bitters-n-sweets

Stella, 25 the weight of the world falls away in time

[bitters-n-sweets]

about me: stella, 25y/o. i've got 5 tattoos, a love for brown sugar lattes, daisies, lilies of the valley, silver jewelry, and way too many lipsticks. ♦️ listen. not all my fics are 18+ but this is still an 18+ blog so mdni. you've been warned. currently loving: the pitt, project hail mary, off campus

𝓜𝓪𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓵𝓲𝓼𝓽

𝐣𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐚𝐛𝐛𝐨𝐭 — the pitt the beloved night shift doctor who cares about his patients and less about himself, though he covers that up with smart quips and immovable calmness during a crisis.

𝐦𝐢𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐞𝐥 "𝐫𝐨𝐛𝐛𝐲" 𝐫𝐨𝐛𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐭𝐜𝐡 — the pitt the troubled and dearest chief attending who has an alarming amount of unresolved trauma and is 'getting help' yet seems reluctant to do so, and ends up hurting those who care about him.

𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐰 "𝐩𝐨𝐩𝐞" 𝐜𝐨𝐝𝐲 — animal kingdom the eldest cody brother who would burn the world down for the people he cares for. who was taught violence before he was ever taught how to be loved.

𝐠𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐭 𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐡𝐚𝐦 — off campus the charming hockey captain everyone expects to be a cocky playboy until they discover he's a surprisingly good listener, a devoted friend, and the kind of man who loves with his whole heart.

𝐣𝐨𝐡𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐚𝐧 — off campus the star hockey player who cares about those he loves, yet doesn't necessarily say it out loud. certified professional yearner.

who's next?

dividers by @/diviniyae

[meninecanela]

Me at 3 AM, horny as hell, scrolling through my likes looking for that one fanfic i read months ago

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here's an idea, have you guys seen that cat that brings its owner camellia flowers?

imagine you're a neighbor and jack's been crushing on you, and his cat happens to also adore you, so the cat brings you the camellia flowers from the shrubs growing outside of jack's house. the cat does it almost every day and so you, thinking it was a sweet trick jack trained his cat to do, returns the favor by tying a small pouch of sweet treats for jack.

jack is so confused because this is the first time you've done something like this -- and why through his cat? so then he starts noticing his cat disappearing at the exact time of day and follows it, and sees what it's been up to this entire time.

and then he overhears you talking to his cat: "you know, jack's so sweet telling you to bring me a flower every day... i kinda wish he'd do it himself."

and so jack races to the flower shop to get you a bouquet, knocking on your door with a sheepish smile, finally asking you out to dinner.

his cat only gets the expensive treats from now on, as payment for being the best wingman ever.

[graceonpaper]

Every time I read a cute or sexy fic about Young!Jack Abbot and a woman - all I can think about is that she’s probably who ends up being his deceased wife in the canon. 😭

I apologize for putting this out in the world - but I’m suffering and if I have to you have to.

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plot twist: I break up with him and meet him again after 20 years

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Boys Just Wanna Have Fun (pt. 2)

a/n: can you guys tell I was a business major lol || if i had a nickel for everytime i put jackson avery as a flirty cameo in my fics, i'd have two nickels. which isn't a lot, but it's weird that it’s happened twice || and also, Eric Dane, i miss you ❤️ 🕊️ || divider by @diviniyae

part one here summary: You have a rule: you don't date younger guys. Not even by a few years. End of discussion. Older men? Yes. Men your age? Fine. Younger? Absolutely not. They're immature. Irresponsible. Impulsive. Unfortunately, Garrett Graham seems determined to make himself your problem anyway. warnings: reader is slightly older (I’m imagining 25-27). I actually don’t know how old is Garrett in the series, but I’m imagining 21-23 here (TO BE CLEAR: the age gap I’m imagining is two-four years tops). Reader has at least one tattoo. Reader’s parents got divorced when she was a kid. Mentions of past trauma. basically just fluff.

“Baby Garrett? Really?” Garrett asks you, unamused as he finds the nickname you’ve bestowed upon him in your contacts.

“It sounds better than Baby Graham.” You lie partially. You can’t tell him you changed his name to Baby Garrett because you know how heavy his last name weighs and you don’t want him to be reminded of it in any way. “Besides, you put my name as ‘old lady’. That’s so rude.”

“That was before. I’ve changed it.”

“Yeah? To what?”

“That’s private.” Garrett grins cheekily, quickly putting away his phone so you can’t snatch it.

You roll your eyes fondly.

Some time has passed ever since you and Garrett opened up to each other that night. Time passed together.

Now, a routine has been formed:

You wake up for a morning run and text Garrett your route for the day. You almost always pass by his house. Garrett times his own mornings around it, meeting you outside with a glass of water and a bite of banana, like the supporters in a marathon route.

After that, he does his own work out routine, showers, gets ready, and then picks you up, just in time after your own shower and you two get breakfast together at Malone’s — where you are right now.

You go back to reading your case study with a shake of your head. Garrett has practice in about an hour, and you don’t actually have classes today, you just need to finish your paper due next week.

He slides into your side of the booth, peeking at the case study you have in your hands.

“Are you still on that consumption behavior thing you were working on last time?” He asks.

You chuckle, “Consumer behavior, and yeah, kind of.”

Garrett hums, fully expecting you to explain the whole thing to him and you try to contain your smile.

It's become a bit of a thing between you two — Garrett asking you to basically lecture him on whatever you're currently working on. Nike's "Just Do It" and brand loyalty. Scarcity marketing. How brands use FOMO and psychology to get people to buy things. Or sometimes it's not even schoolwork, it’s the music you're into, a cooking class you took once, anything you're passionate about, really.

He just likes listening to you talk about things you care about. It makes you feel seen.

“Okay, have you heard of the Pepsi Challenge?”

He makes a face that clearly shows he doesn’t. “A challenge on who drinks the most Pepsi?”

You shake your head with a smile. “Back in the day, Pepsi ran this whole campaign where they'd do blind taste tests — people would try two unmarked cups, one Pepsi, one Coke, and most people picked Pepsi as the one that tasted better.”

Garrett frowns. “Huh. I don’t really know people who prefer Pepsi to Coke.”

“Exactly,” You shift to face him properly now, fully in lecture mode. “Pepsi is slightly sweeter, so in a quick blind taste test where people only take one sip, they obviously would like it more. But it isn't the same as drinking an entire can or bottle. A brief taste vs long-term preference are different things.”

“Okay,” He nods, processing, “How does this connect to your marketing paper?”

“Well Pepsi may have made a point — that if you strip away brand names and marketing, they’re superior than Coke. Taste-wise. So it’s one of the most influential marketing campaigns ever run. But that doesn’t mean Pepsi is ‘doing better’ than Coke.” You settle back into the couch, “So that’s my paper, basically; How the Pepsi Challenge demonstrates that consumer preferences are shaped by both product attributes and psychological factors associated with branding.”

Garrett's quiet for a second, just looking at you.

“What?” You ask, suddenly self-conscious under the attention.

He shakes his head slightly, “Nothing. You just really know your stuff. It’s admirable.”

“It’s just my major, Garrett.”

“No, I mean,” He pauses, searching for the right words, which isn't usually like him. “I don't know. Watching you talk about this stuff. It's kind of insane how smart you are. You explain this stuff better than my professors explain anything, and you're not even trying.”

You feel your face warm slightly. “Well, I sometimes like to think our professors like to make things complicated for us just because they can.”

“Hear hear.” Garrett raises his glass to that. “But I mean it. You get this whole different energy. I like seeing this side of you.”

“It’s just a—”

“Oh my God, just take the compliment, will you?” Garrett groans jokingly, making you laugh.

“Alright, alright,” You smile shyly. “Thank you.”

He tips his head in a mock curtsy.

Not knowing what to say after that, you just nudge his shoulder with yours instead, a little embarrassed, a little pleased, and go back to your reading with the smallest smile you really can't hide anymore.

And Garrett doesn't look away from you for a while.

Tonight's the fundraiser gala your department holds annually.

The gala is the social event on the MBA calendar — where the department actually splurges on a proper venue, food, and music, and people are actually dressed up in suits and gowns. And the guest list looks like a Forbes’ top 100 list. There are chandeliers hanging from the high ceiling, an array of hors d'oeuvres from different cuisines, and a lot of people networking, finding the best opportunity and connection they could land.

