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Pass the happy!🌻🌈When you receive this, list 5 things that make you happy and send this to 10 of the last people in your notifications

this is cool cause lately i havent been thinking about the things that make me happy enough. id say

1. reading and my book collection

2. music, lately ive been obsessed w the song lovefool and i really like wallows new song and TOPs

3. my friends. theyre all the most beautiful amazing people i know and idk what id do without them

4. robert sheehans interviews w david castañeda lmao

5. making art, mainly drawing, painting, and guitar. i miss the band i used to be in lol

@greenpidge101 @opinions-you-didnt-ask-for @lonely-luce @blec-boi @enbypoet are the last people in my notifs so why not

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Okay let’s do this I guess:

My friends, even though we can’t see each other these days, i love them and they are awesome

Cuddling with boyfriend while watching a movie on the bed / couch

Writing and my own little big world

Finding a new song to get obsessed with!

Walking in the woods or exploring the city at night

Let’s spread this shall we? @i-wish-tobe-the-thinnest @lassdielesbenleben @t4esb4e @themanicanic @wildnya

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I know it's supposed to be sad...

... but guys your names never fail to put a smile on my face 🖤

(I'm sorry, keep up fighting, it'll get better!)

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Good luck with your therapy!! It's really nice you decided to try one, I hope it'll be helpful for you and that you'll get better soon. Also, love your blog and all your memes. Have a good day/night ♡

Thank you very much! 🖤

Again, I am sorry I am posting less but it's part of reducing "negative thoughts"...

I’m glad you can have a laugh with my memes, if you find them reletable remember that things can always get better!Have a good day/night!   🖤🖤🖤

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Do you have a mental ilness? If so which one? If you want to tell me

I never received a professional diagnosis, thought I'm currently in therapy and I've been asked several times whether I would be ok with taking meds (I'm still thinking about it).

The synthoms and feelings I expirience are associated with depression, and I reached a level where it was mandatory for me to seek for professional help.

I also practice self harm (I'm working on that too) and I don't have a good relationship with my body and food.

Hoped that answered your questions, and sorry for my bad English.

I wish you a pleasant rest of the day / night 🖤

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Hug

🖤 Hug! 🖤 (I’m Italian tho, beware)   

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Hi!! I just run into your blog and I totally relate to your posts. I've been seeing a therapist for like 4 years, but lately my anxiety is getting worst. Yesterday, my psychiatrist gave me a prescription for anxiolytics, but I'm worried I may develop an addiction. Any thoughts on that?

Hi! I hope that you can have a laugh with my depressed posts. 😉

First of all remember that what I can give you is just an opinion based on personal expirience since I’m not a professional figure.

I think that if your doctor believes that you may find benefits from anxiolytics, espexially since you’ve been in therapy for a long time, they should know what they're saying.

Also, anxiolytics should go along with therapy and not replacing it, so remember to keep up with it.

Finally medications in general works differentely with everyone so you and your psychiatrist should keep in touch and see how do they affect you and how you feel about it.

You shouldn't fear taking medications alongside therapy, if you follow your doctor istructions and remember to talk with them freely about what you feel (in order to adjust type / dosage / intake).

I hope i've been useful and i wish you the best.

I believe in you, and I am sure you'll be able to fight trough this. 🖤

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Spero che con la terapia tu possa sentirti meglio e che riuscirai ad avere una vita felice ❤️

Grazie mille per le dolci parole ❤️ Non voglio necessariamente una “vita felice”, andrà bene quello che sarà, vorrei solamente riuscire ad sentirmi meritevole di viverlo!

Spero che anche tu possa possa essere felice, in qualsiasi modo tu intenda la felicità ❤️

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I hope that you'll be able to feel better and have a happy life with therapy ❤️

Thank you very much for the kind words  ❤️ I don’t necessarily want a “happy life”, I’ll be fine with what will be, I just wish to be able to feel worthy of living it!  ❤️

I hope you can be happy too, in whatever way you intend happiness ❤️

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"I wanna feel something again memorable"

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Me, during sex:

Fuck fuck fuck fuck...

Me, during a mental breakdown:

Fuck fuck fuck fuck...

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