last full day in korea (FOR NOW)
wow, the day is finally here. and wow. i just woke up feeling so many emotions.
I've come to think of this place as home. it took me longer to adjust here because of the language barriers (many of which have been broken-thank you korean language class!) but eventually i felt so comfortable here and welcomed. i know there is a division among Koreans and their opinions on foreigners, but i was greeted with nothing but kindness while staying here.
i wanted to blog about this in a completely honest way, so i will.
i have a plethora of reasons i don't want to go home, but i have hundreds of other reasons to go home. i've read somewhere that studying abroad can make you hate your own country, quite frankly that's how i feel. i've never been a fan of America in the first place, but now especially i've grown to hate more and more things about the culture. especially, my own culture. southern culture.
coming here, people told me later they were nervous about meeting me and believed the stereotype because they saw on Facebook that i'm blonde, southern, and in a sorority. i've even had a guy here get way too obsessed with me to the point of harassment simply because i'm a blonde sorority girl so he made several incorrect assumptions about me. although i love southern food and saying "y'all" as well as addressing everyone as sir/m'am, being here in one of the biggest cities in the world has just completely changed my view on the small town suburban lifestyle i've been living back home. i definitely feel as though i am more suited for city life. thankfully, once people here got to know me they said i was completely different from what they expected. i mean, do most sorority girls jump on an airplane by themselves and fly out to south korea?(no, they go to Africa for a week for "mission trips" -google the article about global voluntourism, i completely agree with her opinion)
korean culture isn't perfect. no culture is perfect. i could write about things that, in my opinion, i don't agree with. but i don't feel as though it's my place and so i won't. it's really the little things here that have made me feel alive and heart-happy. it's the small kindnesses by strangers, like a man giving us his taxi when it was raining, and the little korean girls nervously coming to talk to us from the english language camp so they could practice their english, that have made this trip so impactful. i knew about the big cultural differences, but there was so much i didn't expect. i've learned so much here. i've experienced so much here.
and i'm sad because no one back home will really understand how much this has impacted me. i'm glad i've made a tight group of friends here so we can always talk when we get home (i actually have plans to visit my sarah, the other southern belle on this trip & my bff) but besides that, no one else will really get it. every day here has been an adventure. i've loved every second of it. i loved walking up the "thousand steps of death" huffing and puffing with my best friends. i loved walking down the hallway of school and hearing so many languages being spoken, so many accents. i've loved being able to not only experience korean culture, but every other culture represented in the kids that came to the international summer campus as well.
so, today is my last full day in korea.. for now.
i came here to decide if i could actually live and teach ESL here when i graduate.
and i am confident i can. I know now that this is what i want to do with my life, travel and teach english.
So, three more years from now hopefully i will be hopping on an airplane to head over here and live more permanently.
with that being said! i am going to keep this blog forever. no other "blonde seouls". i will continue to update it when i get home, there's a lot i wanted to say but didn't because i was always so busy. I will gladly answer anyone else's questions about studying abroad in korea and korea university or just coming to korea in general.
so, that's it for now. i am tired, and i am sad to be leaving, really i am so so sad.
(but i am so looking forward to some home cooked mac and cheese and a diet coke and a nice dinner with my family)
bye now :)
much love, blondeseoul
(paige evelyn)
Hanja-traditional korean writing- "live out your dreams"
((and yes, it's fake. my mommy would KILL me!))