You've been here for forty minutes and you've already collected three business cards, had two genuinely interesting conversations, and eaten a bunch of hors d'oeuvres, especially from the Asian section.

You're doing fine. You're networking. You're being professional and present and exactly the kind of student your program would want representing them at an evening like this.

You're also a little disappointed, which you're trying not to be.

You’re supposed to bring a date tonight, like Lexie. She brought her handsome silver fox date to the gala. Mark Sloan. Doctor. Head of plastic surgery. Attending Otolaryngologist. Whatever that word means. He works with her sister at a hospital and they’ve been smitten ever since. No more Dean di Laurentis for her.

You smile when you see them laughing in a corner, the world completely theirs.

Your date is supposed to be Garrett. You’d told him about the gala last week and he said “Of course I’ll be there,” but alas, he had texted you just now saying:

>> practice ran long, I'm so sorry, I don’t think I’ll be able to make it :( >> I'll make it up to you, I promise

And it’s fine. Really. You get it. It happens.

It’s just that you went and got dressed up, worn your high heels, and you feel slightly disappointed because Garrett won’t see you looking this good. God it sounds stupid when you think about it. You didn’t dress up for him, it’s for this event… right? You’re not trying to impress him… are you?

You shake your head, trying to pull yourself together.

“Hey,” You hear Lexie’s familiar voice approaching, “Wow you look good.”

You smile, “Can say the same about you. Where’s Mark?”

“Getting us drinks.” She says, “Where’s Garrett?”

“He’s not coming,” You say, lips pressing into a thin line.

Her brows knit together, noticing your sullen tone. “You gonna be okay?”

“Yeah, just…” You take a deep breath, “Be honest with me. Have I been acting like a desperate, needy person in… in love? Because I just clocked myself feeling disappointed Garrett won’t get to see me all dressed up. Like. How pathetic is that?”

Lexie stares at you for a moment before letting out a breath that’s almost like a laugh. She’s not mocking you, she just realizes something you clearly haven’t.

“That’s not pathetic,” she says, “That’s just what it feels like when you care about someone.”

Your turn to knit your brows together. “It feels pathetic.”

“Because you’re not used to it,” She tilts her head, smiling sympathetically, “when was the last time you got dressed up and thought about whether some guy was going to see you in it? Before Garrett?”

You wince, sucking in a breath. “I don’t even remember.”

“Exactly. You’ve never done that.” Lexie says gently, “You get dressed for yourself—and yeah, we women talk about dressing for ourselves to make us feel good and not for anyone else, but that’s not what we’re talking about here,” She waves her hand, getting to the point. “It’s okay to want to dress up for someone to compliment you and feel good from it.”

“I guess…”

“You want Garrett here.” She states the obvious, “Not because you need him, no, you’ve been here for an hour networking with strangers and chasing opportunities for youself, looking really good while you’re at it, and you’re doing amazing. But you want him here. You want to look across the room and see his familiar face because you find comfort in him. He’s become your safe space. There’s nothing pathetic about that.”

You open your mouth to argue but find yourself smiling instead, “Are you sure you’re an MBA student? You should get into psychology instead.”

“Ugh, God no. That was only for you.” She cringes.

You shake your head, sighing. “I guess this means I have feelings for Garrett.”

Lexie grins. “I guess so. Are you gonna talk to him about it?”

You don’t really know what’s your answer to that question.

Just then, Mark comes back with three glasses of champagne, and a stranger. “Ladies, sorry for the wait, I’d like to introduce you to someone,” he hands you your glass and the stranger is now standing in front of you and Lexie, “This is Jackson Avery, a colleague. And also chairman of the Catherine Fox Foundation.”

“Jackson, this is Mer’s sister, Lexie.” Mark says.

Jackson Avery shakes Lexie’s hand, and then yours. “Nice to meet you both.”

“Mr. Avery—”

“Oh God, just Jackson, please,” Jackson stops you, “I’m only here because my mother is stuck in surgery.”

“So you also work with Mer?” Lexie says.

“Yeah.”

“Small world.”

Garrett almost didn’t come.

Practice had run long, and coach for some reason decided that today was the day he’d give a long as speech about the good old days, and by the time he let them go, Garrett had already mentally resigned himself to texting you something apologetic and making it up to you after the event. And then he was left on read.

But then Logan had mentioned he was heading to the gala anyway, something about it being mandatory and he needs to show his face, and so Garrett showered in record time, put on a nice navy suit, a black button-up, ditched the tie, and followed Logan to the venue.

By the time he arrived, the place is already packed.

He doesn’t spot you in the sea of people immediately, but then as he maneuvers through the crowd, he recognizes your familiar figure as you laugh and throw your head back, nose scrunched.

Question is, who’s making you laugh that hard?

Tall. Dark suit. Green eyes. He doesn’t know who this guy is, but he can tell the guy’s put-together and in a whole different league Garrett is. At least, according to him. And he’s looking at you like you're the most interesting person in the room.

Garrett knows that look. He gives you the same look. He invented that look.

And then this green-eyed handsome stranger whispers something in your ear, gives you a card—a business card with his number on it, he presumes, and leaves, taking one last good look at you and giving you a charming smile. Garrett wants to roll his eyes at that.

And he almost does, until he meets Lexie’s eyes.

She looks surprised at his presence, and then sternly motions him to “get over here” and he’s never walked faster in his life.

Garrett stands behind you, and when you notice Lexie awkwardly stepping away from you a bit, you turn, and finally see him, smiling gently at you.

“Garrett?” Your eyes are wide like saucers.

“Hi.” He smiles, looking at you fondly, hands hovering on your waist, “You look—” he takes a deep breath, practically breathing you in, “You look beautiful. I can’t believe I almost missed it.”

You wanted Garrett to see you in the dress, all dolled up, and yeah, you got the compliment from him, you just didn’t expect seeing him here, looking at you like you’re the most important person to him, would make you feel like this. Lexie’s right. He brings you comfort.

You break into a smile, “Thank you.”

He watches as you slide Jackson’s business card into your purse, and excuse yourselves from Lexie and Mark, going to grab a drink and some privacy.

The two of you end up in the balcony where it’s mostly empty, champagne glasses half-full and left sitting on the marble railing, while he leans on the pillar with you standing in front of him between his legs.

“You… look really incredible.” He whispers, lips hovering over yours.

You whisper back, “I thought you couldn’t make it tonight.”

He nudges your cheek with his nose, “I didn’t think I could make it in time, but I did. Barely.”

“Thank you for showing up,” You say, “I know you must be tired after long hours of practice.”

“Not tired,” He pecks your lips. “Not for you.”

You chuckle, because you can clearly see his eyes getting droopy. “We can leave soon, I just have to talk to my professor first.”

Garrett hums, still kissing you all over, “You don't have to stay until the event's done?”

“No, I,” You let out a sigh when his breath hits your neck, “I've networked enough tonight. Met a bunch of them already.”

Networked. Garrett stiffens at that. Because what Mr. Green-eyes did there was totally ‘networking'.

You feel him go stiff and pull away a bit, “you okay?”

“Yeah.” He says it too quickly, straightening slightly.

You frown. “Garrett.”

He says your name in return.

“I’m fine,” He doubles down, picks up his champagne glass, takes a sip, eyes drifting out toward the city skyline beyond the balcony.

“Uh-huh.” Of course you don’t believe him. One second he’s practically breathing you in and the next he’s trying to act like he’s cool, calm, and collected. It’s weird.

He looks at you, and you look back at him, and you just wait. Until he finally exhales, giving in. “It’s stupid.”

“Well we don’t know that.”

He's quiet for another moment, figuring out the best way to say what he’s about to say, how to admit his feelings without sounding so insecure.

Garrett takes a deep breath, “I just… saw the guy you were talking with. This… tall, handsome guy with green eyes.”

“Jackson?”

He almost clenches his teeth with the way you say his name. “Yeah. Him. I’m not jealous. Or… well, trying not to be.”

You smooth out his suit, squeezing his arms a bit to cheer him up.

“I just… saw you and realize maybe that’s another reason why you don’t date younger guys.”

“Huh?” You furrow your brows, not expecting him to talk about that.

