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Hi Tumblr friends, I'm a 30-something working mom and have suffered from BED my entire life, plus anxiety and undiagnosed ADHD. I lost 100lbs a few years ago and briefly got down to a normal weight for the first time in my adult life, then I put 30 back on and got myself back into the obese range.

Now I'm in the middle of re-losing that 30 plus the additional 30 I need to reach my ugw.

I recently gave up alcohol + weed and I'm trying really hard to replace it with exercise + caffeine instead of food + sh 🙃

Height: 5'5 / 165cm

Cw: 149lbs / 67.5kg

Sw: 165lbs / 75kg (10/25)

Hw: 242lbs / 110kg (2021)

Gw1: 150lbs / 68kg (01/26)

Gw2: 135lbs / 61kg

Ugw: 120lbs / 54.5kg

Step goal: 10k/day

Calorie goal: 1250 kcal/day

Water goal: >100 oz/day

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I can't believe I look like this again. Three months ago I was the happiest I've ever been with my body. Now I'm disgusting again

This is pathetic. My weight gain this year is pathetic. July 2025 I was up to 178. By December 2025 I was down to 149 and feeling amazing. Currently it is April and I'm back in the 170s 🙃 I desperately need to lock in and I'm doing it today.

Why am I so fucking fat?? Ugh

I'm at an indoor water park with my kids for the weekend and holy shit, I look hideous in a bathing suit. I've put on so much weight in the past 2 months. I've been in denial about it, still feeling like I'm at my lw like I was in January, then I see myself in the mirror 🤢 If I had just maintained that weight I'd be looking so good rn but instead I ate everything in sight for 2 months and pretended it was fine.

It's feeling like the same denial I was in when I was morbidly obese and it's scaring me, how I feel I could so easily end up back there. I have to stop slipping. It's 7am on a Monday, seems like a good place to start.

Back on it shit today.

I'm sorry I'm so ugly.

I know none of you know what I look like but I feel like I should apologize anyway.

Just popping in to say I'm fat af and not doing so great 🙃

I haven't posted in a million years but I binged today after like 3 weeks binge free and I'm disappointed in myself fr

With the way I'm binging rn, I think instead of beating myself up about my intake I'm just going to try to survive and also stay under maintenance for the next week and lock in for the new year. Not sure how that's going to go but worth a shot right?

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Pretending to not despise my coworkers is slowly destroying me. Haha omg Becky, your milquetoast boomer humor is so FUNNY and not at at cringey and I totally don't want to kms right now! Yep, the gang's all here Todd! Now it's a party! 😀😀😀🔫🔫🔫

I'm disgusting

I haven't been sleeping well lately and was really hoping to sleep in today, finally. Instead my husband woke me up at 7:45 because he "didn't know if I wanted to get up" 🥲🥲🥲🥲

Idc if it k!lls me, I'm breaking the binge today. I've probably gained back all the weight I lost since October this past week. Pathetic.

I wonder if I should just stop counting calories and also just stop eating

As much as I'm terrified of medications, I desperately wish I could afford to go on glp-1 because idk what to even do at this point. Sunday and Monday were perfect days, Tuesday and Wednesday I once again binged way over maintenence. I could cry rn

I swear, skinless baked potatoes with salsa are a cheat code. Wdym I can have this huge bowl of starchy spicy carbs for 160 calories? AND it has vitamins?!

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