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The life and times of a retired student. I work in the radio industry. I write on sport, train and hunt down new music in my spare time. I want to be loved, I want to do something worthy of remembrance and I want to be a good person. The rest of life is a sideplot.

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Guys. I'm struggling

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This is not my beautiful wife...

Everything is both heavy and empty at once. I don't think I was hyper.. but I was super impulsive. In good faith. I knew regret would follow. But as I walk home the tears wrestle angrily from my eyes yet I don't know why.

I just know that this emptiness is proving difficult to fill.. pleasure is an impossible commodity to obtain and my ability to skip from one mistake to another is only slightly reducing with age.

Tomorrow I fix this. Tonight I sleep and hope the physical pain subsides

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On your bad days. Don't do anything stupid. Just go to sleep as soon as you can. You'll wake up like a new person

#bipolar #ThisIKnow #IKnowThisNow

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Today for the first time since Friday, I laughed. I spent the ride thinking about our time together in Vietnam.

Let me take you back to 2012 - I'd ended a long term relationship - I was listless. I'd been repeatedly told by people that I never followed through on anything. I decided to make a change. After a night in the pub and the realisation that my lifetime goal to swim the channel was beyond me financially I signed up for a bike ride across Vietnam.

As I blearily checked my emails in the morning I panicked. I had no clue what to do - I didn't even have a proper bike! Luke Humphreys, who’d organised the ride, had bought together our odd group of superstar cyclists and enthusiastic novices. To my amazement, Luke told me one of them was Mike Hall - a guy who'd inspired me to keep going when I was still racking up miles in the pool and in the men's pond at Hamstead Heath.

When we came to take our trip, I enthusiastically cornered him at the airport and asked him what he ate when he rode around the world: "doesn't matter really you're body's like a furnace at those distances, but a lot of McDonalds", where he slept: "in a bivvy mostly" and did he feel like he'd missed out taking in the culture of the countries he passed through: "Not really, some people want to ride to see the world, but I enjoy testing my limits". "So how much cycling have you done?" Mike countered "not much" I sheepishly responded "I'm a swimmer really, I was going to swim the channel" "well you'll have good cardio then" - Before asking a raft of questions about how you prepare for a channel swim..

That to me is who Mike was: encouraging, matter of fact and understated. I took inspiration every time he raced and introduced tens of people to the addictive world of dot watching. Every ride he did inspired one of my own. This ride, was short, unimpressive but entirely necessary, It is not the first ride I've taken that's been inspired by Mike, it won't be the last either. While the channel swim is still a long term goal I now call myself a cyclist and consider myself extremely privileged to have spent some of my life in his company - even if that time was far too brief - I won't count the days, but the days counted

[just-shower-thoughts]

thought for the day…“boobytrap” backwards is “Partyboob”………hmmm

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This just in...

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#TinyTrump is my new favorite meme.

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Sold

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Love the work of Leonard Cohen. Prefer the vox of Rufus.

“We are ugly. But we have the music”

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BEST BET ON CHINASKI

The world is slowly becoming a Bukowski novel

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I wish I had more confidence.... I have no idea what to do... the worst thing is everyone assumes I'm not cripplingly shy because I talk a lot... that is the cover... agggghhhh

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(via wahza)

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Catastrophic

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Every generation sheds their parents bigotry. Be prepared to learn from your kids

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Never Alone

If you can’t tell the difference between “twenty minutes of action” and rape then you deserve every little piece of disgrace, disdain and hatred that is heading your way. You also deserve a public reeducation. Your son may have escaped with an incredibly short sentence but I hope his victim takes solace in knowing that the majority of the planet are on her side.

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Aww

I witnessed a truly beautiful moment today. A friend, a mum, bursting into tears with joy after her son exceeded her wildest expectations and achieved more than she had dared to think him capable of. The most beautiful heartstring tug

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I can't decide if it's a good or bad thing

When the only person you can be bothered to listen to is Dr Seuss

[weallendor]

The tols Vs. The smols

[thefreakhasgreeneyes]

So what you’re saying is…in order to be a part of the dark side you must be above 6 feet tall?

[sourblues]

You must be THIS tall to Join the Dark Side.

[davids-harbour]

proof

[mr-spock-92]

now this makes so much sense

Originally posted by destroythesith

[hoodiegal]

IT KEEPS CHECKING OUT

[thebibliosphere]

So, I had a sudden horrible thought and

*scREAMING*

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I know I'm soft. Sometimes I'm really soft But sometimes I'm gelato in a microwave soft. I had to watch the alternate ending To Himym because I hate the original one so badly