“You looked good, together, you know? From the outside.” Garrett exhales again, “The put-together guy with the put-together girl. He’s an adult, a fully grown man who’s probably, what, the CEO of whatever business he owns? It just dawned on me that these guys are on a way different league than me—”

You blink a few times, because it’s clear now that Garrett is jealous, insecure, kinda projecting, and definitely rambling.

“Garrett,” You stop him, cupping his face so he’s looking at you, “Garrett.”

He becomes quiet, realizing he’s said too much.

“First of all, I’m not a put-together girl. Like you, I’m still figuring things out. Second of all, I’m not going to date someone older just because we… what did you say? Looked good from the outside? No.” Your thumb traces circles on his cheek. “And lastly, all of the guys here are not in our league. I’m not in theirs either. I’m in your corner.”

Garrett calms down a bit, then his brow twitches questioningly at your last sentence.

“I thought the reference would work with hockey, but I was wrong.” You laugh, sheepish.

He shakes his head and laughs with you, his hands finally finding their way back to your waist.

“…Was he flirting with you?” Garrett looks at you almost with pleading eyes, leaning closer.

You hesitate before nodding, “He was.”

He bites his lip.

“But I didn’t flirt back because….” You pause, your own nerves getting to you, “Because I have feelings for you, Garrett.”

Garrett’s eyes widen. He’s quiet and you can see the smile tugging on his lips.

“Yeah?” He asks quietly.

“Yeah.” You hold his gaze.

He pushes the strand of hair that’s fallen in front of your face. His small smile turns into a full-blown grin. “I feel the same way.”

“You do?” You ask back.

He nods.

“Why didn’t you say anything?”

He tilts his head, “This is gonna sound so cocky, but with you saying you don’t want to date younger guys in the beginning, I wanted you to come to this conclusion first. I didn't want you to be with me because I wore you down. I wanted you to actually want this. Want me.”

You stare at him for a second. “That’s really well thought out of you.”

Garrett shrugs, “I got layers.”

You grin, shaking your head.

“So?” He tilts his head, pulling you closer, “Do you want this?”

“Didn’t I confess my feelings for you like a teenager already?”

Garrett lifts your chin, looking at you with eyes that are practically sparkling, “I know. But I wanna hear you say it.”

You roll your eyes, but you're smiling. “Yeah, Garrett,” You put your arms around his shoulders, “I want you.”

He flashes you that boyish grin. You’re trying not to smile when he kisses you, his hand slides to the back of your neck and he pulls your body flush against his, leaving no space.

When you pull back, his forehead drops to yours.

Just then, someone clears their throat behind you. Lexie, trying to contain her smile. “Sorry to bother you lovebirds, but they’re about to do the closing ceremony. So, if you guys wanna leave before that…”

“Oh, yes, please. I’ll meet you guys at the exit.” You say, grabbing Garrett’s hand and going back inside.

“Wait,” Garrett pulls you back, “Give me your phone.”

You do so wordlessly, and he lines you up on the decorative mirror they had for photos, so you smile for the camera and then he snaps a mirror selfie. As well as a regular one with him kissing your cheek.

“Send it to me.”

You hold the top of your phone on his to send the photos, and you see a small notification on his phone. Your brows raise in interest.

>> My girl 🥵 sent 2 files

“My girl?” You ask him about how your contact name is listed, “How confident of you.”

Garrett grins cheekily, “I had a good feeling.”

He types a few things on his phone before pocketing it and heading out, your hand in his. Then you receive a notification on your phone; Garrett tagged you on his instagram story and you bite your lip with a grin.

“Garrett, did you just hard-launch us?”

“Maybe.” He says, sending you a wink. “I wanna show off just how good my girl looks.”

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Boys Just Wanna Have Fun (pt. 2)

a/n: can you guys tell I was a business major lol || if i had a nickel for everytime i put jackson avery as a flirty cameo in my fics, i'd have two nickels. which isn't a lot, but it's weird that it’s happened twice || and also, Eric Dane, i miss you ❤️ 🕊️ || divider by @diviniyae

part one here summary: You have a rule: you don't date younger guys. Not even by a few years. End of discussion. Older men? Yes. Men your age? Fine. Younger? Absolutely not. They're immature. Irresponsible. Impulsive. Unfortunately, Garrett Graham seems determined to make himself your problem anyway. warnings: reader is slightly older (I’m imagining 25-27). I actually don’t know how old is Garrett in the series, but I’m imagining 21-23 here (TO BE CLEAR: the age gap I’m imagining is two-four years tops). Reader has at least one tattoo. Reader’s parents got divorced when she was a kid. Mentions of past trauma. basically just fluff.

“Baby Garrett? Really?” Garrett asks you, unamused as he finds the nickname you’ve bestowed upon him in your contacts.

“It sounds better than Baby Graham.” You lie partially. You can’t tell him you changed his name to Baby Garrett because you know how heavy his last name weighs and you don’t want him to be reminded of it in any way. “Besides, you put my name as ‘old lady’. That’s so rude.”

“That was before. I’ve changed it.”

“Yeah? To what?”

“That’s private.” Garrett grins cheekily, quickly putting away his phone so you can’t snatch it.

You roll your eyes fondly.

Some time has passed ever since you and Garrett opened up to each other that night. Time passed together.

Now, a routine has been formed:

You wake up for a morning run and text Garrett your route for the day. You almost always pass by his house. Garrett times his own mornings around it, meeting you outside with a glass of water and a bite of banana, like the supporters in a marathon route.

After that, he does his own work out routine, showers, gets ready, and then picks you up, just in time after your own shower and you two get breakfast together at Malone’s — where you are right now.

You go back to reading your case study with a shake of your head. Garrett has practice in about an hour, and you don’t actually have classes today, you just need to finish your paper due next week.

He slides into your side of the booth, peeking at the case study you have in your hands.

“Are you still on that consumption behavior thing you were working on last time?” He asks.

You chuckle, “Consumer behavior, and yeah, kind of.”

Garrett hums, fully expecting you to explain the whole thing to him and you try to contain your smile.

It's become a bit of a thing between you two — Garrett asking you to basically lecture him on whatever you're currently working on. Nike's "Just Do It" and brand loyalty. Scarcity marketing. How brands use FOMO and psychology to get people to buy things. Or sometimes it's not even schoolwork, it’s the music you're into, a cooking class you took once, anything you're passionate about, really.

He just likes listening to you talk about things you care about. It makes you feel seen.

“Okay, have you heard of the Pepsi Challenge?”

He makes a face that clearly shows he doesn’t. “A challenge on who drinks the most Pepsi?”

You shake your head with a smile. “Back in the day, Pepsi ran this whole campaign where they'd do blind taste tests — people would try two unmarked cups, one Pepsi, one Coke, and most people picked Pepsi as the one that tasted better.”

Garrett frowns. “Huh. I don’t really know people who prefer Pepsi to Coke.”

“Exactly,” You shift to face him properly now, fully in lecture mode. “Pepsi is slightly sweeter, so in a quick blind taste test where people only take one sip, they obviously would like it more. But it isn't the same as drinking an entire can or bottle. A brief taste vs long-term preference are different things.”

“Okay,” He nods, processing, “How does this connect to your marketing paper?”

“Well Pepsi may have made a point — that if you strip away brand names and marketing, they’re superior than Coke. Taste-wise. So it’s one of the most influential marketing campaigns ever run. But that doesn’t mean Pepsi is ‘doing better’ than Coke.” You settle back into the couch, “So that’s my paper, basically; How the Pepsi Challenge demonstrates that consumer preferences are shaped by both product attributes and psychological factors associated with branding.”

Garrett's quiet for a second, just looking at you.

“What?” You ask, suddenly self-conscious under the attention.

He shakes his head slightly, “Nothing. You just really know your stuff. It’s admirable.”

“It’s just my major, Garrett.”

“No, I mean,” He pauses, searching for the right words, which isn't usually like him. “I don't know. Watching you talk about this stuff. It's kind of insane how smart you are. You explain this stuff better than my professors explain anything, and you're not even trying.”

You feel your face warm slightly. “Well, I sometimes like to think our professors like to make things complicated for us just because they can.”

“Hear hear.” Garrett raises his glass to that. “But I mean it. You get this whole different energy. I like seeing this side of you.”

“It’s just a—”

“Oh my God, just take the compliment, will you?” Garrett groans jokingly, making you laugh.

“Alright, alright,” You smile shyly. “Thank you.”

