Christmas Lights and Other Mixed Signals
You hold my hand as if it we were something
but ignore my messages as if I am nothing
You said that you will be there and then you’re gone
I thought you have feelings, it turns out there’s none.
Sana this is the last time I’ll post about fuckin’ feelings kasi yuck Jamie kadiri ka na, germs pa more. (Disclaimer) Sorry for the rumbles and the formless paragraphs.
I wish i could go back to being a halaman. Yung wala kang pake, yung time na studies/ career/ helping the fam/ dogs/ improvement/ self lang ang iniisip mo. Yung times na sobrang sure ka sa path na tatahakin mo sa life without considering if you will have time for someone whom you are not even sure of. Nakakamiss yung mga times na lowkey akong nandidiri sa couples around me. Yung mga moments that I am really cringing kasi ewww PDA.
Once upon a time, God created the hoo-man. At first, they have the right amount of oxytocin, dopamine, cortisol, and other hormones. During that time, God thought that he had created the perfect beings that will help Him take care of His kingdom. These hoo-man are contented and satisfied. They always have the capacity to think objectively, while still striving to achieve the goal towards morals and values. Wala silang extreme feelings but that doesn’t make them any less happier. This is paradise in a nut shell.
But then may isang lamok na gawa ni Master Hanz Cua. This insect has been injecting fluids that would make the wiring of the hoo-mans’ glands berserk. At first, walang nakapansin. But when people started to fall in love, have sex, kill because of anger and shits, narealize ni God na may nangyayaring mali. And he figured out na yung lamok ang may kasalanan. He tried to change people back the way they were, but they refused.
Dahil mahal tayo ni Lord, He accepted our decision. But because we are now subjective beings, di na tayo pwedeng mag rule sa Paradise nya. So, He gave us another world where we can do everything we want and we are stripped off our place in His Paradise. And here we are on earth. Dahil sa ginawa ni Master Hanz Cua, pinarusahan sya ni God. He cursed him by giving him this irritating voice plus the abomination of going to Umagang Kay Ganda and giving the people their daily horoscopes. _The End_
Okay, di ko na alam kung saan pumupunta tong blog na to. HAHAHA
Dahil nadale na rin naman ako ng lamok ni Master Hanz, bahala na. Siguro kung naramdaman ko lang yung sincerity at effort. Titigilan ko na yung pagsusuppress sa sarili ko. Pero kung hanggang next week ay tengga ako. I will make myself busy na lang sa Audit. Right now, nakapagpasa na ako ng resume doon sa audit firm na nagjob offer sakin. It all depends on this weeks’ happenings kung anona ang step na gagawin ko next year concerning my job.
