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@bleedsthrough
independent, private & selective CANON & ORIGINAL CHARACTERS from ANNE RICE'S IMMORTAL UNIVERSE & VAMPIRE: THE MASQUARADE. under heavy construction. temporary rules & muses under cut. i will be following from @tachonismancer.
in the DARKNESS with : @nessfang ; @bleedingdve / @lethalbody ; @sangu1no ; @wulfharth / @histcrie ; @l1felike / @aramanbynight / @th1nbloods
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[ TO – HAUNTED BOY ]: teor was
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[ TO – HAUNTED BOY ]: teor was a different situation. even then, that wasn't on you, it was on me.
[ TO – HAUNTED BOY ]: sorry i exploded.
[ TO – HAUNTED BOY ]: but i'd rather get mad in the moment so i can apologize later, than find out new information months or years after the fact.
[ TXT : Vale, Kattigan 🐺] i'm sorry [ TXT : Vale, Kattigan 🐺] again [ TXT : Vale, Kattigan 🐺] i didn't meant to bring it up [ TXT : Vale, Kattigan 🐺] that... it was probably on all of us [ TXT : Vale, Kattigan 🐺] a lot of things could've gone different that night
The thread goes quiet for a moment, then all of the sudden a new message appears...
[ TXT : Vale, Kattigan 🐺] i know who killed marienna [deleted message]
... and it's gone in the fraction of a second, only for the "Writing..." notification to take center stage again. It takes several minutes for Occtis to decide what he wants to say and when he does, the messages arrive all at once.
[ TXT : Vale, Kattigan 🐺] there is something else i need to tell you [ TXT : Vale, Kattigan 🐺] but i can't [ TXT : Vale, Kattigan 🐺] not over messages, at least [ TXT : Vale, Kattigan 🐺] that would just feel wrong
[ TXT: @wulfhart ] well…fair enough, i guess. next time tho, why don't you just say that?
[ TXT : Vale, Kattigan 🐺] okay [ TXT : Vale, Kattigan 🐺] fine [ TXT : Vale, Kattigan 🐺] next time the mission goes sideways and someone almost dies for reasons that are not entirely my fault, i'll just trust you won't get mad at me [ TXT : Vale, Kattigan 🐺] like you most definitely didn't get mad at me about the teor situation
The "Writing..." notification appears and then it stops after a few seconds. It happens several times before a new message arrives.
[ TXT : Vale, Kattigan 🐺] i'm sorry [ TXT : Vale, Kattigan 🐺] that was extremely uncalled for
[ TXT : @topshelfperverts ] are you free tonight?
[ TXT : De Lioncourt, Lestat ] i mean [ TXT : De Lioncourt, Lestat ] i have some errands to run [ TXT : De Lioncourt, Lestat ] but i could make the time
Writing...
[ TXT : De Lioncourt, Lestat ] is this about what i think it is? [ TXT : De Lioncourt, Lestat ] you do not have the baron's authorization for a concert, lestat!
Writing...
He stops. A few seconds pass.
Writing...
[ TXT : De Lioncourt, Lestat ] i most definitely should not be seen at an illegal concert
[ TXT : @l1felike ] did you get home safe?
[ TXT : Nayar, Azune 🌇 ] i did? [ TXT : Nayar, Azune 🌇 ] i'm okay [ TXT : Nayar, Azune 🌇 ] thank you for asking
A few seconds pass. [ TXT : Nayar, Azune 🌇 ] should i be [ TXT : Nayar, Azune 🌇 ] i mean [ TXT : Nayar, Azune 🌇 ] is there anything i should be worrying about? [ TXT : Nayar, Azune 🌇 ] like [ TXT : Nayar, Azune 🌇 ] in particular [ TXT : Nayar, Azune 🌇 ] i know there's lots of things i should worry about
Writing...
[ TXT : Nayar, Azune 🌇 ] azune, is everything alright?