He tips his head in a mock curtsy.

Not knowing what to say after that, you just nudge his shoulder with yours instead, a little embarrassed, a little pleased, and go back to your reading with the smallest smile you really can't hide anymore.

And Garrett doesn't look away from you for a while.

Tonight's the fundraiser gala your department holds annually.

The gala is the social event on the MBA calendar — where the department actually splurges on a proper venue, food, and music, and people are actually dressed up in suits and gowns. And the guest list looks like a Forbes’ top 100 list. There are chandeliers hanging from the high ceiling, an array of hors d'oeuvres from different cuisines, and a lot of people networking, finding the best opportunity and connection they could land.

You've been here for forty minutes and you've already collected three business cards, had two genuinely interesting conversations, and eaten a bunch of hors d'oeuvres, especially from the Asian section.

You're doing fine. You're networking. You're being professional and present and exactly the kind of student your program would want representing them at an evening like this.

You're also a little disappointed, which you're trying not to be.

You’re supposed to bring a date tonight, like Lexie. She brought her handsome silver fox date to the gala. Mark Sloan. Doctor. Head of plastic surgery. Attending Otolaryngologist. Whatever that word means. He works with her sister at a hospital and they’ve been smitten ever since. No more Dean di Laurentis for her.

You smile when you see them laughing in a corner, the world completely theirs.

Your date is supposed to be Garrett. You’d told him about the gala last week and he said “Of course I’ll be there,” but alas, he had texted you just now saying:

>> practice ran long, I'm so sorry, I don’t think I’ll be able to make it :( >> I'll make it up to you, I promise

And it’s fine. Really. You get it. It happens.

It’s just that you went and got dressed up, worn your high heels, and you feel slightly disappointed because Garrett won’t see you looking this good. God it sounds stupid when you think about it. You didn’t dress up for him, it’s for this event… right? You’re not trying to impress him… are you?

You shake your head, trying to pull yourself together.

“Hey,” You hear Lexie’s familiar voice approaching, “Wow you look good.”

You smile, “Can say the same about you. Where’s Mark?”

“Getting us drinks.” She says, “Where’s Garrett?”

“He’s not coming,” You say, lips pressing into a thin line.

Her brows knit together, noticing your sullen tone. “You gonna be okay?”

“Yeah, just…” You take a deep breath, “Be honest with me. Have I been acting like a desperate, needy person in… in love? Because I just clocked myself feeling disappointed Garrett won’t get to see me all dressed up. Like. How pathetic is that?”

Lexie stares at you for a moment before letting out a breath that’s almost like a laugh. She’s not mocking you, she just realizes something you clearly haven’t.

“That’s not pathetic,” she says, “That’s just what it feels like when you care about someone.”

Your turn to knit your brows together. “It feels pathetic.”

“Because you’re not used to it,” She tilts her head, smiling sympathetically, “when was the last time you got dressed up and thought about whether some guy was going to see you in it? Before Garrett?”

You wince, sucking in a breath. “I don’t even remember.”

“Exactly. You’ve never done that.” Lexie says gently, “You get dressed for yourself—and yeah, we women talk about dressing for ourselves to make us feel good and not for anyone else, but that’s not what we’re talking about here,” She waves her hand, getting to the point. “It’s okay to want to dress up for someone to compliment you and feel good from it.”

“I guess…”

“You want Garrett here.” She states the obvious, “Not because you need him, no, you’ve been here for an hour networking with strangers and chasing opportunities for youself, looking really good while you’re at it, and you’re doing amazing. But you want him here. You want to look across the room and see his familiar face because you find comfort in him. He’s become your safe space. There’s nothing pathetic about that.”

You open your mouth to argue but find yourself smiling instead, “Are you sure you’re an MBA student? You should get into psychology instead.”

“Ugh, God no. That was only for you.” She cringes.

You shake your head, sighing. “I guess this means I have feelings for Garrett.”

Lexie grins. “I guess so. Are you gonna talk to him about it?”

You don’t really know what’s your answer to that question.

Just then, Mark comes back with three glasses of champagne, and a stranger. “Ladies, sorry for the wait, I’d like to introduce you to someone,” he hands you your glass and the stranger is now standing in front of you and Lexie, “This is Jackson Avery, a colleague. And also chairman of the Catherine Fox Foundation.”

“Jackson, this is Mer’s sister, Lexie.” Mark says.

Jackson Avery shakes Lexie’s hand, and then yours. “Nice to meet you both.”

“Mr. Avery—”

“Oh God, just Jackson, please,” Jackson stops you, “I’m only here because my mother is stuck in surgery.”

“So you also work with Mer?” Lexie says.

“Yeah.”

“Small world.”

Garrett almost didn’t come.

Practice had run long, and coach for some reason decided that today was the day he’d give a long as speech about the good old days, and by the time he let them go, Garrett had already mentally resigned himself to texting you something apologetic and making it up to you after the event. And then he was left on read.

But then Logan had mentioned he was heading to the gala anyway, something about it being mandatory and he needs to show his face, and so Garrett showered in record time, put on a nice navy suit, a black button-up, ditched the tie, and followed Logan to the venue.

By the time he arrived, the place is already packed.

He doesn’t spot you in the sea of people immediately, but then as he maneuvers through the crowd, he recognizes your familiar figure as you laugh and throw your head back, nose scrunched.

Question is, who’s making you laugh that hard?

Tall. Dark suit. Green eyes. He doesn’t know who this guy is, but he can tell the guy’s put-together and in a whole different league Garrett is. At least, according to him. And he’s looking at you like you're the most interesting person in the room.

Garrett knows that look. He gives you the same look. He invented that look.

And then this green-eyed handsome stranger whispers something in your ear, gives you a card—a business card with his number on it, he presumes, and leaves, taking one last good look at you and giving you a charming smile. Garrett wants to roll his eyes at that.

And he almost does, until he meets Lexie’s eyes.

She looks surprised at his presence, and then sternly motions him to “get over here” and he’s never walked faster in his life.

Garrett stands behind you, and when you notice Lexie awkwardly stepping away from you a bit, you turn, and finally see him, smiling gently at you.

“Garrett?” Your eyes are wide like saucers.

“Hi.” He smiles, looking at you fondly, hands hovering on your waist, “You look—” he takes a deep breath, practically breathing you in, “You look beautiful. I can’t believe I almost missed it.”

You wanted Garrett to see you in the dress, all dolled up, and yeah, you got the compliment from him, you just didn’t expect seeing him here, looking at you like you’re the most important person to him, would make you feel like this. Lexie’s right. He brings you comfort.

You break into a smile, “Thank you.”

He watches as you slide Jackson’s business card into your purse, and excuse yourselves from Lexie and Mark, going to grab a drink and some privacy.

The two of you end up in the balcony where it’s mostly empty, champagne glasses half-full and left sitting on the marble railing, while he leans on the pillar with you standing in front of him between his legs.

“You… look really incredible.” He whispers, lips hovering over yours.

You whisper back, “I thought you couldn’t make it tonight.”

He nudges your cheek with his nose, “I didn’t think I could make it in time, but I did. Barely.”

“Thank you for showing up,” You say, “I know you must be tired after long hours of practice.”

“Not tired,” He pecks your lips. “Not for you.”

You chuckle, because you can clearly see his eyes getting droopy. “We can leave soon, I just have to talk to my professor first.”

Garrett hums, still kissing you all over, “You don't have to stay until the event's done?”

“No, I,” You let out a sigh when his breath hits your neck, “I've networked enough tonight. Met a bunch of them already.”

Networked. Garrett stiffens at that. Because what Mr. Green-eyes did there was totally ‘networking'.

You feel him go stiff and pull away a bit, “you okay?”

“Yeah.” He says it too quickly, straightening slightly.

You frown. “Garrett.”

He says your name in return.

“I’m fine,” He doubles down, picks up his champagne glass, takes a sip, eyes drifting out toward the city skyline beyond the balcony.

“Uh-huh.” Of course you don’t believe him. One second he’s practically breathing you in and the next he’s trying to act like he’s cool, calm, and collected. It’s weird.

He looks at you, and you look back at him, and you just wait. Until he finally exhales, giving in. “It’s stupid.”

“Well we don’t know that.”

He's quiet for another moment, figuring out the best way to say what he’s about to say, how to admit his feelings without sounding so insecure.

