bitterbrandy

[windiseatingsnow]

How not to play with fire when getting thrown in and having no other choice?

-Kat

[windiseatingsnow]

An intuition so strong,

you know, you fear, you see.

—Kat

[windiseatingsnow]

The power of feeling a passionate moment over and over again.

[bitterbrandy99-blog]

dad

A couple months ago, it would’ve been easy to say “I hate you” and not feel any guilt. I could have rambled on and on about how much of a jerk you are, how you hurt me, mom, and my little brother. I still think you’re a jerk. Sometimes I think I hate you too, and that it’d be better if you just disappeared forever. But I’ve started to look at you different. I don’t know if it’s a mark of maturity, or if I’m just fucking stupid for giving you a chance that you don’t deserve. But instead of thinking that you abandoned me when I needed you the most. I think maybe it’s hard for you to be there for anybody, even yourself. Maybe you relied on solitude. Instead of getting mad when you won’t spend time with your kids or family. I think you feel suffocated around people and that being alone is easier for you. You’re not the dad I knew when I was younger, who had a job, came home in a suit and bought me all my favorite toys. I don’t know where he is, or why he had to go. But I think it’s time I stop waiting for him. I think it’s time I stop expecting you to show up for me or be the father I need. I think it’s time I let go of the hatred which could take a while. I think it’s time I think of you when I try to remember all the things and people I love...I hope you find peace. I don’t know if it’s here, because I know a part of you is trying to disappear. And I hate knowing that despite how much you’ve hurt me and that you started this entire war inside of myself, I’d still miss you if you weren’t there the next day. I keep saying “maybes” and “I think” and that’s because you’re somebody I’ll never be sure of. You’re someone I will never completely love. Ill try to understand you, but it’ll never be the same. You’re a stranger more than my parent..so here’s to the first man who broke my heart before any boy could, but who also taught me how to miss, how to be without, and how to survive anyway.

[sonofbukowski]

“Man, man, it’s a funny world,” he said. “We’ve got everything, but we can’t have it.”

[aliceboreggio]

“She was brave and strong and broken all at once”

-tumblr

[ssensura]

Don’t you hate it when you’re dead inside and run out of apps to refresh

[bitterbrandy99-blog]

theanxietydiaries:

I have no friends anymore. Not because they aren’t there - I just choose to avoid everyone. A lot of the time it doesn’t bother me because I like being by myself but I would be lying if I said that it doesn’t sometimes make me sad. That sometimes I don’t think of something funny but have no one to share it with. I don’t even have online friends anymore. I’ve just avoided the whole world because of all the shame I carry. Because everyone is living a normal life and I’m in my room, afraid of everything. How can I explain that to people without sounding pathetic?

[kushandwizdom]

[meanwhilepoetry]

I’d like to think our love does return to us reincarnated in different human forms. That people might be temporary, but love is permanent and it just changes form.

Nikita Gill (via meanwhilepoetry)

[aspiritualwarrior]

The ability to observe without evaluating is the highest form of intelligence.

Jiddu Krishnamurti (via aspiritualwarrior)

[juansendizon]

I learned from myself not so long ago that the process of recovery isn’t smooth. It isn’t just medications, therapy and family support. It’s more on how I set the intention to recover as a person who’s living with mental illness. It’s more on how I base my actions towards my healing and most of the time those actions aren’t easy. There are times when I feel like not going out of the house for one week and not interacting with people because of how easily they bring me anxiety. There are times when I feel like not getting out of bed. There are times when I feel like doing impulsive things such as over shopping, overeating and playing video games excessively. This is what I truly learned: that I must constantly expose myself to the things that make me feel anxious. That I must socialize at least three times a week because I know it’s good for me. That I must get up of bed even if I don’t feel like existing in this world. That I must do things in moderation because anything that is excessive is bad. And this is what I really truly learned: that recovery comes from within and it’s so beautiful, and it’s so worth it despite all the pain and discomfort that it will surely give. And we are all capable of it because change is the only constant in this universe and that’s what recovery gives us.

Juansen Dizon, Self-Learned (via juansendizon)

[thepowerwithin]

It’s alright if you’re still searching for yourself. It’s okay if you have yet to find your big life’s purpose. The important thing is that you haven’t stopped looking.

Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin (via thepowerwithin)

[odinsblog]

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

The fact that someone else loves you doesn’t rescue you from the project of loving yourself.

Sahaj Kohli (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

[multa--paucis]

Sometimes I think you should stop talking to me. Sometimes I think you should stop wasting your time and find someone else. I don’t know if I’m trying to push you away for your sake or my own.

i’ve grown into my loneliness, thank you very much (via multa--paucis)

[infpisme]