[ txt ] : do you always do this or just to me? @bleedsthrough - occtis
[ txt: ghouli ]: you're so special tesoro [ txt: ghouli ]: of course i only disappear on you <3
[ txt: ghouli ]: nessa mentioned you were looking for me
writing...
writing...
[ txt: ghouli ]: u good?
[ TXT : ghouli ✨️ ] haha [ TXT : ghouli ✨️ ] you're always so funny 🙄 [ TXT : ghouli ✨️ ] it was nothing [ TXT : ghouli ✨️ ] i overreacted [ TXT : ghouli ✨️ ] family's in town [ TXT : ghouli ✨️ ] i get fidgety [ TXT : ghouli ✨️ ] are you at the hallowed round still?
[ TXT : ghouli ✨️ ] i want to see you [deleted message] [ TXT : ghouli ✨️ ] we should meet up
ᝰ🚬 𝚉𝙰𝙲𝙷𝚁𝙿 .ᐟ RANDOM TEXT MESSAGE PROMPTS. CHANGE ANY PRONOUNS IF NECESSARY. SOME MATURE THEMES MAY BE PRESENT.
[TXT] : answer the question.
[TXT] : you left your jacket here.
[TXT] : ignore that last message.
[TXT] : must be my fault somehow.
[TXT] : this was a bad idea but i'm doing it anyway.
[TXT] : guess i misunderstood the vibe.
[TXT] : i'm only texting you because i'm drunk.
[TXT] : i can't stop thinking about your hands.
[TXT] : you're not gonna believe this..
[TXT] : i'm blushing shut up.
[TXT] : okay wait no don't answer that.
[TXT] : i didn't say anything because i didn't want to argue.
[TXT] : be honest with me.
[TXT] : are you free tonight?
[TXT] : i'll explain later, just call me now!
[TXT] : i like it when you looked at me like that.
[TXT] : i should stop texting before this escalates.
[TXT] : i keep rereading that message.
[TXT] : are you trying to distract me on purpose.
[TXT] : i hate that you were right.
[TXT] : you'd be so proud of me right now and also disappointed.
[TXT] : cheers to bad decisions.
[TXT] : i had a dream about you.
[TXT] : i thought you were coming?
[TXT] : wow that's crazy.
[TXT] : it's whatever honestly.
[TXT] : your stuff is still here.
[TXT] : open the door.
[TXT] : what are you doing right now?
[TXT] : don't screenshot this.
[TXT] : don't make me ask twice.
[TXT] : i'm grabbing coffee, want one?
[TXT] : what are we?
[TXT] : no really it's fine.
[TXT] : you don't have to lie.
[TXT] : i don't feel great.
[TXT] : don't rush i've only been waiting.
[TXT] : i forgot the grocery list.
[TXT] : don't do this over text.
[TXT] : did i do something wrong?
[TXT] : i don't trust myself around you.
[TXT] : running late sorry.
[TXT] : you make it hard to be good.
[TXT] : i told myself i wouldn't text you tonight.
[TXT] : are you mad at me.
[TXT] : please answer me.
[TXT] : i told you not to do that.
[TXT] : can i come over?
[TXT] : i'm outside.
[TXT] : you're being unfair.
[TXT] : that's not an excuse.
[TXT] : can you stay on the phone with me?
[TXT] : are you busy?
[TXT] : please tell me you're okay.
[TXT] : i think i fucked up.
[TXT] : i need to vent.
[TXT] : do you want food?
[TXT] : this is messing with my head.
[TXT] : i should not be imagining this right now.
[TXT] : are you mad at me?
[TXT] : please say something.
[TXT] : can you lie for me?
[TXT] : i found your keys!
[TXT] : i just thought you'd let me know.
[TXT] : i know you're awake.
[TXT] : stay the night.
[TXT] : you look good and you know it.
[TXT] : this reminded me of you!
[TXT] : this conversation is not helping my self control.