Garrett takes a deep breath, “I just… saw the guy you were talking with. This… tall, handsome guy with green eyes.”

“Jackson?”

He almost clenches his teeth with the way you say his name. “Yeah. Him. I’m not jealous. Or… well, trying not to be.”

You smooth out his suit, squeezing his arms a bit to cheer him up.

“I just… saw you and realize maybe that’s another reason why you don’t date younger guys.”

“Huh?” You furrow your brows, not expecting him to talk about that.

“You looked good, together, you know? From the outside.” Garrett exhales again, “The put-together guy with the put-together girl. He’s an adult, a fully grown man who’s probably, what, the CEO of whatever business he owns? It just dawned on me that these guys are on a way different league than me—”

You blink a few times, because it’s clear now that Garrett is jealous, insecure, kinda projecting, and definitely rambling.

“Garrett,” You stop him, cupping his face so he’s looking at you, “Garrett.”

He becomes quiet, realizing he’s said too much.

“First of all, I’m not a put-together girl. Like you, I’m still figuring things out. Second of all, I’m not going to date someone older just because we… what did you say? Looked good from the outside? No.” Your thumb traces circles on his cheek. “And lastly, all of the guys here are not in our league. I’m not in theirs either. I’m in your corner.”

Garrett calms down a bit, then his brow twitches questioningly at your last sentence.

“I thought the reference would work with hockey, but I was wrong.” You laugh, sheepish.

He shakes his head and laughs with you, his hands finally finding their way back to your waist.

“…Was he flirting with you?” Garrett looks at you almost with pleading eyes, leaning closer.

You hesitate before nodding, “He was.”

He bites his lip.

“But I didn’t flirt back because….” You pause, your own nerves getting to you, “Because I have feelings for you, Garrett.”

Garrett’s eyes widen. He’s quiet and you can see the smile tugging on his lips.

“Yeah?” He asks quietly.

“Yeah.” You hold his gaze.

He pushes the strand of hair that’s fallen in front of your face. His small smile turns into a full-blown grin. “I feel the same way.”

“You do?” You ask back.

He nods.

“Why didn’t you say anything?”

He tilts his head, “This is gonna sound so cocky, but with you saying you don’t want to date younger guys in the beginning, I wanted you to come to this conclusion first. I didn't want you to be with me because I wore you down. I wanted you to actually want this. Want me.”

You stare at him for a second. “That’s really well thought out of you.”

Garrett shrugs, “I got layers.”

You grin, shaking your head.

“So?” He tilts his head, pulling you closer, “Do you want this?”

“Didn’t I confess my feelings for you like a teenager already?”

Garrett lifts your chin, looking at you with eyes that are practically sparkling, “I know. But I wanna hear you say it.”

You roll your eyes, but you're smiling. “Yeah, Garrett,” You put your arms around his shoulders, “I want you.”

He flashes you that boyish grin. You’re trying not to smile when he kisses you, his hand slides to the back of your neck and he pulls your body flush against his, leaving no space.

When you pull back, his forehead drops to yours.

Just then, someone clears their throat behind you. Lexie, trying to contain her smile. “Sorry to bother you lovebirds, but they’re about to do the closing ceremony. So, if you guys wanna leave before that…”

“Oh, yes, please. I’ll meet you guys at the exit.” You say, grabbing Garrett’s hand and going back inside.

“Wait,” Garrett pulls you back, “Give me your phone.”

You do so wordlessly, and he lines you up on the decorative mirror they had for photos, so you smile for the camera and then he snaps a mirror selfie. As well as a regular one with him kissing your cheek.

“Send it to me.”

You hold the top of your phone on his to send the photos, and you see a small notification on his phone. Your brows raise in interest.

>> My girl 🥵 sent 2 files

“My girl?” You ask him about how your contact name is listed, “How confident of you.”

Garrett grins cheekily, “I had a good feeling.”

He types a few things on his phone before pocketing it and heading out, your hand in his. Then you receive a notification on your phone; Garrett tagged you on his instagram story and you bite your lip with a grin.

“Garrett, did you just hard-launch us?”

“Maybe.” He says, sending you a wink. “I wanna show off just how good my girl looks.”

[avengers-rule103]

me: *sees Reina posted on insta stories about people messaging her FAMILY*

also me: *screams into the void* JESUS CHRIST, HE IS NOT GOING TO FUCK YOU.

the sheer amount of backwards dumbass mental gymnastics you have to do in order to think that harrassing his gf and her fucking FAMILY will make him or ANYONE want anything to do with you is beyond me. you guys are so fucking weird and creepy and gross!!!

and the worst part is you also tend to be the loudest of us and i fucking hate that being a fan of Belmont and being a fan of the show makes me associated with you.

pleeeeaase for the love of god, get a LIFE.

[bitters-n-sweets]

masterlist — 𝐣𝐨𝐡𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐚𝐧 (off campus)

john logan — the star hockey player who cares about those he loves, yet doesn't necessarily say it out loud. certified professional yearner.

falling not so slowly (fluff)

[bitters-n-sweets]

Falling Not So Slowly

john logan x fem!reader

Ever felt like you met someone who’s bewitched you, body and soul? Well that’s how Logan felt when he saw you at Drunk Shakespeare.

a/n: I mean, we’ve all seen that video of Antonio singing, right? This man’s voice is just 😫 need that || divider by @/diviniyae

warnings: reader is a theatre major or theatre department or whatever, i've been out of uni for a while, can't remember. reader plays the piano here. just fluff.

No one comes to Drunk Shakespeare for the Shakespeare. It’s mostly to get drunk, and to be part of the chaos. The unlucky people pulled from the crowd, forced to act out hundreds of years old play with improvised scenes and added musical numbers, with a shot demanded every time someone fumbles or forgets a line.

And John Logan is here tonight because of his best friend, Garrett Graham, acting as moral support while he works up the nerve to confess his feelings to a girl.

What Logan did not expect, however, is you.

Halfway through the performance, you come out from backstage in your costume he’s sure is made of sin, and the sight of you knocks the air out of his chest. Then ABBA's "Gimme! Gimme! Gimme!" blast through the speakers, and you and the rest of the ensemble start your number tipsy, some drunk.

Logan is four shots in at this point. He watches you dance and sing, and his throat goes dry.

You keep eye contact with him the entire time — right up until the girl playing Juliet forgets her line and the crowd erupts, holding up another round. You throw your shot back with too much enthusiasm that tips your whole body with it, and you stumble.

But Logan is quick on his feet. He catches you before you hit the ground, and somehow you end up sitting sideways on his lap on the sofa, laughing and completely in awe of the handsome stranger who just saved you from what would’ve been a rough fall.

“Well, well,” You smirk, brushing the hair out of his face, which he returned with his own smirk. “I did ask for a man after midnight.”

It’s such a cheesy line. And you know you’ll cringe at yourself in the morning for saying that, but 5-shots-in you cannot give a fuck right now.

Logan bites his lip, failing to will away the grin tugging at the corners of his mouth. “Your wish is my command.”

You have an arm slung around his neck, the other slowly tracing up to caress his scruff. Logan holds his breath, and waits for you to lean in before doing the same and crashing his lips on yours. It’s hot, rushed, and Logan’s hands are everywhere. On your face, on your back, then moves to your waist and then some, and you feel your heart thundering, because wow the alcohol is running through your veins right now.

You pull away eventually to take a breath, and as you feel his hands on your lower back, preventing you from falling off of his lap, you find yourself grinning and giggling. You’d told Allie earlier before the performance that you wished there would be cute guys coming tonight and now look at yourself.

“Something funny?” Logan whispers, nudging his nose into the crook of your neck, completely forgetting that there are people surrounding you two, though they’re too busy watching the performance.

You hum and whisper back, “I have to go.”

“What?” Logan practically whines, his arms still around you. “Don’t pull a Cinderella on me. Come on. Please.”

You grin while climbing off his lap, Logan still holding onto your hand until you walk away to backstage, and he’s still reaching out for you.

“Dude, what is up with you today?”

Logan jumps when Garrett drops right next to him during practice, bumping his shoulder. “It’s not like you to miss like that. You distracted?”

Logan sighs, dropping his head. How can he confess that he’s not focused because he hasn’t stopped thinking about you, the girl who fell into his arms, who he kissed and wants to kiss again, but you disappeared. Poof-ed right out of his life. He didn’t even get your name.

