Bllelelel

I am a sinner living in HELL!!! The sun burns me today and every ugly flower rots when it sees me!!! I dragged myself out of the house this morning. Nothing is like a cartoon, the flower snarls like (¬_¬) and snaps instead of swaying. My enemies and I are sinking through the ocean on this cracked globe. I don’t hope to be happy!!!

[blehehehhsh]

world really is unfair for afab ppl bc what do you mean having my period is not a valid excuse to sleep all day and do nothing

[blehehehhsh]

i’ve always thought men and women aren’t really that different mentally. the biggest differences are just physical. gender roles and all the “be a man / be a woman” stuff just… hurt everyone.

being trans for me isn’t about makeup or short hair or anything like that. it’s about wanting a different body or voice. clothes and hair just change how people see me, that’s it. the things themselves don’t bother me, it’s what they mean socially. a lot of people who feel “wrong” in their gender aren’t really trans, they’re just stuck in society’s rules. a “masculine girl” isn’t treated like a “masculine boy,” so some people feel like transitioning is the only way to just be themselves. if gender didn’t exist, life would be way easier. imagine sex is just biology, like eye color, and gender doesn’t exist at all. people could still transition if they wanted, but it wouldn’t be about “becoming a man” or “becoming a woman.” everyone could just… exist. instead of “girl who's a tomboy” or “boy who’s a femboy,” it’s just “person in a pink dress” or “person in jeans and a t-shirt.” way more unique, isn't it?

btw i’m not a terf or a transmed. i don’t think anyone’s identity is invalid. i just think gender itself is harmful and dumb, but i’m not gonna be an asshole about it.

[blehehehhsh]

I have made the mistake of letting my parents rename me

now my options are:

- Tiberius

- Marcus Aurelius

- Ragnar

and some otherbullshit.

🫠

[blehehehhsh]

"Can you be normal?"

no

[blehehehhsh]

IM HAVING SHIP WITHDRAWALS. LIFE IS REALLY HARD WHEN YOUR FAVES ARE A RARE PAIR DESPITE HAVING SO MUCH CHEMISTRY BUT EVERYONE JUST IGNORES IT GHHGGHHHHH

[frontmansdog]

mentally taking a drag of my mental cigarette because I don’t smoke but life has been very smokable lately

[kvassretriever]

[blehehehhsh]

manic pixie dream girl

- overused

- fetishizes neurodivergent women

- exists to fix a man

- quirkiness as consumable aesthetic

manic vampire nightmare girl

- cool

- underrated

- gothic

- is allowed to be dark, inconvenient, hungry, and selfish

- does not fix you, feeds on you (metaphorically or otherwise)

[blehehehhsh]

I feel awful socially. I hate it. I hate talking to people, especially people my age. I hate that we're all human beings living on earth that's so crazy... and they all just talk about such nonsense stuff. I'm not even trying to be mean but I just don't see them as real people sometimes, they feel like filler people. And I'm forced to do all these social things and look at who's talking and smile to show I'm nice and I always forget to ask stuff back when they ask me and.. Idk i just hate it. I have no social intelligence.

[blehehehhsh]

i go to therapy so i can lie about my life to some guy twice a week for no reason. i just make shit up. all of it. for fun. for the joke. i dont care if he believes me.

[blehehehhsh]

i dont have a political ideology. i dont have one. not left not liberal not right not center not anything. i dont believe in communism it doesnt work and i dont believe in capitalism either its all fake bullshit. i hate the government but im not an anarchist dont put that on me.

when i was like 13 i said i was a russian imperialist just because it sounded hard and it stayed there for no reason. i dont even care about russia. i dont care about the tsars. i dont want a tsar. unless its me. actually no not even me thats stupid.

i want power but i dont want to rule. i dont want laws or systems or people listening to me or arguing with me. i dont want to be a dictator thats still human shit. i dont want an ideology i dont want a state i dont want a future plan.

i dont want to run anything.

i want to be GOD.