[TXT] : i love how you only respond when it's convenient.
[TXT] : i love you and i hate that i love you.
[TXT] : you left me on read.
[TXT] : i cleared my schedule.
[TXT] : i can't keep doing this.
[TXT] : are you alone?
[TXT] : stuck in traffic.
[TXT] : you could've just said no.
[TXT] : i don't want to be alone.
[TXT] : who are you with?
[TXT] : something has to change.
[TXT] : if you were here right now i'd be in serious trouble.
[TXT] : i'm done.
[TXT] : don't tease me.
[TXT] : i'm getting worried.
[TXT] : oh okay i guess we're not talking anymore.
[TXT] : where are you??
[TXT] : i'm thinking about you.
[TXT] : i hate nights like this without you.
[TXT] : can you come get me?
[TXT] : look up.
[TXT] : i trust you.
[TXT] : i need help.
[TXT] : this is flirting right?
[TXT] : i changed my mind about earlier.
[TXT] : it's fine do whatever you want.
[TXT] : it's not what it looked like, okay?
[TXT] : my brain won't shut up about last night.
[TXT] : please come get me before i make worse choices.
[TXT] : that was not funny.
[TXT] : i'm proud of you.
[TXT] : i don't know why i'm telling you this.
[TXT] : i'm sorry, i should've said something sooner
[TXT] : please don't be mad..
[TXT] : are you coming over or just teasing me?
[TXT] : i won't bother you again.
[TXT] : i almost sent this three times.
[TXT] : did you get home safe?
[TXT] : you don't owe me anything clearly.
[TXT] : i miss you.
[TXT] : guess who i just ran into..
[TXT] : i can't sleep.
[TXT] : i need clarity.
[TXT] : tell me to behave.
[TXT] : okay fine you win.
[TXT] : hello?
[TXT] : you did good.
[TXT] : do you miss me?
[TXT] : i'm bored, entertain me.
[TXT] : are you safe??
[TXT] : you're unbelievable.
[TXT] : i shouldn't have said what i said earlier.
[TXT] : i hope you're asleep because this is embarrassing.
[TXT] : don't ever say that again.
[TXT] : are you flirting with me?
[TXT] : you owe me gas money.
[TXT] : stop avoiding me.
[TXT] : call me when you see this!
[TXT] : you still mad?
[TXT] : can we talk in person?
[TXT] : can i crash at your place?
[TXT] : you're going to get me in trouble.
[TXT] : i'm spiraling.
[TXT] : you're doing this on purpose.
[TXT] : okay i'm done texting now.
[TXT] : you look cute.
[TXT] : glad you had fun.
[TXT] : i'm exhausted.
[TXT] : i'm trying to be respectful but you're not helping.
[TXT] : why would you think that was okay??
[TXT] : i want to move on.
[TXT] : thanks for the heads up i guess.
[TXT] : you left your panties here for a reason didn't you.
[TXT] : you know exactly what you're doing.
[TXT] : please don't tell anyone.
[TXT] : remember when we said we wouldn't do this again.
[TXT] : i can't find my shoes.
[TXT] : do you always do this or just to me?
[TXT] : tell me you don't miss me so i can shut up.
[TXT] : you crossed a line.
[TXT] : you up?
[TXT] : you didn't have to do that.
[TXT] : don't get smug.
[TXT] : i'm on my way!
[TXT] : i should not be saying this.
[TXT] : remind me to tell you later.
[TXT] : come over.
Okay, but if to Painful Kiss I add Baby Fangs as flaws, Occtis definitely carries a scalpel and/or a syringe to take blood from his victims.
@bleedsthrough asked: " you're not afraid enough. "
He would be a fool not to notice the way Occtis' shoulders tense every time his... former family comes up, and he would be a liar to say he does not understand it. A liar he is, but not with them. Certainly not with another thinblood. " I am. I am afraid every time I go in there. "
YOU ARE THE BOTTOM OF THE FOOD CHAIN AND YOU BOTH KNOW IT.