So Dean does it for him instead.

“Of course he’s distracted,” Dean chimes in, “You might’ve missed it, but he was all over this girl in Drunk Shakespeare.”

That earns him a punch from Logan.

Garrett’s brows raise, amused and interested. “Really? So why do you look like a kicked puppy about it?”

Logan sighs again, “Because. I didn’t get her name.”

Garrett glances at Dean. “Okay… so why don’t you ask Allie?”

And it’s as if there’s a lightbulb on top of Logan’s head. He straightens up immediately, standing up and rushing to finish practice because he’s found a new resolve.

“So we’re going to Malone’s after this,” Dean says.

“Well we were going there anyway,” Garrett follows him to the rink, “not like there’s anywhere else to go.”

Dean chuckles, smiling proudly and nodding his head, “Our boy’s in love.”

Logan tried to find you after the show. He even snuck in backstage during the performance just so he could ask for your name and your number, but he couldn’t find you. The rest of the show went on like a blur for him.

Malone’s door opens and the bell rings. Hannah smiles, saying hi to the boys and Garrett while they make their way to their regular booth.

Logan trails behind, head turning like he’s trying to find someone.

“You okay?” Hannah asks.

“Oh, yeah, um,” He refocuses, “Have you seen Allie?”

Garrett chuckles, shaking his head. “Dude, sit down. Grab something to eat. Calm down. Breathe.”

Logan laughs, feeling sheepish. “I know, sorry, I just…”

“What’s going on?” Hannah asks again, “You’re looking for Allie?”

“Logan is looking for his Cinderella.” Dean says, then gets more dramatic, “He met a girl at midnight during Drunk Shakespeare and she disappeared. And Prince Logan here is desperate to find the lady across his fair land. Except, he doesn’t have a foot fetish, just hope.”

That earns him another punch from Logan.

“Oh the girl you were making out with that night!”

“You saw?”

“Who didn’t?”

“Fair.” Logan nods. “But do you recognize her?”

Hannah shrugs. “Yeah I know her. She’s a friend.”

Logan almost scrambles out of his seat, and the boys look at her as if saying ‘well??’. Logan looks at her the same way, “Hannah. Can I please have her number? And her name?”

She sucks a breath through her teeth.

“What?” Logan frowns, “Why are you making that face?”

“I don’t know,” Hannah presses her lips to a thin line. “I mean, I’ll have to ask her first.”

“No, yeah, of course,” Logan nods, “Totally.”

“Or,” Dean chimes in again, “Hear me out; you can ask her yourself.”

Everyone’s eyes move to the door as the bell dings. Allie pushes the door open first, ready for her shift, and then… you follow behind her. With your bag on your shoulder, looking like you just had a terrible class.

Logan feels the air being punched right out of his lungs. Just like when he saw you for the first time. He gulps.

“Fuck.” He mutters.

Garrett gives him a nudge, “What are you doing? Go talk to her!”

Logan’s palms begin to sweat. “And say what? Hey, we made out the other night and… here I am?”

“I guess?”

“This was a terrible idea.” He groans, but still unable to take his eyes off you. His leg is already one step out of the booth.

Garrett rolls his eyes, pushing Logan off the booth to stand and taking his spot. “Just go.”

The rest of the guys and Hannah give him thumbs ups and good lucks before he takes a deep breath and walks toward you, swallowing his nerves.

And yet the moment he fully sees you, seeing your face clearly now and not just a drunken blur of what the previous night was, the thumping in his chest eases, and he finds himself smiling as he approaches you.

“Cinderella.”

That made you look up. Your eyes widen when you recognize him, your own smile turning wide and sheepish.

“Hi.” you say.

“Hi.” Logan says back. “I, um, tried finding you after the show but couldn't.”

“Oh, yeah, I had to help clean up so I was probably running around everywhere,” You explain. “…You’re Logan, right?”

He nods with a small smile, how’d you know his name?

“I hear Allie talk about you sometimes, so,” You say.

He grins, “And what’s your—”

Logan gets cut off by Allie calling your name, handing you your to-go coffee. She then gives you and Logan a knowing look before smirking and pretending she didn’t see anything. “As you were…”

You clear your throat, “Well, that’s me.” You chuckle, “I gotta get going.”

“Wait,” Logan stops you just before you turn around. “Can I walk with you?”

Your brows raise in surprise, but you can’t hide your smile. “Sure.”

Logan opens the door for you and you both walk out of Malone’s, talking about this and that and everything else.

“Boom.” Garrett fist-bumps Dean and Tucker.

Somewhere along the way on that walk, you’ve somehow exchanged numbers and followed each other on instagram. You talked about your passion in broadway, his in hockey, and now, you’re a week into texting and spending time with each other.

Logan comes to your practices to watch you, and in return you offer to hang out every time he finishes his because his coach won’t allow ‘girlfriends’ during practice — no matter how hard to try to convince him that you’re not Logan’s girlfriend, he just says “yeah we’ll see about that.”

Your phone buzzes as a text message comes in. It’s from Logan saying he’s on his way to the stage. You bite your lip, grinning.

“You know, you’ve been all smiles lately.” Allie points out, rearranging a few costumes.

“Hm?” You turn your head towards her, caught still smiling and you laugh, relishing the warmth you feel inside. “I know. But my God, Als. He’s so… so…”

Allie watches your face light up and she laughs, “Oh you’re so into him.”

“You know those musicals where the lead would break into song realizing they’re in love? I feel like breaking into song right now.” A dreamy sigh slips past your lips.

Allie coos, “This is so cute because you’ve been crushing on him for the longest time.”

“Wha—?” You sit up. “The longest time? No? Just… a while.”

“It was a long while,” She deadpans, “But, it looks like he’s into you too, so I’m really happy for you.”

“You think so?” You ask, looking for reassurance from your best friend.

Allie just gives you a look. “He’s coming here from his hockey practice to see you. You really think he’s not?”

You stand on your feet, approaching her and squeezing her arms. “I know. I’m like in this phase where I’m fucking elated because the guy I like seems to like me back, but also part of me is scared because this exact scenario has happened before and it ended badly. You get what I mean?”

Allie softens, “Yeah, I know what you mean, hon. But just let whatever will happen happen, okay? I know everyone says it a lot, but stop overthinking it and just… enjoy the moment. You know that if things go bad, it’ll go bad… but what if it doesn’t?”

The door opens and you both turn your heads. It’s Logan, of course, walking in like he’s one of the theatre kids (he’s not, but you gave him an honorary title).

“And that’s my cue,” Allie giggles, kissing your cheek, “See you later babes.”

You roll your eyes with a smile. “Bye, Als.”

Allie says hi to Logan on her way out, and after, Logan jogs to you, jumping to join you on stage by the piano.

“Hi.” Logan smiles.

“Hi.” You grin. “How was class?”

“Boring,” He chuckles. “Sorry I wasn’t here to see you practice.”

You scrunch your nose. “You don’t have to keep coming to my practices, you know. I don’t even go to yours.”

“That’s because coach won’t allow you to come in.” Logan argues, “Besides, I like seeing you practice. I like seeing you in your element. It’s like you’re glowing.”

You laugh at that, “Okay, you’re charming, Logan.”

Logan laughs with you, “So I’ve been told.”

You sit in front of the piano, leaving space for him and he follows, sitting next to you in the small chair. You can feel his warmth radiating off him.

“I still can’t believe you’ve never seen a single musical.” You bring up the topic you had a while ago, pressing a few of the piano’s keys.

“I mean, does High School Musical count?”

You think about it. “I guess?”

“Then I’ve seen a lot.” Logan says, as a matter-of-factly, “And add La La Land, The Greatest Showman, Sing—”

“Sing is not a musical.” You say.

“Does it not have musical numbers in it?”

“Well—”

“See? It’s a musical!”

You laugh, raising your arms in defeat. “Okay, okay, fine, you’re a musical fan. I take my words back.”

“Thank you,” Logan says, dipping his head jokingly. “Oh and there’s also this song I like that turns out to be from a musical.”

You raise your brows, “Really? What is it?”

Logan’s brows furrow as he searches his phone for the title. “Here it is. Falling Slowly from Once.”

You blink a few times, fingers hovering over the piano keys before playing the song. “You mean…”

He smiles, watching you play out the tune of the song, but then you pause, letting the intro hang in the air, looking at him expectantly.

