"Ever since I was a little girl, I have always been trained to be perfect. Be the perfect daughter, perfect student, perfect best friend and perfect girlfriend. I am only a sophomore in college and I feel like I am straight into adulthood. Did I also mention I am only 19? I’m from Yonkers. We are not trained to be depressed. I think that’s how it goes down in every black and brown household. We are taught that we can’t be drained in self-pity and depression. We are taught to dust yourself off and try again. When I first came to college, I really didn’t know what depression really was. I try to put up this picture of myself being so perfect and I am always on top of my stuff. As people can see, I am always on my phone because I always try to make myself busy. The summer after freshman year, I started having anxiety and panic attacks from all the load I tried to hide from myself. No one would know because I would always have people think that I have it all together. I had to be real honest with myself about the fact that I am not perfect and that is okay. Yes! I am a good student and all but I also make mistakes just like everybody else. Usually when I do something bad, I am always so down on myself. Honestly, I am still working on that because that is not good for me. For the first time in my life, I am starting to embrace my mistakes. Luckily, I have people in my corner who reassure me that it is okay to make mistakes and learn from them. Just accepting myself and my mistakes has taken a hell of a load off of me. I look forward to more days loving myself and embracing future mistakes." For more, visit the @blendtw website 👨🏾💻👩🏽💻 (at Yonkers, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BripM-_ns1K/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=12c6w945ochl0