"I've just learned to hide it very well, since before I died." The Hallowed Round is a relatively safe space for that discussion. Most of Thjazi's close circle know of his work. A knife perhaps to fall if he ever thinks of betraying them. That is not what matters right now though.
BUT THERE IS SAFETY IN THAT, POWER. NOT ALL KNOWLEDGE IS DANGEROUS TO SHARE. YOU'LL STILL BE USEFUL.
"Did you want to warn me of something?" Wide sunset eyes look at him, void of lies and schemes and power for once. Just a curiosity to be indulged. "Or, do you want to learn how to not look afraid?"
He has been thinking about this a long time. Thinking, thinking, thinking, do you ever do something else, Occtis? Or fear has you so frozen that you just wait for others to do it for you? All of these people, they don't his family like he does; they hadn't have face the force of entropy that is his father, they truly don't know what they're dealing with. You've been trying to tell them, haven't you? But be honest, who would listen to a coward?
Azune's words hit harder than he thinks they will. A part of him feels for the child that was lost in a constant struggle not be seen. Takes one to know one, doesn't it? He gets lost in those sunset eyes for a second, looking for that fear, perhaps, or maybe just basking on someone's undivided attention.
" I am saying we all should be careful on how we act, " is what he ends up saying, sickly green eyes breaking from the direct contact, you can hurt yourself, looking directly at the sun like that " I know this place feels safe for now, but--- " he breathes, guesses a truth for a truth is not such a bad deal. " I wish I just knew how to stop looking over my shoulder every night. "
julien. of course. if there was one kindred more popular than her at the moment, it was him. he had many connection in l.a., far more that she had realized. it was both incredibly useful and, in moments like this, frustrating. her jaw unclenched. " he's not met the final death, if that's what you're asking. " julien had been the one to pull her out of the carnage primus had released upon them both, as difficult as it had been for him. eyes wild, covered in vitae, he had fought against the beast itself to bring her to safety. for that, he was in her debt eternally.
he could call upon that debt at any time and if he were smart, he would ask for your vitae. i don't need to tell you how dangerous it is, owing a debt to someone like him.
" where he is tonight i do not know. i am not his keeper. " it was safer that nessa didn't know where julien went most nights, though it ate at her. she worried for his safety, always. worried he would do something dangerous without warning her. " i do know he has plans to visit the hallowed round at some point. perhaps you could wait for him there. and, while you're at it, you can tell thjazi that the next thinblood he sends after me will not be as lucky as you. "
There is an extreme sense of relief, confirming what he had already suspected. He'd figured there was no way his family could've ended Julien Davinos and hide his demise in the dark, but when he figured Nessa was alone, worry had filled him until he could not longer resist approaching her. And look where that get you, beaten like ragged doll and still mistrusted. Caring truly makes you stupid, doesn't it?
" I'm not--- " he tries to argue, but in the end he realizes it's none of his business, whatever the relationship between the prince and her confidant is. Does it hurt, Occtis? Does it make you jealous? They'll always have one another while you will always play second fiddle to everyone else. " I just came to warn you. And him. My siblings have been sighted all around L.A. It's not safe for either of you, these nights. "
Nodding at her warning he moves to leave, but something stops him. How long are you gonna let people believe you're being controlled by someone? First you family, then the Baron. Are you not done with it? No longer a ghoul and yet you keep acting like one. He turns around to face her, annoyed both at her for her words and at himself for feeling bothered by them. " You know? I work him, but not everything I do is because of him. Julien cares about you and so I came. I had nothing to do with what happened in Seattle, but my siblings most certainly did. Please be careful? "
I've gotta admit, I've never cared much about LA/NY by Night. I tried it once, but Jason as Storyteller doesn't captivate me nearly enough to see multiple seasons, even if I know most of the players at that table are fantastic...
