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[cutiepatootie865]

[sillywillyco]

im…im gonna go..

[mikrosoul]

Kanna my beloved 🧎‍♀️

[mikrosoul]

Vampire Mitsuaya

[threeeangells]

Need to recreate this makeup 💕

[velvetframee]

‘euphoria’ season 3, episode 4 | “kitty likes to dance” nate jacobs

[json-derulo]

"you were always such a good kid! we never had to worry about you :)" thanks! you actually should've, though. like about this specifically

[woodwool]

severely deficient in whatever vitamin makes u a person

[morxwar]

[ariaiscursed]

[ariaiscursed]

[abusedghost]

I feel ugly, which boy should I eat next?

[l0vleylizzie]

[ulyasha-prinsess]

God knows i tried

[psychotropico]

date idea i psychoanalyse you and you say things like wow youre right good job babe

[dollyyangelll]

i swear i was built like the wrong puzzle piece. like everyone else slides into each other so naturally and im just sitting there forcing my edges into places i was never meant to fit. i can feel it in every conversation. every laugh that sounds a little too polite. every “omg we should hang out” that never actually happens. every group im technically in but never really apart of.its so humiliating feeling like youre always the extra person. like youre standing just slightly outside the circle trying to pretend you dont notice nobody makes space for you unless you squeeze yourself in first. and then you start wondering if maybe youre the problem because everyone else has their click. everyone else has people they automatically sit with or text first or tell everything to. meanwhile i feel like i have to beg for scraps of connection without actually begging because if people knew how lonely i really was itd probably scare them away even more. and the worst part is how hard i try. i try so hard to be easy to love. easy to keep around. i laugh at the right moments and answer fast and remember little details about people and make myself available whenever they need someone because maybe if im useful enough theyll finally choose me naturally instead of out of convenience. but no matter how much i give, i still feel temporary to everyone. like im just filling empty space until someone better walks in. every year, i’m getting older but every day i feel the same. still standing in crowded rooms feeling invisible. still watching friendships happen around me like im behind glass. still feeling physically sick seeing people who have their person while i sit there wondering what is so unlovable about me that nobody ever stays in the same way sometimes late at night when everything finally goes quiet and i stop trying so hard to make myself fit into peoples lives, i just sit there listening to the rain outside my window because and when I feel like I’ve got no one at least I can hear the rain. at least the rain stays. at least it fills the silence enough to make me feel less empty for a little while. sometimes i think people only like the version of me thats quiet and easy and low maintenance because the second i start feeling too much i can literally feel myself becoming unbearable to everyone around me. so i keep everything inside until it turns into this horrible ache where even being around people makes me feel lonely. i think thats what nobody talks about enough. how embarrassing loneliness becomes after awhile. because at first its sad but eventually it starts feeling pathetic. like youre watching everyone move forward socially while youre stuck in the exact same place emotionally. people always say “youll find your people eventually” but what if eventually never comes. what if some people are just meant to spend their whole lives feeling slightly out of place everywhere they go. i dont even want to be popular or have a million friends. i just want to stop feeling like im forcing people to keep me around. i want someone to choose me naturally. i want to stop overthinking every text and every silence and every change in tone. i want to know what its like to belong somewhere without having to earn my place every second. because right now it feels like everyone else was handed a map on how to connect with people and i missed the day they gave them out

[hotandfunnywomen]

Olivia Rodrigo and the Cure's Robert Smith doing shots backstage at Glastonbury.