I was just so amazed how God moved me this time.
For the past few days, I was thinking how will I get to survive the next few weeks without a job?
I keep on reminding myself, God will provide, God provides, all is well!
Then I will remember those bills and I will start to think again.
Yeah, it’s easy to say that, to just trust God but most of the time, God does not want us to stay still and wait for things to happen. We must act in faith.
I tried to jot down all the things I had to pay for for the month and somehow a little bit more for a few weeks while I wait for my last pay check.
But all the while I never stopped thanking Him for all He’s done for me. All the good times I have with my family and quality time to get to know them well and serve them.
People who knows me would agree that service would be the least among my love language, in fact, I might not have it at all! My love language is definitely quality time, a bit of words of appreciation and gifts, but never service.
It is as if I don’t care if they will not serve me as much as I care about them being with me.
But because it is not about me, I learned the art of serving gradually. Believe it or not, I only started to learn this when I got out of our home, or technically, when I was no longer living with my family.
But that’s just beside the point. While I got myself here now for a different reason, a situation came out that it required me to stay a bit longer than I initially planned.
I’m staying here for 3 weeks now with my Aunt and two cousins. All I did was to serve them, take time with them, help them out and just hang around!
It couldn’t have been much of a big deal to everyone, they might even think that I’m living in comfort but yeah, I’m not totally having any hard time here (except; the worries for my bills).
While I was still busy thinking of my alternative plans of how I might be able to come up with something, deep down in my heart, I know God will take care of me. And if it has to be staying in here for a shed and food, so be it.
Then just this morning, I realized my line got redirected because of my overdue. It did not come by surprise but I was not thinking that it could be this soon, it wasn’t two months yet, and I thought it would probably take up until the next billing.
Thinking I only have enough money to pay my rent and one month bill worth for my line, I got a bit more worried than I had for not being able to have anything left for me to go back to Baguio.
But I would have to face my responsibilities. I went out and tried to use my old payroll account (without checking its balance) to transfer some funds to pay my bills. Surprisingly, it went through!
And when I finally checked the balance, less the big amount I already transferred to payments, it was still more than enough of what I needed.
I was so happy and it felt so “woah! Daebak” experience to me. I really didn’t expect any money in it, but for some reason, it has!
And did I tell you I was reading the book of Ruth?
I suddenly realized how I found favor in God’s eyes, just like Ruth to Boaz, when he saw that heartfelt service--that sincere heart to serve, even if it was not her forte, who knows what her strength was? Or what her love language was? It could be quality time too for holding on and keeping with her mother-in-law!
I just believe that God sees through us. I also believe that we never earn this favor from Him, He is already pleased with us. He is mindful of our needs, and we do not have to do anything just to get His attention—He already loves us unconditionally.