And yet, this compilation of Brennan Lee Mulligan as Adrian Clairmont has lived rent free in my head for YEARS.
she waits another ten seconds before releasing her grasp on him, stepping back to the other side of the alley. on her face, she wears a mask of annoyance boarding on rage. inside, the beast twists, coiling itself around her mind again and again.
see, he had nothing to do with it. now you've gone and bruised him up for nothing. always breaking delicate things, nessa. perhaps you should just finish the job you started. i bet he tastes divine.
" why wouldn't you lie? i bet he has a pretty reward for my head. status. prominence. a place within his inner circle. " her arms move to brush dirt off of her coat, fingers lingering over a small tear in the hem of her blouse. she'll have to get that fixed. " but if he didn't send you, that means someone else did. " he wouldn't be stupid enough to come after her of his own accord. or maybe he was. her time with him in the past had been so limited. " thjazi. " she spits his name out like it is some kind of curse, " is he the reason why you're stalking me? "
He falls to his knees coughing and heaving for air for a second, and he would laugh if he could, at the idea of being welcomed into his family's cold embrace just by delivering them the prince. But you would like that, don't you? Your father's approval, at long last... Such a shame it is an impossible. He grits his teeth and fists his hands before speaking again: " My father made... quite sure... I understood my place... in his inner circle, " he speaks slowly, bruised throat protesting at every word, always so delicate, poor little Occtis.
He takes a few seconds to breathe. Of course, she'd figured Thjazi had something to with this and while it was true he had asked him to keep an eye on her, the truth is so much simple. So simple it's disgusting... Sentiment.
He uses the brick wall to help himself into an standing position again and decides to dodge the question for now. You really think you're clever, don't you? " Where is @sangu1no? Royce and Davinos is what they said. If he's not with you... "
✦ ⋆ 𖤓 ⋆ ✦ 𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐃 𝐎𝐍 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐒𝐋𝐄𝐄𝐕𝐄 ··· a collection of injuries tended in silence, pain worn like armour, the intimacy of being seen at your worst. genre: hurt and comfort, angst, romance, drama.
• You're bleeding through your shirt. Don't tell me you're fine. • How long have you been walking around like this? • I'm not going to hurt you. I just need to see how bad it is. • You should have told me the moment it happened. • Hold still. I mean it. Hold still. • This is going to sting. Bite down on something if you need to. • You've been hiding this for days, haven't you. • Who did this to you? I need you to tell me who did this. • Stop being brave for five minutes and let me help you. • I've seen worse. I've also seen men die from worse, so let me look at it. • I found the bandages in the trash. You want to explain that? • Don't you dare apologize for bleeding on me. • Your hands are cold. That's not a good sign. • I'm not angry. I'm terrified. There's a difference. • Come into the light. Let me see your face. • You should have stitches. I know you won't go. So sit down and let me do what I can. • You're white as a sheet and still trying to stand up straight. • I could hear you in the night. I didn't say anything. I'm saying something now. • Don't look at it if it makes it worse. Just look at me. • It's not weak to let someone see you hurt. • You came to me. Of all the places you could have gone, you came here. • Lay back. You're not getting up until the color comes back to your face. • I'm not going to ask what happened. Not yet. First let me fix what I can. • You've been holding your left side since you walked in. Think I didn't notice? • This is going to leave a mark. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. • I've patched up a lot of people in my time. None of them scared me like you do right now. • You could have died out there. You could have died and I would have been the last person to know. • Sleep. I'll be right here when you wake up. I'm not going anywhere. • You're allowed to make a sound. Nobody's watching. • I need you to stay awake for me. Just a little longer. Talk to me. • You're lucky the cut wasn't deeper. • Stop apologizing for needing help. Stop it right now. • I've seen what it looks like when someone's used to this. That's what scares me most about you. • Tell me your name. Tell me what day it is. Stay with me. • You're going to be alright. I promise you. • You went back out there after this? With this? • Nobody takes care of you, do they? That ends tonight. • I've been gentle with you. I need you to be honest with me in return. • You're safe now. You're here, you're safe, and I've got you. Just breathe.