“This is where the male lead starts to sing…” You fish.

“Oh no.” Logan immediately cocks his head back. “I don’t sing.”

You look at him, pleading with your eyes, “Come on! You can sing, I’ve seen you on karaoke nights.”

He grins and shakes his head, “That’s usually me after a few shots.”

“Logan.”

“Absolutely not.”

“Logaaaaaan,” You draw his name out, turning on the stool to face him slightly while your hands continue to play the intro, and also giving him your puppy-dog pleading look.

He only lasted a few seconds, feeling his heart cave because how can he ever say no to you?

“Fine,” He exhales, takes another deep breath, and start to sing.

“I don't know you, but I want you. All the more for that.”

“Words fall through me, and always fool me, and I can't react.”

You smile. You’ve always known Logan can sing. Sure, on karaoke nights he sounded a bit more slurry and carefree when singing Aerosmith’s Crazy, but that’s thanks to the alcohol. Without it, he sounds a bit more careful, hesitant, but you can sense his sincerity. So you harmonize with him.

Logan smiles back, continuing to sing as you play the piano.

“Take this sinking boat and point it home, we’ve still got time.”

“Raise your hopeful voice, you have a choice, you’ve made it now.”

“Falling slowly, sing your melody, I’ll sing it loud…”

As you play through the end, you finish the song and look at him with a smile. He's already looking at you. He reaches over and tucks a strand of hair away from your face, fingers brushing your cheek as he does, and he doesn't pull his hand back after.

His hand is warm against your skin, and his eyes drop to your mouth for just a moment before finding yours again. You close the distance first, and his hand slides gently to the back of your neck as you kiss him.

It’s so different from the first time you kissed. It’s not hurried, not rushed, not influenced by alcohol, just you and him.

When you pull back, his forehead drops to yours. His thumb traces a slow line along your jaw.

“I’ve been wanting to do that again for a long time now.”

You agree, “We really should’ve done that sooner.”

Logan laughs quietly, and kisses you again.

[syraxnyra]

At the same damn time.

[courteous-otter]

details! 👀

[bitters-n-sweets]

You are a wonderful talented amazing human being

There’s not enough words to describe how great this is!!! Omgggggg the details 😩❤️❤️❤️

[courteous-otter]

i had another vision

[bitters-n-sweets]

NOW THIS IS ART

[fangirl-dot-com]

hii can i request jack x reader who gets dolled up with her hair done cute and lipgloss is shining and the pittlings is looking at her like who is dr barbie and how does she have the time. with jack staring at her cutely:))<3

Lipgloss Kisses

summary: jack abbot's house was taken over by the color pink and oozes lip gloss out of the foundation.

tags: jack abbot x reader, fluff, cute vibes, pink, pink, pink, and more pink, jack actually has a staring problem, sunshine personified reader, pittlings, lippies galore, no large age gap (jack is 50/reader is 45), 18+ MDNI

notes: thank you nonnie for the request! this was such a fun thing to write :) for my readers if you'd like to join my permanent master list, please comment here! enjoy!

word count: 2.4 k

Jack wasn’t sure when he first noticed that his house had gone from macho-bachelor pad that obviously hadn’t seen a woman’s touch in years to a place that had something pink tucked in all its corners.

Ever since you’d moved in, pink was suddenly all that Jack saw. 

Your pink towels were always fluffy and warm next to his hanging-by-a-thread navy ones on the bathroom rack. Your pink slippers sat dutifully next to his crutches while the two of you were working the night shift; you up in pedes, him down in the third layer of hell. Your pink hair ties scattered in various places: his bedside table, his side of the sink, one in the shower, a few in his vehicle, and he swears he stepped on one in his garage. 

However, no matter how many pink hair ties he saw in his dreams, nothing could have prepared him for your actual addiction: lip gloss. 

As a man, Jack thought that you’d maybe have two or three. One to go in your makeup bag and one to go in your purse and one to leave in your locker at work. 

Oh, boy, was he wrong—dead wrong. 

If he thought you had too many hair ties and too many earrings and too many claw clips that he always had to remind you to take out of your hair before a drive, their number (combined) held no candle to how many lip glosses you had. 

It felt like every trip to the store ended a new lip gloss added to the cart. And that didn’t even compare to the ones you bought online. Jack’s head went dizzy with the, what he felt to be innumerable, list of brands that you swore was better than the last. 

Rhode, Kylie Cosmetics, Summer Fridays, Glossier, Refy, Dior (Jack did like that one because he knew you used his card for that), Clinique, NYX, Eadem: the list went on longer than a receipt from CVS. 

Jack didn’t know how you could keep up with all of them. One minute you were yacking his ear off about the newest sparkly nude shade while the next you were raving about a deep berry shade that would match your dress for the next medical gala. And then in two days, a new box would show up with your name on it, and he could only bet that the four cardboard walls held a brand-new lip gloss. When he thought about it, he wasn’t even sure he’d ever seen you finish one push tube before ordering a new one. 

But that really never mattered; he didn’t care what you bought with your money as long as he got to take care of everything else you needed. 

One time when he asked why you bought so many, you had simply told him that buying a new lip gloss felt like a reward. Whether you got one after a good night with lots of cases with happy results or after a bad shift where the world just felt impossible, you could always find a smidge of joy in buying something pretty to put on your lips. 

Jack understood a little too well. While he didn’t spend his free time scouring the shelves for a new plumping formula that held the smallest of shimmers, he found that same smidge of joy in spending time with you and slowly learning that down time didn’t mean he had to fill it with adrenaline-rushing activities. 

Now, even if the only downside to your lippie addiction was that your bank account went down by almost $25 each purchase, there were a lot of upsides to it as well. One of Jack’s favorites being that you’d get to test each of them out . . . on him. 

Jack became the heart eye emoji every time you swiped the same gloopy-looking lip gloss across your lips. His hazel eyes tracked the back-and-forth motion, and most times he’d run his tongue across his own lips in preparation for what came next. Your lips, now glossy and catching the light in whatever shade you’d gotten, would stretch into a smile as you looked at him expectedly. He never failed to look away, face sometimes leaning in inch by inch before you even finished applying the gloss. 

“Calm down, boy,” you’d said, nose scrunching at his eagerness. “You’ll get your kiss in a minute.” 

“I’m being calm,” he replied cooly like he wasn’t a breath away from your face, eyes taking in each freckle and smile line on your face. If he inhaled deep enough and if your gloss came scented or flavored, he’d be able to smell it on your lips. “You’re just so pretty.” 

“You’re such a flirt.” 

You rolled your eyes and grabbed his cheeks before pulling him into a kiss. Jack never minded the feeling of the gloss transferring over to his lips. He remembers how his late-wife’s favorite wine-red matte lipstick would always leave a few prints behind and even on his teeth depending on how long he stayed connected to his lips. But now it seemed as though glosses were more popular than lip stick, and Jack would die happily with his lips between your smooth ones. 

His lips would move languidly across yours like he was savoring the feeling. His hands would also rise and hold your face so you couldn’t escape the onslaught of his kisses. And the few times that the gloss was indeed flavored, he’d make sure to finish with a swipe of his tongue to the point a string of saliva would connect your lips together before your giggles started sounding off at the sight of his lips covered in sparkles or stained dark pink. 

A boy would hate the fact, but Jack was a man, and he wore the color with pride. 

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“Brother, you got a little something, riigghhttt there,” Robby drew out while poking Jack in the cheek before handing it over his friend. “Second thought, I think it’s doing something to bring out the rosiness of your cheeks.” 

Jack smacked his hand away. “Knock it off. I thought you’d be out of here by now?” 

Robby shook his head and chuckled. “You should know by now that I haven’t left on time in years.” He leaned against the nurses’ station. “Is that a new color? Pretty sure we saw this shade two weeks ago.” 

“Can’t ever have enough shades,” Jack repeated from the multiple times you had told him the same. “But yeah, it’s a new one. There was a summer drop, and you know how she gets.” 

And he did after witnessing the near meltdown of the 2025 Rhode summer launch that you thought you had missed out on before Jack casually mentioned he’d been able to get every single product while Robby sat in the chair chuckling the entire time. 

“Did you say summer drop?” Victoria’s voice suddenly sounded, pitch a bit too loud for someone coming down after twelve straight hours of traumas after traumas. 

