OrionsOreos

Neurodivergency and nerdy fuckery

[bloodylights97]

I romanticize myself, merely because no one around me ever has

I romanticize my teeth, for all my canines are so long, they look unnatural

I romanticize my black hair, for it curls up across my cheekbones, framing my eyes like pictures

I romanticize my eyes, for they refuse to stay the same color, their flecks spilling out underneath

Because, really. What is one more person for me to look at, and see beauty in all he is?

– BloodyLights

[brainstreams]

Don't use AI to write. Use cocaine like a real author.

[bloodylights97]

Hey there, I have a small question for you: do you happen to have a "books to read before dying" list? It's all right if you don't, but nobody around me seems to have one, and I'm wondering if people sometimes do (so basically, if I'm alone doing it).

Well, yes! I have a TBR list of over 700 books long that is growing by the day. Now, of course, there's a greater urge and will to read some more than others (ex. I wanna read 1984 more than These Hollow Vows (no shade, just my opinion)), tho they still do occupy the same amount of space in the basic TBR list. But there is a list of those I have a greater will to read, ex, The Divine Comedy, 1984, Necronomicon, Les Miserables, etc.. that I cannot imagine not ever reading. Some part of my soul just craves the consumption of these specific books.

I've also been operating under the assumption that everyone had such a list, but ey. The more you know! :))

[bloodylights97]

Aight, so

I haven't done a recap on "100 days of productivity" in about a week.

Reason: I am tired, and school starts on monday, and from there on out it is going to be studying 24/7 until the last of May. I've already prepared my family that I won't be coming over for a while.

Also, chronic pain is a thing. Went out walking today (not my choice, I had errands) and when I got home, I was apparently hyperventilating and realized everything hurts and I couldn't feel my legs. My bf, bless his heart, had to carry my to bed. It's also about 30-40 centimeters of snow out right now, and it's been blowing snowstorms for a week now. Not a good combo.

Don't get me wrong; I've missed school, and I've missed learning stuff. Sometimes so much it's given me pure anxiety. But these are going to be insanely stressful months.

So right now, I'm relaxing. I've been reading and doing sudoku and crosswords and bingeing Bones and Criminal Minds and childhood movies.

What I'm saying is, it is stressful and will become even more so. Just know, I ain't dead. I'll be back. Everything is just a lil wonky right now

Oreo, out ✌️

(Pinterest, my beloved)

[eymurn]

In your 20s, you'll feel like you're losing the race. It's important to understand that there is no race.

[sunset-toast]

Me when my chronic illness is chronic and my disability disables me:

[vancruejovi]

[trees-expertise]

Chat GPT who? I do all my schoolwork in a caffeine fuelled anxiety spiral at 3am while so tired I can’t see straight, just as god intended

[bloodylights97]

In your latest post, the math page with integrals has Arabic writing in the middle of the right page. Are you an Arab or studying in an Arabic country? Or was the picture used only because it was aesthetic? Either way, very cool picture!

I don't live in, nor do I study in, an Arabic country. I did pick the picture for the aesthetic, and also because my notes are starting to look more and more like those lol.

I do, however, love learning languages, and Arabic is very high up on that list. It's one of my goals to fully learn it one day! :)) Thank you!

[bloodylights97]

My current studying aesthetic

[wedarkacademia]

[freak-a-lick]

you don’t need perfect conditions to start. you just need to start. five minutes of focus is better than waiting for motivation to come.

[thelastsentencesblog]

the worst feeling is wanting to read but you wanna read so many different books and you can not decide so you end up reading nothing at all.

[moonss-and-stars]

Poetry is the language of the soul

[atlas-coolbean]

GET. AI. OUT. OF. FANDOM. Stop making headcanons with it, stop making fanfic with it, stop making fanart with it. If I see one more "asking chatgpt *blank* about *character/characters in a fandom* I'm going to lose my goddamn mind. Use your own fucking brain, stop asking AI to do everything. You could even ask other real people what they think. Just. Stop. Using. AI. In. Creative. Spaces.

[bloodylights97]

Stop using generative AI, period

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— via @juneacademia