🍏lazy dork…✈️

💭.｡:･*ﾟ💫ﾟ*･.｡ - the chronicles of a boring 𝗀𝗂𝗋𝗅 - (•ૢ⚈͒⌄⚈͒•ૢ)

[biophilichomosapien]

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𝖻𝗈𝗇𝗃𝗈𝗎𝗋 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗐𝖾𝗅𝖼𝗈𝗆𝖾 𝗍𝗈 𝗆𝗒 𝖽𝗂𝗀𝗂𝗍𝖺𝗅 𝖽𝗂𝖺𝗋𝗒!! 𝖨 𝗃𝗎𝗌𝗍 𝗅𝗈𝖺𝖽 𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝗆𝗒 𝗍𝗁𝗈𝗎𝗀𝗁𝗍𝗌 𝗁𝖾𝗋𝖾 ⸜( •⌄• )⸝ 𝖨'𝗆 𝗂𝗇𝗍𝗈 𝖺𝗇𝗂𝗆𝖾𝗌, 𝗆𝖺𝗇𝗐𝗁𝖺, 𝖻𝗈𝗈𝗄𝗌 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝖺𝗋𝗍. 𝖬𝗒 𝖿𝖺𝗏𝗈𝗋𝗂𝗍𝖾 𝖼𝗈𝗅𝗈𝗎𝗋 𝗂𝗌 𝗒𝖾𝗅𝗅𝗈𝗐 + 𝗂 𝗅𝗈𝗏𝖾 𝖽𝗈𝗀𝗌 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗍𝖺𝗐𝗇𝗒 𝖿𝗋𝗈𝗀𝗆𝗈𝗎𝗍𝗁𝗌!! 𝖨 𝗁𝗈𝗉𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖾𝗇𝗃𝗈𝗒 𝗆𝗒 𝗉𝖺𝗀𝖾 ▼・ᴥ・▼

[biophilichomosapien]

lolll i’m getting desperate for this guy and he’s not even all that it’s just the attention he gives me that makes me view him as like super cute and i wanna date him or something he told me about his deep secret that was lowk cute and apparently he said i was the only one who knew that who he knew irl so ig that was cute but he probs says it other girls 😔 if only he didn’t flirt with other girls over text he would be the best loser crush to have he literally ticks all my boxes expect for those nerd glasses which he might have cuz he’s always complaining about his bad eyesight but anyways i’m getting delusional over this guy and yeah he’s not misogynistic but he does say slurs and stuff i don’t align with so that’s that and apparently he’s not as mean to me as he is with others which i don’t trust and he calls me a depressed quiet bum since i barely talk in class so i already have a bad impression of me in his eyes…i really need to get over my fantasies and face reality

[biophilichomosapien]

why is he lowk cute. i’m too scared to look fully at him because he somehow will always catch me looking at him so i’ve sated my appetite with his side profile and he is just so adorableeeeeeeeee omigosh during french he was saying stuff but quieter this time and usually he’s loud. he looks like a small sad puppy and it’s just so freaking cuteeee i really wish i could talk to him in real life. i’m hoping for atleast 1 class with him next year!! and we sit together ofc…i wonder if he’ll grow his hair out like how he used to i mean his hairstyle now suits him really well. he’s actually quite talk now that i realise his and skinny…i think i have a type of tall scrawny guys :( he’s so cute when he rambles on about his interests and his day i really enjoy seeing all his texts about him but holy crap he’s always getting in trouble by the teachers plus he talks to a lot of girls and flirts with them online :( what a shame…he’s still cute tho…but now i can’t see him for 2 months!!!Now all i can do is pray he texts me first

[biophilichomosapien]

i find it weird that i kind of love and hate myself. sometimes i feel pretty and actually believe the compliments people give me but otger times i spiral and doomscroll and consume media saying people give compliments out of pity. i feel like that one image where that girl thinks she’s prettier than she actually is. i look bad in school all my colour is drained and i hate how visible my eyebags are but i can’t help staying up late at night. it’ll get better eventually

[biophilichomosapien]

ngl one of my secret fantasies are to have my pigtails pulled and i really enjoy getting praises…

[biophilichomosapien]

i think no matter how much love and care i’m surrounded by whether it be friends of family i’ll always feel worthless and a bit left out even if i’m the centre of attention, like there will be this deep lingering negative feeling that won’t go away no matter how much i try to think positive

[biophilichomosapien]

bro he’s so cute but in a fugly funky way like he walks so distinctively and his face actually is one of a kind. i don’t fully know what his face looks like though because im too scared to look at him he probs thinks i’m a creep. but he looks so cute when he’s focused in my peripheral vision and he looks so cute when he sulks so cute when he laughs and i actually like it when he’s loud he deffo doesnt like me tho i’ve onky ever talked to him online and i try to act like idc about him but it’s clearly not working. i secretly love it when he teases me it kinda gives me butterflies i feel like a loser falling for him through a screen you know he told me if he got confessed to he would probs say yes…maybe i should when we actually get to talk in real life. one day….one day

[biophilichomosapien]

this heatwave is making guys ,i never thought i would be attracted to, looking super cute and adorable. it’s making me delusional

[biophilichomosapien]

whimpy voice cracks are honestly so cute especially when they are whining and sulking. Some guy in my class had a report and did really bad on it and started complaining about what she wrote. Holy crap he was so fucking cute he literally out up hand signs all and arm rotations his voice cracks and high pitched whining was so flipping adorableeee and he was sulking for the rest of the lesson just slouching back on his chair…I’m not a weirdo, right?

[biophilichomosapien]

I feel so drained and tired everyday I try t be positive but nothing really works. It’s like a drug that fades after a certain amount of time and I literally chase after it I don’t know if my friends actually like me I feel like I’m at my worse I have no motivation for anything and I wish I could just rot in my bed I hate the way I look I hate the way I dress I hate the way I speak the way I probably smell other people probably don’t like me well I don’t think they would like me because I’m so negative so I try to put up a positive facade and it doesn’t even work I hate how awkward I am and I wish I could punch myself in the face

[coquetteangel333]

[cherriesofall]

[biophilichomosapien]

lately I’ve noticed that I’m so freaking jealous of girls around me. When they get attention from guys, in my head I’m like ‘they’re such pick mes’ when they talk to me I assume they do it out of pity or because they need to. When they are super popular and friendly I can’t help but resent them and hate them. I even hate my own friends. I’m jealous of them. They can conversant so easily with other people and feel confident about themselves. They can do what they want they can say what they want without feeling embarrassed. They can easily make friends and I’m just there. They all have defining qualities about them whilst I’m plain. I’m so insecure about myself that I project my insecurities on other people. I hate everything about me and I fantasise all day what it would be like to be popular, be confident, be liked. I daydream about my pretty face and kind smile, my smartness and the ability to be interesting -to never run out of things to talk about and be able to impress the other person. I’m filled with so much jealousy and hatred inside that I wish I was never born. I wish I was in a different body in a different time in a different timeline. Maybe that would help me change my views. Everyone is so kind to me. Everyone is so nice to me. And I think this way about others. I’m disgusting. Why am I like this?

[cherriesofall]

[angel--cassie]

[littlesparkequeen]

[hachikomp4]

HELL IS A TEENAGER GIRL!!

[biophilichomosapien]

I’m a background character in my own life whilst other people my age are hanging out and having fun I’m just here bedrotting…I’m never gonna experience fun friendships or highschool romance…