The corner of Jack’s lips twitched into a smirk. “My partner’s very into those. Between the two of us, we spent a minimum of $400 just to get that damned towel.” 

And it wasn’t even pink Jack thought. But a summer drop was a summer drop. 

Victoria’s jaw dropped. “Wait, are you talking about the Rhode drop?” 

“Yeah. Next week’s the popup in New England, and thankfully it happens on my day off.  I don’t want to think what would happen if we failed to get a hoodie.” 

“Damn, Dr. Abbot,” she said, jaw dropping slightly. “I didn’t expect you to be someone so into makeup.” 

Jack looked up from the tablet in his hands with furrowed brows. “Huh?” 

Because to Jack, anything you were into swiftly became everything he was into. By himself, he didn’t have a lot of interests outside of the ER and some yoga he did in the mornings. You’d brought a fresh air to his life with your hot Pilates on the weekends and your farmers markets and movie watching and book reading that included matching Kindles. So for Victoria to be confused as to why he knew exactly when the next Rhode pop-up would be, his chest flared with a feeling of invalidation. 

Victoria must have picked up on his inner turmoil by the face he was making because she quickly backtracked. “Oh, uh, that wasn’t meant to be a negative thing, Dr. Abbot. I just mean that a lot of guys really aren’t into something like that. So it’s kind of refreshing to see.” 

“I see.” Jack turned back to the tablet. “It’s a good thing I’m not being piled in with the rest of the male population.” 

“So,” Victoria began again, now looking like she wanted to delve into Jack’s personal life. “I’m guessing your girlfriend likes lip gloss?” 

Robby answered for her with a large smile. “You have no idea.” 

“Who has no idea?” Trinity asked on her way out. However, she paused and smirked at the sight of the glossy kiss-shaped splotch on Jack’s cheek that he hadn’t wiped off. “Ooooo, Dr. Abbot, you got something—” 

“Thank you, Santos,” Jack gruffly said. “I’m very well aware that I have something on my cheek. And I’d prefer that everyone stopped pointing it out. If I wanted it gone, I would have wiped it off when I noticed it before I got out of my car.” 

Jack paused. He’d said too much, and he knew that Victoria and Trinity caught on it.

“Wait,” Trinity said, “does your girlfriend come to work with you? Does she work in the Pitt?” 

Victoria looked around with wide eyes like she’d be able to find something hidden in plain sight. “Is she here?”  

“I wonder if she knows Dr. Barbie. She also likes lip gloss.” 

Robby looked over at Jack knowingly. 

The two girls, despite their excitedness, had made a few errors. 

Jack had said partner, and they clung to the idea that he had a girlfriend. But if the absolute rock of a diamond he put on your finger followed by that thin band had anything to say about it, you were far from being woman who deserved the juvenile title of girlfriend. Plus, much to contrary belief and your affinity for all thinks pink, you were only five years his junior. He absolutely loved the way you now wore your hair with gray licking at your roots. 

Second mistake was automatically thinking you worked in the Pitt. Even if you’d worked in an ER well before meeting Jack, you’d shuffled departments around until you ended up specializing in pediatrics to help your reign in your small bouts of baby fever after deciding that children weren’t something you ultimately wanted in life. 

Yet, that didn’t mean you weren’t unknown in the Pitt. To his knowledge, the younger kids had started calling you Dr. Barbie because of the number of pink scrubs you wore into work. 

See, just another bit of pink that Jack welcomed into your shared home. 

They knew you were married, often opting to let your ring flash as you walked through. So the idea of Jack having a girlfriend while you had a full husband meant that they didn’t make the connection. 

Well, that was until the elevator dinged and you stepped out, pinks scrubs, hair falling in those beautiful curls you got with an over-night curler, and, most importantly, lips shining with your first gloss of the day. 

“Dr. Barbie is so pretty,” Victoria mentioned almost dreamily. “Her time management must be insane if she manages to look so good all the time.” 

Trinity hummed in agreement. “If she wasn’t married, I’d be in line in a heartbeat.” 

Despite their comments, Jack smiled as he watched your eyes scan the room until they landed on him, and a bright smile plastered onto your face once you started making your way over to the nurses’ station. 

“Jack!” you called. “Just the man I was looking for.” You stopped right in front of him, mouth open to continue whatever you were saying, but you stopped, cocked your head, and narrowed your eyes. You clicked your tongue and stepped forward as you licked a finger. “Honey, you should have told me I left that on your cheek.”

It was as if all else faded into the background, and Jack quickly dodged your finger. “Hey!”

“Jack, just stay still for one second.” 

He caught your outstretched hand. “Knock it off.” 

“I can’t let you go the entire night walking around with Macadamia Butter lip gloss on your face.” You managed to get your hand free and gently wipe the kiss mark off. “There.” You watched Jack’s face fall. “Don’t pout.” 

He sneered playfully. “I’m not pouting.” 

He was definitely pouting. 

You warmly smiled at him. “Don’t worry, I’ll just come down later and refresh it, yeah?” 

Jack hummed lowly before he pressed a chaste kiss to your lips in the middle of the emergency department not caring who saw. He ran a quick tongue across his lips after he pulled back. “Is that the hot cocoa one?” 

Your smiled turned into a bashful one. “I’ve turned you into a lip gloss connoisseur.” 

“It’s not like you have over twenty in the house plus the extra five in the truck along with the seven you keep in your locker—” 

“Okay, okay, I get it,” you giggled right as your pager went off. “Looks like I’m being called away. I’ll see you later?” 

He nodded and smirked down at you. “I’ll see you later for my reapplication.” 

You turned away and yelled over your shoulder. “Fig sauce is going to look great on you!” 

Once you were out of sight on the elevator, Jack turned around to see the shocked faces of Victoria and Trinity. His chest puffed out just a bit, knowing he had shown them at what a good husband he was. 

“Fig sauce,” Robby chuckled. “Man, you’re so whipped. I’ll see you in twelve for my reapplication, Dr. Abbot,” he teased while walking away. 

Jack couldn’t help but laugh softly until he remembered that Robby wasn’t the only member of his audience. He eyed the two women carefully. 

“I’ll get you each three glosses from whatever brand in return for your silence.” 

Oh, yeah, Jack Abbot was indeed a lip gloss connoisseur. 

But he wouldn’t have it any other way.  

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[bitters-n-sweets]

super adorable!!!! and really good writing!!!

[loves-alibi]

Robby likes to touch, especially after a few drinks. Unfortunately, he likes to touch you.

If it was any other man, you'd curl your nose, tell him to fuck off, but something about Robby's steady hand, firm and comforting at the same time, keeps your mouth shut. You melt at his hand on the back of your neck, resting there like you're his while he tells stories about "the old days" to your fellow residents.

It's embarrassing how they look at you– or, it should be, but you're too busy soaking up the way Robby's voice sounds so close to your ear right now. Trinity looks like she wants to jump across the table. Dennis is blushing to his ears right next to her. It's only Cassie and Victoria, sitting slightly too close to one another, who hide their judgement, for nothing if not to appear less hypocritical than their thoughts.

You wonder if they look at Samira and Abbot the same way. Though, you already know the answer, because the two of them are at the bar right now, each with hands roaming far lower than Robby's. And you also know know why they don't. You feel it. It's the same reason why you like Robby touching you like this.

Every time he makes contact, from a mere accidental brush in the halls at work to these nights of drunken handsiness, your heart races. It's the closest you've ever felt to being prey, and you're not entirely sure what the predator is. You know well enough to say it's Robby with his claws that can't help but sink into you, but the lingering eyes and the whispers of your peers when they think you're not around to hear it feel just as dangerous.

So you seek him out, sit next to him and giggle at his every joke, and share sips of his drinks and offer him some of your own. You bear the glares because the thrill of Robby occupies your sleeping and waking mind.

And when the night you're dreaming of eventually does arrive, it doesn't take you by surprise one bit. When Robby leans in, his hand already teasing the inside of your thigh, and asks if you have somewhere to be tonight, you simply smile.

[bitters-n-sweets]

in another writing slump, soooo will be gone for a bit

see ya!

[moodyabbott]

oh my god aw aw aw aw aw awwwwww

[outtagum]

Hannah + Garrett + DIRTY DANCING OFF CAMPUS (2026—)