ok ok so noah is finally back from tour right and youâre so glad and all you want to do is enjoy his presence, which means maybe youâre a little clingier than usual. noah knows this and is just as clingy as you so thereâs no concern.
BUT one night youâre hanging out with the guys watching some movie youâre not even paying attention to; youâre laying half on top of noah and heâs got both his arms around you, holding you tight
what if when he gets up to go to the rest room, one of the guys makes an off hand comment, jokingly of course (no malicious intent), about how clingy you are; and how noah must feel since he spent the last month cramped up in a bus in close proximity with a lot of people
you give him a small smile and a half laugh and try to focus your attention on the movie bit now the gears in your head are spinning.
is he just going along with it to appease you?
so from then on, you give him space
youâre not climbing into his lap to be close to him, youâre not laying on his chest when you go to bed. no holding his hand every second or pulling him into a hug
he tries to pull you close and you pull away. not because you want to but because you think thats what he wants. you donât think heâll even notice
oh but he does. noahâs an observant guy and he knows you like the back of his hand so of course he notices
noah thinks he did something wrong. he thinks youâre upset with him and that must be why youâre avoiding being close to him. he doesnât know what he did though and you wonât even be alone in a room with him so how is he supposed to fix it?
so one night he corners you in your shared bedroom and sits you down on the bed, him kneeling in front of you and asks what he did wrong and why youâre upset with him
and you, you are beside yourself because what does he mean what did he do wrong???
so you start to tell him he didnât do anything and youâre not upset but he cuts you off and starts to point out every single time heâs tried to get close to you and youâve backed off
your face flushes and you look down at your hands in your lap bc you canât look him in the eye but then he grabs your hands with one of his and uses the other one to tilt your chin up so youâre face to face with him again
he softly asks you whatâs wrong and you hesitate before telling him that you were giving him space
noah is, for a lack of a better word, flabbergasted bc where the fuck did you get the idea that he wanted space. his surprise is written all over his face and you quickly go to elaborate
you tell him it occurred to you (bc youâre not going to throw his friend under the bus) that he just spent a month on a bus, sleeping on a small bunk bed in close quarters with his band mates and friends; and that he probably wanted to be able to decompress without you hanging onto and smothering him every second
heâs unable to hide his concern bc how could you ever think that he would want space from you?
you, the only person in the world he wants near him at all times. you, the person who go him through all of those rough nights on tour bc he knew he would get to come home to you and hold you and kiss you all he wanted
he recovers from his initial shock and is quick to reassure you that space is absolutely not what he wants from you
âbaby how could you think that?â
âi love you and all i wanted the entire time i was on tour was to come home and hold you for as long as i couldâ
âi want you to âsmotherâ me, please baby i want you close for as long as you want to beâ
âcanât believe you thought i wanted to be away from you after i was away from you for a whole monthâ
âlongest month of my lifeâ
âi worked hard on tour, i think iâm entitled to as many cuddles and kisses as i wantâ
âi donât know where you got this crazy idea but i have never wanted space from you before and i certainly donât nowâ
âcâmere give me cuddles to make up for all the ones youâve stolen from me the past few daysâ
