âUnderstatement of the year,â Luo Binghe mutters.
âMmhm.â Meng Mo floats closer, the edge of his long robes trailing across the floor. âI can feel your rage, too. Your hatred.â
Luo Binghe looks away, scowling. âHumans bring nothing but pain.â
âEven your mother?â Meng Mo says. âThe old washer lady in your childhood stories?â
The old manâs questions fan the flames of Luo Bingheâs bitterness into a towering inferno, scorching a burning trail up his throat.
âThey left me,â he rasps. âWhen I most needed them. I was scared, I was alone⊠and if theyâd just trusted monsters enough to let me be with themâ! My own mother fraternized enough to have me, so whyâŠ!?â Luo Binghe buries his face in his knees, the tip of his horns scraping against skin. âI hate them, so much.â
Silence. Then, a quiet rustle, before Luo Binghe feels the silk fabric of Meng Moâs robes brush his arms as the monster sinks down next to him.
âI can also take company into dreams,â Meng Mo says. âIf said company so wishes.â
Luo Binghe snorts. âWhy the hell would I want toââ He stops when the full implication of Meng Moâs suggestion dawns on him. Sucks in a breath, the red of his sigil faltering. âYou meanâŠâ
âOh, yes,â Meng Mo says. âTo observe. And to understand.â
Luo Binghe straightens, jaw clenched. Heâs always wanted to understand the human psyche, what drives them to such brutalities and wanton betrayal.
Most of all, he wants to know what Shen Qingqiu is thinking.
Shen Qingqiuâs dreamscape is a barren desert, their feet sinking into the hot sand with each step. The sun beats down on them, merciless, not even a wisp of cloud to soften the harsh rays. In the heat, itâs hard to breathe, the air thick and hazy and full of sand.
This isnât at all what Luo Binghe is expecting.
He turns to Meng Mo, who shakes his head.
âEvery dreamscape reflects a personâs state of mind. Some are gardens: rich and full of life. Others areâŠ" Meng Mo shades his eyes and looks out at the desolate world ahead. ââŠanything but.â
Luo Binghe swallows, hard. In retrospect, it makes sense; Shen Qingqiu canât have turned into a human-hating hermit without some damage to his psyche. But for his mind to be this isolated, this empty⊠all of Luo Bingheâs rage evaporates under the scorching sun.
Maybe Shen Qingqiu needs him as much as he does Shen Qingqiu.
âCome,â Meng Mo says. âThere must be an oasis somewhere.â
They venture across the searing sand, Luo Binghe trudging after Meng Mo, who floats smoothly through the air.
âHow do you know thereâs an oasis?â Luo Binghe asks, spitting out sand.
Meng Mo shrugs. âBecause no human or monster would possess the will to live, otherwise.â
Given the vastness of this wasteland, Shen Qingqiu must be barely surviving.
Luo Binghe feels his heart sink at the thought, just as Meng Mo points a bony finger at a spot of color in the far distance, hidden amidst the neverending shades of brown.
The oasis is small but lush. Thereâre plenty of flowers, trees, small ponds, even small animals, as if all life squeezed itself into this tiny space and made the best of what it could.
In the middle of it, sits Shen Qingqiu.
The smell of cinnamon is strong here, stronger than jasmine or pine, and Luo Binghe breathes in the cloying sweetness with relish.
Meng Mo gestures. âLetâs get closer.â
âWonât he see us?â Luo Binghe whispers.
âOnly if I want him to,â Meng Mo says.
They walk right up to Shen Qingqiu, whose head is bowed, tending to something on the ground.
At the sight of it, Luo Bingheâs chest goes hot in an entirely different way.
A pot of jasmines, labeled âFrom Bingheâ in elegant penmanship.
And from the way Shen Qingqiu is gazing at it, lashes fanned over soft eyes, the way he waters the flowers with such careful tips of the watering can, it looks almost as though⊠as thoughâŠ.
âHe treasures you,â Meng Mo says, softly.
This is the answer Luo Binghe was seeking.
Without thought, he falls to his knees, throwing his arms around Shen Qingqiu. Lets out a sob when they pass right throughâfail to give him the warmth he so cravesâbut he presses in anyway, pushing his nose into the crook of Shen Qingqiuâs neck. Even in a dream, the aromas thereâof cinnamon, jasmine, pineâare overwhelming, dizzying, and Luo Binghe wants to drown in them, forever.
But he does pause, just a beat, when his eyes catch a glint of the guanyin pendant on Shen Qingqiuâs chest.
âWhat is it,â Meng Mo says, floating up.
âIs there any way I can find out what that means to him?â Luo Binghe asks, claws flicking at the pendant.
âItâs important to him, if heâs wearing it in his oasis,â Meng Mo hums, one hand reaching for his beard. âWeâd have to sift through his memories for that one.â
Luo Bingheâs head snaps up. âYou can do that?â
âOf course,â Meng Mo huffs, seemingly insulted. âI toy with dreams; memories are but childâs play.â
Meng Mo strokes his beard. âItâs a dangerous skill, Luo Binghe. How do I know you wonât use it to mess with human minds?â
Luo Binghe turns to bow. âI only wish to learn everything I can about Shen Qingqiu so I can understand him. Learn to trust humans again,â he adds, glibly.
Meng Mo shoots a glance at Shen Qingqiu, before he tucks his arms into his sleeves with a sigh.