My Feelings

Somewhere to just let out every part of my inner being. I can hate, love, be sad, and just have every emotion in the book. I just need somewhere... to let it all out. This is the place.

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Why does my dad think this?

My dad absolutely thinks:

That YOU are using me.

That YOU have a girlfriend already.

That I'm just a "booty-call"

But I know it's not true. It still makes me wonder. I think my dad (of all people) is racist. I always joke around about that but he claims to just want what's best for his daughter! But that sucks for him because I love my hybrid boyfriend :)

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Life as it is.

Sophomore year. One word. SUCKED! I hated this year. There were some good and bad times, but the bad times make me want to punch a wall. People don't seem to realize that life IS too short to get mad at people. This is why I take advantage of my own kindness to be there for people. I want to prove to people that it is possible to be there for the best friends/friends who made mistakes. I mean, C'mon! Is this all going to matter once we go off to college or mature into grown adults?..... NO! That's why I want to make the best of high school. Let's face it... 13-18 are the worst years of a person's life. They can either make or break you. Either way, everyone changes and it sucks.

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Stupid Person.

You know how there are those “peoples” that you just want to throw in front of a train? I have one of those peoples. He’s stupid, rude, and needs to stop expressing his opinions when I don’t want them. I don’t even like him. No one does… Except HER. One of my closest friends and I’m there for her… but I refuse to feel bad for her when she’s ruined by him. I hate him. I hate him. And in case it’s not noticeable, I HATE HIM. *insert face of grotesque here*

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Dear boyfriend,

I freaking love you :3 I know there are times where I can be so hard headed, but I love how you talk to me through it. You never give up on me :) I wish our relationship wasn't long distance, but I know I have to wait. Good things come to those who wait, right? I wish it was a lot sooner though. I MISS YOU. You were my best friend in elementary school and a little bit of 6th grade, than I had to move :( BUT, we didn't even have feelings for each other... Well, I did, and I regret not telling you, but you had a crush on someone else so I bit my tongue from telling a soul. Fast forward 3-4 years, and we got back in contact because of an add on Facebook by you! :D I was so shocked, that I had to message you to make sure! AND IT WAS! <3 After text messaging you for a day, I honestly didn't feel anything at first, like I did when I was younger... We didn't talk for a few months after that until I finally texted you again. I found out so many things about you:

1. You suffered a tough heart break </3

2. You went through depression...

3. You love to fish :)

4. You got attached to me, after texting me for a few weeks, after I told you how much it would hurt you if you got attached to me.

5. We ended up falling in love with each other and voila! We're dating :)

YOU ARE MY LOVE :)

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Dear Family,

Will you all shut up? You guys are all so loud and obnoxious! Doesn't make it any better that you guys find every chance to make fun of me. Deep down, I really hate you all. But I can't... Because you're FAMILY. Maybe I'm going through this phase because I'm a teenager, but oh well. What I'm looking forward to the most, Is to grow up and get out of this house. I hate it here.