scribbled thoughts

My everyday life is an expedition worth exploring and writing about.. Hi!! I am Rosebilyn Galang Abad. A follower of Jesus. A non-practicing nurse whose greatest passion is to make Jesus famous, especially to the next generation. A steady carabao and Influential rooster who is fond of making friends and eating sweets. A certified coffeeholic, a listener and a talker. A traveler and frustrated (literally) artist in all aspect. I am fond of writing as much as I love reading. My dream is to dream more dreams and bring them to reality! I love God and people! and that's all what I am here for..to love and know Him more... 

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FO?

Someone asked me, have I ever tried to “FO” somebody?

But before I answer that, let me just define what is FO..

FO - means Friendship over. TO end a connection, relationship with someone you casually hang out with or often communicate to, after such an unfortunate event -either intentionally or not, by cutting ties and basically being cold.

The answer was NO I haven’t. Though I must say I am not an ideal friend, I actually keep and treasure friendships.

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Journal lecs

Me talking to my cousin who's holding out my journal.. 

Charlize: are these all from the bible? (scanning the pages and pointing my entries)

Me: Just the red ones..all those written in black are my reflections of what the bible says.

C: how come you can write so much???

M: try to read one verse..

C: (read out a verse in psalm) 

M: so good isn’t it? 

C: yeah!!! oh that’s why..

How come I can write so much??

The Bible is so rich with ideas to last us a lifetime you will never have enough.

If that is the case, it would be so helpful to write them all down. (For memory retention’s sake)

I can be an old school for keeping such stuff but I can never outgrow writing.. 

These are the only stuff that I feel very productive of, and I know it’s silly but I kind of think that it’s one reliable proof that I ever existed in the world once I’ll be gone.

But the best part is when you go back to them, you will have the ‘feel’ of how it was when it was written.

Most of the time, I get through my difficult days by reading old entries back.

It gives me the thrill of the moment, the inspiration, the reminder that there were good days like that.

Most importantly, it gives me an evidence of how God consistently wants to remind me of how much He loves me.

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Just like Boaz

I was just so amazed how God moved me this time.

For the past few days, I was thinking how will I get to survive the next few weeks without a job?

I keep on reminding myself, God will provide, God provides, all is well!

Then I will remember those bills and I will start to think again.

Yeah, it’s easy to say that, to just trust God but most of the time, God does not want us to stay still and wait for things to happen. We must act in faith.

I tried to jot down all the things I had to pay for for the month and somehow a little bit more for a few weeks while I wait for my last pay check.

But all the while I never stopped thanking Him for all He’s done for me. All the good times I have with my family and quality time to get to know them well and serve them.

People who knows me would agree that service would be the least among my love language, in fact, I might not have it at all! My love language is definitely quality time, a bit of words of appreciation and gifts, but never service.

It is as if I don’t care if they will not serve me as much as I care about them being with me.

But because it is not about me, I learned the art of serving gradually. Believe it or not, I only started to learn this when I got out of our home, or technically, when I was no longer living with my family.

But that’s just beside the point. While I got myself here now for a different reason, a situation came out that it required me to stay a bit longer than I initially planned.

I’m staying here for 3 weeks now with my Aunt and two cousins. All I did was to serve them, take time with them, help them out and just hang around!

It couldn’t have been much of a big deal to everyone, they might even think that I’m living in comfort but yeah, I’m not totally having any hard time here (except; the worries for my bills).

While I was still busy thinking of my alternative plans of how I might be able to come up with something, deep down in my heart, I know God will take care of me. And if it has to be staying in here for a shed and food, so be it.

Then just this morning, I realized my line got redirected because of my overdue. It did not come by surprise but I was not thinking that it could be this soon, it wasn’t two months yet, and I thought it would probably take up until the next billing.

Thinking I only have enough money to pay my rent and one month bill worth for my line, I got a bit more worried than I had for not being able to have anything left for me to go back to Baguio.

