Boom, boom, went the canons raging on in Airiana’s heart. Catapoulting they went, ripping through, and shredding everything in their path. Damon Salvatore was lethal. Damon Salvatore was gun powder that she’d incidentally lit herself.
Her heart was beating so fast, she couldn’t wrap her mind around what was happening, where she was, how she got so mad, where her head stung like she’d just gotten hit. She shook in his grip, trying to breathe but somehow it was all so much. Too much.
Upon realizing she was trapped, cornered, locked in his grip she began to fight again, panic slicing her like a knife. “STOP! STOP IT! LET ME GO! GOD DAMMIT DAMON! LET ME GO! FUCKING STOP IT, JUST!- STOP SPEAKING! STOP! I DON’T WANT TO HEAR IT, JUST SHUT UP!”
Her body shook with sobs, she didn’t want to hear it. Didn’t want to listen. Didn’t want to be forced to listen. As much as she tried to ignore it, Damon reminded her of her father. Violent, and strong and it scared her to death. The grip on her wrists, the proximity, the alcohol stained breath, it was all too familiar.
"STOP! LET ME GO! I HATE YOU! YOU FUCKING LET ME GO RIGHT NOW! I’LL KILL YOU RIGHT NOW DAMON! STOP IT! STOP!" No matter how hard she tried, she was locked in place with his strength. He held her down like an anchor, drowning her while somehow keeping her afloat. The grip was secure she had to make sure she didn’t get it confused with safety, because she wasn’t safe. Not at all. Not in her mind. Safe was away from the truth, in a distant land filled with bourbon and stakes. Airiana didn’t want to mistake being pinned down and being forced to listen as some sort of safety harness.
Damon Salvatore was not safe. He was dangerous, and manipulative and cruel, and he’d get inside your head the moment you opened your mouth just to see you crumble.
"I DON’T WANT TO GET THROUGH IT!" She screamed suddenly, finally meeting his eyes from longer than a second. "BECAUSE IF I GET THROUGH IT THAT MEANS HE’S REALLY GONE. IF I GIVE UP THAT MEANS HE’S REALLY DEAD. IT MEANS I’VE ACCEPTED THAT HE’S GONE AND I DON’T WANT TOO OKAY! FUCK YOU DAMON!
FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU!” The girl screamed, shuttering as she yelled.
Airiana seered with white hot anger. Drowned with her tears and sorrow. She hated this, she hated this feeling. Crying, shaking, screaming, weak- all of it she hated. But there was nothing else to say. Nothing left for her to scream in his face, nothing left for her to yell. She was only crying now. Just accepting defeat. Just being. It was her lose for words that made her stop. For once in her life, Airiana Saltzman didn’t have anything to say. Couldn’t muster a coherent thought even if she wanted.
She just stood there, locked in Damon’s grasp as her breathing slowed, though still audibly loud. The girl peered up into his eyes, the intensity of their blue hue captivating her all the while being the only thing she could look at because of his grasp.
She broke her own rules, Airiana did. She said she wouldn’t find relief, not in his arms, not like this. She promised herself she wouldn’t relax because she felt safe, because she wasn’t. Yet here she was, somehow beginning to time her breathing with his as if it were supposed to be some condolence. It sickened her, but strangely all she felt was relief.
Life was one big tornado for Airiana, wasn’t it? It started with a blue sky, and then there came a cloud. And that cloud stirred her up and elicited a storm and that storm because an unstoppable wind that whooshed in violent circles, picking up even more strife and destruction that it had in the first place.
Tornado, fire, girl, it didn’t matter what Airiana was. She was hell bent on a path to self-destruction and Damon was jeering her off the road to somewhere unbeknownst to her.
Damon’s comment on the bourbon snapped her to her senses. She furrowed her eyebrows in confusion at first, eyes still locked on the ocean blue orbs occupying those dark damn holes in his skull. Airiana continued to breathe somewhat heavily, still unable to find oxygen.
"I hate you…" She whispered in reply, unable to pick up on his typical sarcasm.