𝑰'𝑳𝑳 𝑩𝑬 𝑯𝑶𝑵𝑬𝑺𝑻 , 𝑰'𝑴 𝑮𝑶𝑵𝑵𝑨 𝑻𝑨𝑳𝑲 𝑨𝑩𝑶𝑼𝑻 𝑺𝑶𝑴𝑬 𝑹𝑬𝑨𝑳 𝑺𝑯𝑰𝑻 . it’ll be under a read more so that it won’t clog up the dash . i hope you’re all well . love you !
so , i’ve been less active these past couple days because my mental health has taken a STEEP decline . and listen , i’m not usually one to publicly talk about my depression , to anyone or at all . i don’t like admitting that i need help , because i’m so used to needing to get through things on my own . i’m strong and i KNOW i’m strong . but there’s another kind of strength in admitting that i need to unlearn old habits in order to get better . and sometimes , i’ll need other people’s help in order to do it .
right now i’m chock full of those habits . obsessive perfectionism irt my writing , anxiety regarding duplicates ( which is entirely of my own doing ; fellow dimi dupes have done nothing to provoke this ) , and a myriad of other things that are slowly taking my enjoyment out of being on this blog . i love dimi , i really do , and i want to approach writing him with a mindset that allows me to do the best i can . as of late , i haven’t been able to do so . many things , both outside of tumblr and inside it , have contributed to such , and i’m tired of feeling this way . i’m tired of being anxious and sad .
my point is , i recognize my thoughts and behaviors and will take the steps needed to grow from it . all i ask is for your help . what help ? whatever help you can spare . whether it’s patience as i work to make strides in bettering myself or simply saying hello on discord , anything and everything will be appreciated .
and in turn , of course , i will extend the same courtesy to you . let’s fight together . grow together . life is so stupidly complicated , but it’s also undeniably and utterly beautiful . i’m going on a journey and you’re more than welcome to come join me .