But I would have to face my responsibilities. I went out and tried to use my old payroll account (without checking its balance) to transfer some funds to pay my bills. Surprisingly, it went through!

And when I finally checked the balance, less the big amount I already transferred to payments, it was still more than enough of what I needed.

I was so happy and it felt so “woah! Daebak” experience to me. I really didn’t expect any money in it, but for some reason, it has!

And did I tell you I was reading the book of Ruth?

I suddenly realized how I found favor in God’s eyes, just like Ruth to Boaz, when he saw that heartfelt service--that sincere heart to serve, even if it was not her forte, who knows what her strength was? Or what her love language was? It could be quality time too for holding on and keeping with her mother-in-law!

I just believe that God sees through us. I also believe that we never earn this favor from Him, He is already pleased with us. He is mindful of our needs, and we do not have to do anything just to get His attention—He already loves us unconditionally.

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Welcome back!

I have almost given this account up.. kept on menacing the support team and it probably took few replies before I was finally able to log back in. I just want to honor and appreciate the troubleshooting team of this site for being so reliable and patient and for simply responding back. :) (heart heart)

It’s been really quite a while since I last posted something in here.

Felt like ages..

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“She asked me, why hannah’s sam?” “Secret…” I replied.

Pero di ko din natiis, sinagot ko rin.. “Kase, just like how Hannah prayed for Samuel, thats how I prayed for this.” **pertaining to my samsung phone pad bluetooth name**

That was one of our first encounters. And that was also the first time she told me, “You know what i want to have a date with you.” I dont have issues in building relationships with people..di ako nagwoworry sa mga sasabihin ko at ano kayang topics pwedeng pagusapan and i dont usually mind what first impression i would establish to them at any ages kase sa di malamang dahilan, ambilis at andali kong makahanap ng common ground… Pero when she told me that, napaisip ako..hmm pano kaya sya, anong pwedeng common ground don..? Haha! *crooo..crooo..*

Eh di ano pa nga ba, di si JESUS!!! Duh…?

Next thing i knew, I found a new sibling in her.. :) It was so timely that God brought me here and gave her to me. Slowly knowing her was tantamount to gradually knowing the place and season i am into esp.people God had chosen for me to love and to take care of at this point of my life. And the deeper I know her, the deeper I feel for the land. That took away the hard days of adjusting..in this foreign place and peepz!

My friendship with her is so special I knew I would always want to spend more time…and some more!

I dont always say but i appreciate her stature and authority..thats why when she insists on calling me “ate” nakakailang..kase ang isip bata ko kaya,hello? Mas mature sya..(sa fez? Haha!)

But I knew it was God who birthed that desire na..hmm im gonna take care of this lady. Though outwardly she’s tough, i saw she had a very delicate heart. She was so good in a lot of things..esp in speaking..yet she would relentlessly tell me, “ate, i dont know what to say..” Having her to share lives with napadali mga days ko in this place..in the sense na, i lost track of the dates..3 months..5 months..6 months na pala ko here..half year! It brings me excitement and joy to wait..yey sunday na..service ulit..makakasama ko na naman sila.. Makakafellowship ko na naman sila.. Makakausap ko na naman siya.. Talk about the week that passed..anong mga pinagpipray'an..

I adore the humility in her heart to admit things i know she doesnt usually do so to other people. Kahit di nya ko inapproach non to be her mentor i knew there was that burden already na im gonna influence her to be more of who God wants her to be and put my life to it. One day i came to realize, the “hannah’s sam” i totally am praying for came in the life of Iela. I knew this person will be my companion in doing the Great Commission..and we’ll do better together. But somewhere in my heart i have a greater desire for her i didnt have any idea about yet. I would cry out..Lord something greater..something greater for her. Not necessarily success, fame or riches..but greater tenacity and/or audacity of God’s realness and Presence.. And im in no power at all to provide her that experience kahit ilang beses kong sabihin or ituro..only God can do that for her. Thats why when she made a daring decision to go to Cambodia, i totally understood..ahhh..tama.. But that doesnt mean na hindi ako naSad..i did..i am now..but that overrides my joy and excitement that God will launch her and send her there to do something grand in her life that nobody else can teach but the experiences God will give. I am so grateful na i became part of her life..i was trusted.. But just like Hannah, I had to let her go and serve the purpose God has called her to do.