@bleedsthrough / occtis spits out: " you have to believe me , i didn’t do this ! "
" then why risk showing your face at all? " it took her thirty seconds to spot him, ten to pin him to the cracked cement of the alleyway. her fingers wrap around his neck, nails digging into the soft flesh of his throat. it would be so easy for her to dig them in, to draw blood. it would be the ventrue thing to do. but nessa is not a ventrue. and somewhere in the back of her head, behind the anguish and the rage, behind the beast itself, a small voice poses a question: what if he's telling the truth?
" why are you here, occtis? you really cannot expect me to believe you weren't involved in what he did. " nessa can feel him, squirming beneath her, grasping for some sort of leverage. she presses down harder. " answer me and answer me true or i will rip your throat out! "
The pain almost blinds him and if he wasn't for his blood, weak as it is, he's sure he'd be dead the moment his back hit the wall behind him. You must have know this would happen, right? You're friends with his ex, the son of her greatest enemy, of course she was gonna mistrust you. " Does it look like they ever fill me in their plans? " He rasps with difficulty. He luckily doesn't need to breathe much to live, but talking while having your trachea squeezed is so much harder than it looks. " I heard them talking, behind close doors. " He tries to explain, his hand grabbing at Nessa's wrist as if he could move her, God, aren't you supposed to be smart? " The end of Royce and Davinos, they said. I didn't stayed much longer after that. " He had run to her haven as fast as he could and clearly wasn't fast enough, when have you ever been enough?
His eyes are filling with tears by the lack of air, his tell-tale heart beating so fast he hears it in his ears. " Why would I lie, Nessa?! " he tries to scream, feeling faint, " Why would I...? " She cuts any chance of speaking, by pressing harder. Well, let it not be said you didn't tried your best.
The bane of the Hecata might be one of the saddest facts about Occtis. The kiss is supposed to be pleasant, it's supposed to be intimate. Now every time he feeds, he not only has to worry not only to control the hunger, but also not to damage the one he feeds on. He prefers to feed from bags for this reason. And he would avoid any kind of diablere adjacent acts (like drinking from another kindred, for example), even if it's offered.
" Stay clear of this, leave it to me. " @sangu1no spoke.
" What do you m--- " you know exactly what it means, boy. You were nothing more than the means to an end, you always have been. He runs after Julien, grabs him by the shoulder before he can walk straight into the lion's den.
" Hey, hey! You can't just leave me behind, " can't he? what would you even bring to the table? You're nothing but dead weight, his grip on the leather of the other's jacket tightens " this is my family we're talking about! " There is something slightly desperate in his voice, but still he doubts, are they? They casted you into this half existence and then blamed you for it. Family is not supposed to do that...
He breathes, heart beating in his chest when it's not supposed to, reminding him of his butchered embrace; he never let's go of the jacket. Be honest with yourself, Occtis Tachonis, are you really worried about them, or about Julien Davinos?
"I-I-I know the place inside out, I cant get there when they're all still asleep, I can--- I can help! Let me help you. " he finally pleads. Well, there's your answer.
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" The abyss calls out. " @sangu1no spoke.
She knows there are some within the order that fear these creatures, but if there is anything Eva Stratt had learnt from immortals in the decades she has been studying them is that, more often than not, they will try to deflect attention from what's being asked of them by trying to sound mysterious or profound.
" Is the abyss called Aranessa Royce, by any chance? " She asks, daringly. Davinos is impulsive, but to mess with the Talamasca is to mess with a delicate balance that's bigger than the squabbles between the sabbat and the camarilla and the anarchs. The Masquerade itself would be threatened if anything happened to her.
The superior general sighs, " Relax, we're not telling anyone she's alive, but there have been sightings and we needed to corroborate the rumors, nothing more. "
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