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&& — THEY DIDN’T EVER KNOW HOW TO RESPOND TO SAPPY MOMENTS , TRULY , and as the moment lingered , they felt flustered. their cheeks were still burning with blush , and for once they didn’t even really mind it. they did mind the butterflies in their stomach , however , and the sudden speechlessness that took over them , simply offering a smile in response to him.
and , well , sylvain was right. it was a perfect fit , ( kind of like them , but , they were never gonna admit it. ) and almost immediately with this thought , they felt a wave regret overcome them. this could have been them - maybe in a different life that wasn’t much better than this , one where this ring was more than just a promise , but it could have been them… even with that though , there was no time. no time for them , not even enough time for them to stay. they can’t even remember their last words to him - did they tell him they loved him ?? or did they coldly tell him that there was no time. did they cry ?? did sylvain wait for them - did sylvain die without knowing where they were ?? of what came of them ??
and it’s with this that his touch begins to burn. they almost falter - almost , immediately remembering to keep the grin on their face and looking away. hesitantly , they pull away , crossing their arms as soon as they’re no longer touching him before clicking their tongue. “ i … no , i was kind of hoping you had an idea. ” they stop , looking over sylvain for a moment before looking away , simply biting their lip to keep their emotions at bay. “ i mean , we could think about that on the way there. ”
they walk past him , going to grab the two jackets they’d snagged when getting ready to leave for their previously planned guilt trip. of course , they’re not even their jackets but rather both sylvain’s. they toss one over towards him , leaving their own favorite for their own taking as they pull it over their frame. “ let’s go , yeah ?? ” they go to grab their keys , instinctively walking before him to hold the door open before motioning him out. maybe as they go to the car they’d stop thinking about this , because god knows they didn’t want to ruin tonight anymore than they already had.
If there’s one thing he prides himself on, it’s his ability to read even the subtlest of changes in Felix’s expressions, their emotions. Which is why, try as they might to hide them, he notices the way that they falter. His arms feel cold, empty when they pull away, and all he wants to do is pull them back and chase out whatever awful thoughts that decided to plague them this time.
❝ Well... The park could be a good spot. We’re pretty much the only people awake at this hour anyway. ❞
He’s not sure what it is that’s going through their mind, but he can hazard a guess. He puts the offered jacket on (his preferred one is with Felix, though it might be less because he likes it on himself and more because he likes seeing them in it), but lingers in the doorway, stepping in front of them and cupping their face in his hands.
❝ Listen. I know we have a lot we need to deal with tomorrow. I’m dreading it, even. But I ask that you stay with me tonight - don’t get all caught up in your head about what could have been. Stay in the present. With me. Because I’m going to do nothing but make the most of every second I have with you. ❞
He drops a kiss on their forehead, as if thinking it would lay their thoughts to rest like a spell. It crushes him to think of all the pain they must be feeling, all the guilt that weighs them down. He just wishes that he can take their mind off of it, just for one night. He takes their hand and pulls them outside, locking the door as they go, and squeezes their hand as they make their way to their car, making sure to feel the ring as he does so.













