you can call me R

bitter cas stan | samcas samwena shipper | extremely dean/show critical | i will probs piss u off idc | any prns

[bittersamcas]

decided i should properly do an introduction post!!

so hello, you can call me R (protecting my identity), i’m 18, use any prns.

i ship samcas, samwena and samcaswena (platonically, queer platonic relationship or romantic) and i’m anti destiel and anti dean winchester.

i have a LOT of reasons behind why i don’t like dean, but more than anything i don’t feel comfortable or safe with him due to his alarming similarities with my father. my father was an alcoholic abusive piece of shit and dean is exactly like him, i relate heavily to cas and deans treatment of cas helped me confront my father and process my trauma.

i’m an extremely bitter cas stan, alongside a bitter sam stan. im very very show critical, fandom critical and dean critical.

if you’re a dean stan please please block me!! whilst this is the account i use to talk on abuse and trauma i also know dean brings a lot of comfort to people and i don’t want to end up having any content i post being critical of dean end up on your dash and upset you.

this is also a secondary account so i can’t like posts, follow or reply to you!

i’m pretty sure that’s everything!

[thequeenofsastiel]

Not to be trash for Sastiel on main, but I'll never not love that Castiel is looking at Sam like this:

There's this intensity, and honestly respect in his gaze. Sam introduced himself while showing Castiel reverence, and you can really see that in the way Castiel is looking at him. In the fact that he entirely ignores Dean asking who Uriel is and instead gives Sam this look while asking if he'd stopped Samhain. Castiel doesn't ask if the two of them(Sam and Dean) had stopped Samhain. He directs the question specifically at Sam, only acknowledging Dean when Dean aggressively demands to know why Castiel is asking. And you can really see the difference in the way Castiel looks at Dean:

His expression turns flat and businesslike, as does his tone(which I don't have the resources to capture, but had been much gentler). There's no more respect and softness at all. Largely, I think, because for Castiel, being respected is hugely important. Dean has shown him nothing but aggressive disrespect from the moment they met. Whereas Sam immediately showed him a great deal of respect and reverence. I don't think it's an accident that, in the same episode in which he meets Sam, whom I'm certain Castiel didn't expect to behave the way he did, that Castiel begins to express doubts. Dean is supposed to be an instrument of Heaven, but treats him like shit, and Sam is supposed to be an instrument of Hell, but treats him with worship. That must have had a significant impact.

[castielcommunism]

it’s not so much that I think Chuck is a bad villain, but I cannot stand the impact his presence has had on fandom discussion of the show. You cannot ascribe all the bad things characters (usually Dean) do to Chuck’s “meddling” but then insist all of Dean’s good qualities are entirely his own. Do these characters have the capacity to make decisions - good and bad - or not? Do they have the ability to be good and bad people, or not?

And also if you’re reading spn this way, there is essentially no point in doing any sort of character analysis. Like it argues a complete and total lack of agency on the part of the characters, right down to the way they treat other characters on the show. I think it’s fine to argue that Chuck’s presence in the narrative pushes the characters into dangerous, volatile, and uncomfortable situations, but once you start saying that all criticism of the characters’ behaviour should be discarded because “Chuck made them do it”, then we’re talking about playhouse barbie dolls, not characters with internal lives & flaws & goals

[winchesterwhorehouse]

S5Ep16 Dean: oh look Sammy's fave memory is someone else's Thanksgiving this obviously means he's selfish and a runaway and hates me and it's not like he felt suffocated with the amount of control dad and me imposed on him, it's clearly something wrong with him not me though, I was the one left behind alone

[bittersamcas]

classic case of spn constantly demonising sams choices and opinions because they see him as deans possession and see it as some sort of betrayal

[jaredgirl]

i honestly don't understand why so many people complain about the sam/amelia arc. i've even seen sam fans saying that it was out of character and that sam would never "abandon" dean like that, but i don't really see how that's different from what dean did two seasons before. while sam was suffering in hell, dean had a normal life with lisa and ben. i don't think it's a bad thing because they both had made a deal about not bringing the other back.

it's just weird how sam gets all the hate. he had recently dealt with hallucinations and dean seemed to be dead. i don't get what he was supposed to do.

[jaredgirl]

i love/hate how dean makes everything about himself where sam is concerned. idk how he does it, but he always manages to take it personally. sam goes to college? oh, he's abandoning dean. sam uses his powers and has girlfriends? he's betraying him. sam trusts the wrong person and makes a mistake? he's letting him down. sam's best memories doesn't include dean? he must hate dean and john. sam tells dean that he wouldn't let an angel possess him against his will? it means that he would be fine with dean dying.

[dadstielkline]

I have a very love-hate relationship with dean winchester. sometimes I think he's adorable and i wanna hug him but then unfortunately he opens his mouth and i just wanna punch him

[bittersamcas]

it’s so funny to me how dean sees cas have friends (see: siblings) outside of the winchesters and decides it’s a cult.

it’s so funny how he villainies’ any relationship cas has with angels because he doesn’t trust angels so therefore cas shouldn’t either.

it’s so funny how it’s so fucking toxic to not allow your bestfriend to have other friends because you don’t trust them, it’s even more insane when you consider said other friends are in fact the bestfriends SIBLINGS.