It’s been more than a year since I last seen her, but I knew right here in my heart God established a connection between us..that nothing could ever cut.

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Friendship unbounded. Walang makakapigil sa min! Catching up for lost hours, days, months and years..soo familiar. At magiipon uli kami ng kwento para sa muling pagtatagpo. #TimelessFriendships #ForKeeps #JustLikeTheOldTimes (at Manila, Philippines)

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Last time we've met eh Ignite 2013. Its been a while. #Ignite2015

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I was there. #Blessed #Refreshed #Commissioned #Ignite2015 #ChangeIsHere

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Malunggay Principle

It has been a while.. Naging stagnant tong blog ko for such a time..I dont have laptop na kase thats why.. but I really missed blogging.. And hopefully I would be able to continue it regardless of busy and stuffy skeds.. Now here’s one of the most striking illustration I ever came across with. Feel free to read and react.

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"Any idea how old is this plant?"

The question was raised when Pastor Jonathan put the plant on the table. Clueless, we made our wildest guess. “8 months?” “9 months?” “6 months?”

When he planted his malunggay way back in his own backyard in Vigan, in just a matter of one year, it was already thriving that it grew so tall and fruitful.

We all guessed wrongly.. this malunggay plant in a pot in front of us is almost 2years already!!

Why it didnt look like so? He said it’s because of it’s environment. The climate and all, it made a huge factor why this is not growing like it should be where in fact this plant came from the same seed with what he planted first.

He connected the point with discipleship..that in order for the people to grow, like they really should, we have to be in a kind of environment that will make us thrive.

Because if not, we will end up running long years in our christian life without really growing and becoming fruitful in the kingdom of God.

What kind of environment are you in?

Changed life should be obvious. Transformation should be evident. Fruitfulness should be inevitable.

If you are not with people who doesn’t offend you and are not coming alongside for your growth and never pushed you to your best, then you might be in a wrong environment.

Are you the kind of person who doesn’t want correction and always longs for affirmation?

Best people to be with are those people who never held back the truth for your own protection and best interest.

I am grateful I have these people..true and brave enough to tell me that I am having it all wrong.. People who won’t tolerate my “unreasonbleness” stubbornness and nevertheless stands with you and protect you regardless if you dont want it.

Little do they know, this simply creates the atmosphere to unstoppably grow..

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Not close enough! Pero Halaaaa di naman na ko tantanan neto.. Hehe. One next fave anime movie ever watched after…di ko na maalala kung ano nga ang last! I like Chiaki coz he’s so cool, funny and one crazy guy. I really love the voice that dubbed him. Basta. Ang comedy talaga nya! Mean but sweet. Nasa labas ang kulo..

#UnexpectedEndings

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Dahil namiss ko ang longganisa..sige na nga! Taste like home. Pero iba pa rin.. ♡♥♡

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Fun time! Noon at ngayon..

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There will always be aFUN reason to go back, but the ultimate reason of coming is Jesus.. ♥

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Eto yon.. hayy

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Mabuhay!

I'll be back in blogging.. soon! Haha ^_^

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just having a good time <3

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Today... I was browsing my old old journals... and the only Excellent Planner that I ever had.. woahh once!

Napapasmile akong balikan yung mga jotted adventures and escapades ko throughout the year!

if only I will have another one like this for the next year!

I thought all I want for Christmas is this..and then, I realized..hmm it's okey. okey na ko.. I wouldn't have been able to go and experience those fun times kung ako lang to.. so I began editing this song playing on my mind as...

"All I want for Christmas.. is Jesus" <3 :)