yardstick for failure

UK comedy, work banter, literature & electronic music

[black-lodge-gatekeeper]

*when people from real life find out what I’m doing on tumblr*

[black-lodge-gatekeeper]

i fell asleep outside for a bit on sunday and i got the dumbest half sunburn because i was laying on my side. my arm was resting in an angle on by chest, not straight beside me, so when i now extend my arm, a sickly greyish pale triangle opens up on my forearm, surrounded by waning red.

also, i consulted a psychologist last week and the results for the anhedonia are in: i have to run an experiment with forcefully creating new neural pathways which is to be done (also) by properly reflecting on things I enjoy/good things happening to me, right after they happen and ease other thoughts that happen to me during things I enjoy into written notes which was described as "park the shit things into the shit carpark and get back to what is actually happening in front of you"

so right now im in the shit carpark and have to dig around it to create an option to get away from it. literally building new brain infrastructure.

[tineiya]

[genderoutlaws]

Never read Baldwin before?

Nonfiction

The Price of The Ticket (borrow from IA)

The Fire Next Time (pdf download)

Notes of A Native Son (pdf download)

Nothing Personal (read on IA - not great quality sorry)

The Last Interview (pdf download) (only 10 pages!)

Fiction

Giovanni's Room (pdf download)

If Beale Street Could Talk (pdf download)

BONUS

Little Man Little Man (read or pdf download on scribd) (Baldwin's only children's book)

Go Tell It On The Mountain (pdf download)

Another Country (pdf and epub download)

Sonny's Blues (pdf download)

Going to Meet the Man (pdf download)

[creatingblackcharacters]

My next Black History Month request:

Pick one of James Baldwin's works and read it!!! The Fire Next Time is an excellent essay, most of us are familiar with the quote on gay white people from The Last Interview but not the rest of it. If Beale Street Could Talk even has a movie!

[goth-queen]

[homunculus-argument]

Tsundere this, yandere that. I'm a wandere. You took your eyes off me for two seconds and I've already fucked off. Saw something cool glint on the other side of the continent and I'm on my way to check it out.

[log6]

"who am I to judge" well actually they call me to work the Pearly Gates when St Peter wants a day off so

[mist-the-wannabe-linguist]

[weirdrtvscomments]

[trippiest]

what a beautiful day to not be in high school

[gayofthefae]

This is the like those “remember to be grateful you don’t have a sore throat right now” posts. It IS a beautiful day to not be in high school! Thank you!

[ch4momile]

Does anyone know if we have the impending doom tomorrow?

[black-lodge-gatekeeper]

my boss sat me down today at 7:45 am to order me to give it 80% from now on because otherwise i will go insane and not that he isnt correct, he is, but can i get some tips on how to give it 80% from now on without feeling guilty that i am not doing enough?

ill give you a clue: doing enough in my brain is to work to the point of burnout every two years of my life

yes exactly, as a child getting As was the norm, not a good thing, just a benchmark, and getting anything else was a problem and now they even have the gut to tell me my the perfectionism i have been battling my whole life is self inflicted, while i am suffering from anhedonia because objectively good solid work that i do doesnt fire up the right parts of my brain

chat, i am exhausted

i wanna give it 80% but how do i convince my brain?

[the-big-mood]

[black-lodge-gatekeeper]

Thank you, Marjane! 🕊️

[ruinedchildhood]

[black-lodge-gatekeeper]

jesus christ we just trudge on dont we

[redlipstickresurrected]

Enikő Katalin Eged (Hungarian, b. 1992, Budapest, Hungary) - Angry Chili Kitten and Angry Chili Spices, 2022, Paintings: Digital Art

[deadpanwhimsy]

sometimes midway through making things like this i say Who is the target audience. and the answer is always me

[whichcouldmeanothing]