[housewife-castiel]

Genuinely so upsetting thinking about how isolated Cas becomes as the show goes on.

He becomes more and more estranged from other angels and all the angels he does have a relationship with end up dying until the point where the only angel he knows and has history with is Naomi, his abuser.

He loves humanity and enjoys living on Earth but still doesn't feel like he truly belongs there. His strongest (and only real connection) with humans is through the Winchesters and despite knowing and living with them for years, he still doesn't feel like he truly has them and thus never feels wanted for anything outside of what he can do for them which leads to him never feeling at home when he's in the bunker.

His most fulfilling relationship and the one that gives him the greatest sense of purpose is his relationship with Jack. But Jack's his son so like there's obviously limitations there because the dynamic between parent and child is different and serves a different function than the dynamic between friends.

[bittersamcas]

the amount of cas’ family and friends either killed by dean or cut off from cas because dean didn’t like or trust them despite cas knowing them best makes me so sad. it’s very much a “you can only talk to those i approve of” situation and it’s gross

[finalgirlbrainrot]

every time I watch the final scene of 4x10 where dean tells sam what happened in hell I get filled with So Much Rage bc I just KNOW that if it had been sam who tortured souls and enjoyed it, no-one would EVER forget about it (not the fandom, not the show and certainly not dean) and it would’ve been thrown in his face over and over again

[and-stir-the-stars-deactivated2]

"How many times did Cas get lobotomized throughout history while trying to protect humanity" Yeah but how many times did he get lobomotized while trying to rally angels into standing up for themselves and overthrowing the twisted, macabre system that was torturing them under the guise of governing them? How many times did he get lobotomized while trying to reform Heaven for the betterment of their family itself?

[bittersamcas]

you ever make a list with all the different things that have angered you in spn that you want to eventually rant about :/

lmk which post you want to see first. i honestly can’t decide which makes me more angry.

[endiness]

it’s time for another game of “if cas were a female character, destiel would be canon already~”!

imagine dean telling a female cas that she’s dead to him. imagine dean angrily stalking toward a female cas and sam getting between the two of them to stop dean before he assaults a female cas. imagine dean angrily breaking a chair in a female cas’s presence after that’s happened. imagine dean manipulating a female cas’s son into locking himself in a box and planning to trap him there forever. imagine dean telling a female cas that he’s locked her son in a box, a female cas responding “no,” and dean telling her that’s where he’s going to stay. imagine dean trying to convince a female cas that her son wanted to be trapped in a box—and when a previous scene just showed her son scared and saying “i don’t think i like this” while trapped in the box. imagine dean telling a female cas that he didn’t even want to lock her son in a box and that he wanted to kill him instead. imagine dean rubbing in a female cas’s face that he’s going to kill her son. imagine dean picking up a gun and telling a female cas that he’s going to kill her son with it and that she can either “get on board or walk away.”

imagine how that entire exchange would look like if cas were a female character instead. imagine how it would look for a female cas to be sitting there with her son, telling him that they need to run away together somewhere safe where no one (dean) can find them, then to have her son look off in the distance and a female cas look to where he’s looking, too, only to see dean standing there with a gun, ready to murder her son.

so. is this still something that anyone would even be interested in shipping in the first place? would people still be calling it “the greatest love story ever told”? or would people be able to recognize it for the abusive relationship that it already is.

[endiness]

[bittersamcas]

hourlydeancas are on 9.21 & 9.22 and i am trying so hard to not get mad because oh my god.

the way dean is calling it creepy that the angels are calling cas commander, as if cas hasn’t spoken before on how he was a commander of army’s.

the way the winchesters are acting like castiel is incompetent and incapable of leading angels or having a group of people who believe in him because he opened purgatory as if the reason cas had to resort to that was because the winchesters consistently acted like cas’ civil war was not important.

the way they disrespect so much of cas’ culture and family because they don’t like it is fucking gross.

overall the way they treat cas in 9.22 acting like they actually give a single fuck about those angels despite deans entire thing being on how he hates angels.

dean didn’t care for the angels cas was commanding, dean just didn’t like that cas had power and influence again and wanted to carry on punishing cas for past mistakes.

[suncaptor]

it's really about how Sam never got validation for the way his father treated him badly from anyone who was there to see it, and the main person there defended him constantly and shifted blame on Sam.

[bittersamcas]

:(

[bittersamcas]

in roadtrip why the FUCK did cas not get to drive HIS car. it’s HIS yet somehow dean ended up driving and made cas sit in the backseat as if it was the impala? fucking weird and annoys me so much when you consider that the continental was cas’ only real possession outside of himself and his angel blade.

[bittersamcas]

@feeling-snipsy THANKYOU for putting it all in words my medicated brain can’t come up with. the fact they don’t even like the car is so much more annoying and i’m gonna make a proper post but FUCK.